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Review: Evangelion 2.0: You Can (Not) Advance

2009-12-03T00:03:00.007+08:00

Review: Evangelion 2.0: You Can (Not) Advance

Song of the moment: Shiro Sagisu - The Final Decision We All Must Take (Evangelion 2.0: You Can (Not) Advance OST)

This review was first posted on Animenauts.com

Matafleur (from GameSync.net and Animenauts.com's chief technical officer) and myself took a trip down to Orchard Cineleisure yesterday to watch Evangelion 2.0: You Can (Not) Advance before it closed on Wednesday.

Evangelion 2.0: You Can (Not) Advance is the second part of the Rebuild of Evangelion tetralogy of movies, which is a remake of the Neon Genesis Evangelion anime series. The Neon Genesis Evangelion anime series was first broadcast in Japan in 1995 and has since spawned several movies, mangas and video games. Produced by Studio Khara and Studio KlockWorx together with Gainax, this remake is written by Hideaki Anno (Nadia: The Secret of Blue Water, Evangelion Series, Kareshi Kanojo no Jijo) and directed by Mr. Anno and Kazuya Tsurumaki (Kareshi Kanojo no Jijo, FLCL). Evangelion 1.0: You Are (Not) Alone was essentially a retelling of the first six episodes of the original anime series, featuring updated animation, CGI and a new soundtrack by another Evangelion alumni, Shiro Sagisu.

Evangelion 2.0 is where it really starts to diverge from the original anime series. Various hints of it was shown in the Evangelion 1.0 and it is further developed in the second movie, with a new character introduced (Mari Illustrious Makinami, pilot of EVA Unit 5. Voiced by Maaya Sakamoto) and a number of major changes in plot. Before watching the second movie, I was a little worried that it might stick too closely to the plot of the original series and I was pleasantly surprised by the number of changes worked into the movie. I personally thought this allowed me, a fan of the original series, to enjoy the new movie more as well as look at Rebuild of Evangelion as more of a partial reboot (restart of a series with a new canon) as opposed to a remake (Especially with the preview of 3.0, where it looks totally different from the original series). Rebuild of Evangelion seems less pretentious and "emo" than the original series, giving it a seemingly brighter outlook. This makes it more accessible to new viewers of Evangelion (like Matafleur) and allows fans of the original (like myself) a new perspective to the franchise.

While it is certainly less "emo", it still has its fair share of heart-rending moments (Minor Spoiler: Unit 03 / Tenth Angel) as well as a slightly more sympathetic portrayal of Gendo. Other characters in the movie like Asuka and Shinji are seemingly more stable than their counterparts from the original series as well. The movie also has its fair share of "fanservice" to keep fans of the original happy (Spoiler: Asuka and PenPen).

What I am not too happy about is mainly two things. First would be the reduced role of Asuka, at least for 2.0. Continuing off from 1.0, 2.0 continues to lean towards more of a Shinji/Rei pairing. The main reasons being that I am a fan of the Asuka/Shinji ship ("ship" as in "relationship"). Since Evangelion 3.0: Q's preview is inconclusive regarding this particular issue, I do have hope that they might resolve it later. (Casual movie goers can just ignore this since its my fanboy tendencies acting up...)

Secondly, it would be the score for Evangelion 2.0 by Shiro Sagisu. I am not saying that the score was bad. In fact, I actually thought it was pretty good for an anime movie. What concerns me is that the music from certain scenes seemingly rips off another Gainax anime which Sagisu scored, Kareshi Kanojo no Jijo. While both Kare Kano and Evangelion 2.0 do share the same director and composer, the similarities in the music is a little too obvious. The tracks in question (if you happen to have the OST of Evangelion 2.0) are "2EM05 KK B09", "2EM06 KK B16", "2EM05 KK B09InDoor", "2EM10 KK C01 AddGuit", "2EM12 KK A09", "2EM10 KK C01", "2EM12 KK A09 Kuriya" and "2EM10 KK C01 Str+AcGuit". The ending theme song for 2.0 is just a remix of Evangelion 1.0's ending theme as well. Might this be a lack of creativity by Sagisu or a creative decision by Anno? While it certainly sounds good, it certainly isn't original...

Despite some questionable choices in terms of the music score, the movie still excels in all areas. From the animation to the characters to the plot, Hideaki Anno presents not just a movie which lives up to the reputation of the original series, but a movie which excels past the weaknesses inherent in the original series to become a great movie by itself.

Movie goers might want to watch the Evangelion 1.0 first so as to better appreciate the second film. One should also stay beyond the final credits to catch not just the preview for 3.0, but a surprise twist as well. While ending the movie like this does indeed whet one's appetite for the next movie, as Justin Sevakis of ANN says "what a wait this is gonna be..."

Rating: 9.0/10

AFA09 Preview

2009-11-18T16:36:00.005+08:00

AFA09 Preview

Song of the moment: ALI PROJECT - Datengoku Sensen (Tatakau Shisho: Book of Bantorra OP Theme)

Once again my monthly post arrives, in the midst of my school assignments...and what better thing is there to post about than the upcoming AFA09 (Anime Festival Asia) coming once again to Singapore this weekend at Suntec City.

First up, is of course the AniSong concert.

Looks like its gonna be pretty big with the 08 guests Ichiro Mizuki and May'n, as well as Hatsune Miku, Shoko-Tan and Yoshiki Fukuyama coming down to the Little Red Dot. Personally, I am more excited about the Sunday lineup, with Fukuyama and May'n, rather than the Saturday one with the other three. Of course, the May'n segment will likely be similar to last year's, except with a couple of new songs like Kimi Shinitamou Koto Nakare (The Shangri-la OP) as well as more from the upcoming Macross Frontier movie. However, especially with Fukuyama, I think the Sunday concert presents more value-for-money as opposed to the Saturday one with Mizuki, Miku and Shoko-Tan.

Next up will probably be the K-On Experience @ AFA09.

I was quite surprised they managed to get the seiyus to come down to Singapore. Seeing as to how they did not put who EXACTLY will be coming down, i will be crossing my fingers that they'll at least bring the main cast (Toyosaki Aki, Kotobuki Minako, Satou Satomi and Hikasa Yoko) down. Hoping to see them singing some of the K-On! songs...

There's also a number of pretty cool guests coming for the Animation Asia Conference (which I am not going because the entry fee is ridiculously expensive...) like Danny Choo, Mamoru Hosoda (Director of Tokikake and Summer Wars which looks like its going to be shown in SG soon) and Justin Sevakis (founder of Anime News Network).

Looks like AFA09 is gonna be pretty cool...I will be there in my Code Geass tee on Saturday and the NERV tee on Sunday. Hope to see you guys there!

An update on my current anime watchlist: Dropped Tagami Bachi and thinking of dropping Kampfer. Lack of time and interest in the above titles the main reasons...Didn't pick up any of my undecided titles. If anyone feels otherwise, feel free to post on my tagboard and explain why I should pick the anime up...who knows, I might be convinced...

Oops...before I go, my now-obligatory cool/cute anime screenshot of the month. Misaka Mikoto, the Railgun, in search of Gekota...

The (Possible) Disappearance of Anthony Chia

2009-10-05T10:23:00.008+08:00

The (Possible) Disappearance of Anthony Chia

Song of the moment: Aya Hirano - Super Driver (Suzumiya Haruhi no Yuutsu S2 OP theme)

I've managed to peel myself away from my games and studies for awhile so as to be able to type this post (Currently in my management lecture which is slowly but surely melting my brain...). My bad habit of procrastinating and doing last minute work still exists. I do try not to let it affect my work, which of course leads to more time spent on work and less sleep for me.

Zzzz...

Anyways, the new anime season is upon us...again. Thus, I shall once again list a few of the anime I am likely to be watching...

Upcoming Anime Highlights

Kampfer - I somewhat enjoyed Sekirei a couple of seasons ago. Of course, the bishoujo battle/comedy concept is not exactly very original but I do have a certain amount of expectation for this anime. Mainly because of Marina Inoue, Nana Mizuki, Marina Inoue, Yui Horie and Marina Inoue...

Tatakau Shisho: The Book of Bantorra - Being a big fan of Toshokan Sensou, its more or less a given that I'll watch this. Well, the premise and plot is understandably quite different from Toshokan Sensou but Books and Fighting is another Moe for me...

To Aru Kagaku no Railgun - I lost interest in Index early in the series as I felt it was getting somewhat draggy and cliche. I am hoping that minimal prior knowledge of the original series is required as Mikoto's probably my favourite character in the series (Just like Hinagiku as DKellis points out...perhaps I have a thing for this particular type of girls...).

Tegami Bachi - I saw the Chuang Yi version of the manga in Comics Connection but the synopsis didn't really appeal to me. I did read the first volume on OneManga.com and it is mildly interesting. The main appeal for me once again is the seiyu (Jun Fukuyama and Ami Koshimizu) even though neither of them are the leads. Miyuki Sawashiro and Ayumi Fujimura do make an interesting pair as the male and female lead so I am willing to see where it goes...

Inuyasha: The Final Act - This is pretty much a given considering I can (legally) watch it off Animax, albeit a same-week telecast as opposed to Tears to Tiara's "live" broadcast. I tried following the manga but I guess it was a bit too much for me. As long as I get to see more Miroku/Sango, I am fine...

Kobato. - Another CLAMP product. I am happy that Madhouse will be producing it, unlike the Bee Train trainwreck (no pun intended) that the Tsubasa series was. I will miss Yuki Kajiura'a music though...

Kiddy Girl-and - Long delayed sequel to Kiddy Grade. While Kiddy Grade wasn't the most engaging of series, the plot twist and fight scenes made the series watchable. Minori Chihara is singing the ED theme too, so I'll likely follow it...

Undecided

Nyan Koi!, Seitokai no Ichizon, Seiken no Blacksmith, Natsu no Arashi! 2 (If I ever get to watching Season One), Fairy Tail

I am still working with DKellis and Matafleur to get Animenauts.com (Yes, that's the name of the blog) up and running. Hoping to get it up before end of October. Will keep you guys updated...

We have left the endless recursion of time...

2009-08-12T20:04:00.006+08:00

We have left the endless recursion of time...

Song of the moment: Tokyo Philharmonic Orchestra - Higeki no Heroine (Suzumiya Haruhi no Gensou)

"Kyon-kun, denwa!" The fact that this unassuming line has been etched into my memory is testament to the effect of EIGHT different iterations of the episode, Endless Eight. For the non-Haruhiists (is this how you spell it?), the seconde season of anime "Suzumiya Haruhi no Yuutsu" A.K.A "The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya" has been subject to much controversy thanks to its broadcast of eight different iterations of the "Endless Eight" arc in the novels. This has resulted in much complaining and finger pointing among fans of the series, most of which were aimed at the license owners Kadokawa and animation company Kyoto Animation, or KyoAni for short.

I think what is undeniable is that this has been a particularly bad move for both Kadokawa and KyoAni, where they probably alienated everyone save for the most hardcore of Haruhi fans. The situation is being aggravated by their supposed DVD marketing tactic which might lead to serious backlash. I won't speculate on the why as what's important here is to put it in perspective. I really applaud KyoAni (be it as co-conspirators or reluctant victims) for putting in their full effort into animating each and everyone of the Endless Eight episodes. Admittedly, by the third of fourth iteration, I was getting bored out of my mind due to watching the same thing happen over and over again but with different clothes. The end result though, was pure awesomeness, for lack of a better word.

As opposed to a feeling of relief, the final episode was so good that it actually bought a smile to my face when Kyon finally remembered about his homework. Of course, this comes from the perspective of someone who had already read the novels and knew the ending. I won't pretend to be able to understand how the first-time viewer would have felt but I would say that it's worth the wait. In fact, I think Nagato fans like myself would probably appreciate this arc more than anyone. If anything, we probably understood how Nagato "might" have felt during this entire arc.

On more positive anime news, Fate/Stay Night fans can finally rejoice as a movie based on the Unlimited Blade Works arc in the game has been announced (coincidentally, I am playing the UBW arc in FSN now...). To my knowledge, most, if not all of the original seiyu of the anime will reprise their roles. Perhaps we can look forward to Heaven's Feel and Fate/Hollow Atraxia movies? I am still hoping for someone or group (mirror moon?) to start working on a translation of FHA...

To end off, this is my Hinagiku moment from last week's episode of Hayate no Gotoku!!...

Time for a laugh

2009-07-31T14:53:00.006+08:00

Time for a laugh

Song of the moment: K-On! Girls - Cagayake GIRLS (K-On! OP theme)

It's been a long time...I would really like to say that I've been busy but it's more like I've been distracted by Plants VS. Zombies and FM09.

Anyway, the main reason for this post is because of something I saw online...
I was checking out the Picturehouse website to check out what movies they were bringing and I was glad that they were going to show Moon, a sci-fi thriller that I was looking forward to as well as Evangelion 2.0 (with the release dates set at August 27th and September respectively)...

...which was all cool until I took a closer look at the Evangelion 2.0 entry...

The poster and the tagline looked really weird to me and I thus did some research and found this link. Evidently whoever is posting the poster up on the website "googled" the wrong picture or something like that. I just informed Picturehouse through their online feedback system if others haven't already done so. A quick check online has revealed that it has been up for some time and some people have already noticed this discrepancy. Let's see how long they take to resolve this...

Regarding the anime I am currently watching, I am considering dropping Sora no Manimani as I haven't got around to "acquiring" the second episode and the first episode isn't really great so we'll see how it goes. I also haven't got around to "acquiring" Taisho Yakyuu Musume. On the other hand, I am getting excited about Bakemonogatari and Spice and Wolf S2. While some might say Spice and Wolf might not exactly be very engaging but I do enjoy the drama and the romantic aspects of the show as well as the chemistry between the Lawrence and Holo (which is very likely due to Koshimizu Ami and Fukuyama Jun's own chemistry with each other...). Bakemonogatari is SHAFT at its best and with Akiyuki Shinbo directing and Hiroshi Kamiya as the male lead, it looks like its going to be awesome...hopefully anyway.
I will probably post up a short commentary once the Endless Eight arc in Haruhi ends to perhaps give my thoughts and opinions on this "controversy"...

Update @ 2305HRS: Looks like they finally changed the poster...fake synopsis is still there though...

2009-06-29T10:52:00.004+08:00

New layout

Song of the moment: School Food Punishment - Futuristic Imagination (Eden of the East ED theme)

mata yume ni oboreru futashika ni tsuzuiteku mirai
mada kimi o yuruseru imi o shireru

mimi o sumasu tame no yoru
sono riyuu o manete kawareru
kimi no kokyuu o shiru tame ni mirai no ne o kitte mo kamawanai

(I’m indulging in dreams again. In the future that continues unclearly,
I’ll still know why I can forgive you.

This is a night to listen carefully.
I can imitate that reason and change.
In order to know your ways, I don’t mind cutting the roots of the future.)
Futuristic Imagination by School Food Punishment

As you can see, I got a new layout for my blog. Haven't posted for a long time because I was busy with school work, church camp committee stuff, etc. Finished two essays for school and have another one due in about two to three weeks time. Church camp was great too! Hope everyone was able to experience not just the realities of life but God's blessing as well throughout the camp!

Now, for some of the anime I'll probably watch in the upcoming anime season...

Upcoming Anime Highlights

Umineko no Naku Koro ni - Fans of 07th Expansion's "When They Cry" mystery detective series will be able to watch the 2nd anime series this July. Directed by Chiaki Kon (Paprika, Perfect Blue), the "Seagulls" series features a whole new set of characters and a new storyline, set around the mysterious island of Rokkenjima. The "When They Cry" series admittedly can be quite violent but is unique in its storytelling, similar to the "Run Lola Run" time loop style.

The Melancholy of Suzumiya Haruhi (2009) - If you don't already know, it has all been a double bluff by KyoAni, sneaking in new episodes into the re-airing of Haruhi S1. Currently in the Endless Eight Arc, a.k.a Groundhog Day.

Bakemonogatari - School-life story with Supernatural elements...not exactly very appealing to me but it is animated by SHAFT (Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei, Marai+Holic) so I am willing to give it a try.

Canaan - Had no idea what it was about till Omni of randomc posted it in his summer preview. While he clearly likes it, only thing going for me here is the cast (Maaya Sakamoto, Rie Tanaka, Mamiko Noto) and that its based on a visual novel which got a perfect score in Famitsu.

Zan Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei - The 3rd full season of Zetsubou Sensei is finally here! I can once again look forward to SHAFT's trademark visual style and humour...now all that's left is a 2nd season of Maria+Holic...

Spice and Wolf Season 2 - As you all might know, I watch mainly for its two lead seiyuu, Koshimizu Ami and Fukuyama Jun. While the 1st season was not particularly fantastic, it was funny and I guess somewhat educational enough for me to want to watch a 2nd season.

Currently under consideration: Taisho Yakyuu Musume, Sora no Manimani, Tokyo Magnitude 8.0

I've been asked to contribute to several ongoing/upcoming blogs and websites. I've already committed to at least one of them as a regular. Depending on how things go, I might or might not close down this blog. It's more likely that this will become a personal rant blog (if it already isn't?)...

2009-04-18T00:22:00.006+08:00

A new season...of anime!

Song of the moment: ROCK'A'TRENCH - My SunShine (Mei-chan no Shitsuji ED theme)

Aitakute aitakute hoshi no kazu no yoru wo koete
Itsumademo itsumademo kimi wa kitto boku no hikari

Kimi no soba ni iru
Kaze no asa mo koorisouna tsukiyo mo
Sousa bukiyouna boku ni dekiru koto

Mabataki suru tabi katachi kaeru kumo mitaina kimi dake
Zutto mitsumete asu wo kakenuketainda

(I want to see you, I want to see you, getting through as many nights as there are stars
Always, always, you'll definitely be my light

I'll be at your side
On windy mornings and on freezing moonlit nights
Yes, that's what clumsy me can do for you

When you shine, you're like a cloud changing shape
And I always want to look only at you, running through tomorrow)
My SunShine by ROCK'A'TRENCH

Once again, a new anime season is upon us unsuspecting mortals and I find it my duty to once again inform my ridiculously limited audience what I animes I am currently following.

New animes which I am watching

Sengoku Basara - 1st of this season's Production IG productions (no pun intended) and Hoshi Souichiro (a.k.a Kira Yamato) is one of the leads. Haven't watched it yet but Omni of Random Curiosity thinks its good...so we'll see how it goes.

Tears to Tiara - Currently watching this on Animax with english subs. Every monday, 1230AM. Probably the only reason I am watching this is because its shown on Animax and Yuko Goto is the female lead. If its any incentive for me, Ami Koshimizu also has a role in it too...Standard fantasy stuff (based on a eroge, btw...) in the first 2 episodes, hoping it'll improve as it goes on.

K-On! - Another of KyoAni's excuses for delaying Haruhi season 2 (Don't leave me, Nagato!!). Watching cause of KyoAni and DKellis. So far so good...

Hayate no Gotoku S2 - Hayate's back but JC Staff has taken over SynergySP in the animation department. I got no major issues with the animation quality but the plot and comedy seems a bit weak. Hoping it'll improve...or at least show more Hayate/Hinagiku moments...

Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood - BONES is once again animating the Hagaren reboot with Rie Kugimiya and Romi Paku once again reprising their roles as the Elric brothers. Its probably a blessing in disguise that I didn't watch Hagaren's first season in its entirety as it allows me to enjoy the reboot more. Since it supposedly follows the actual canon all the way through, I started reading a bit of the scanlations too...can't wait for Armstrong's sister to appear! Only weird thing so far (in respect to the changes in seiyu) is hearing Lockon from Gundam 00 voicing Roy Mustang...at least he gets more into Roy's character in episode 2 so its not too bad.

Senjou no Valkyria - Based on the Valkyria Chronicles game on PS3. Since I can't play the game due to a lack of a PS3 console, I am watching the anime instead. The other drawing point for me is Marina Inoue voicing the female lead. Looks good...

Saki - Warning to prospective watchers: Mahjong knowledge is required. I thought they would do Hikaru no Go and slowly introduce the game's concept but they dived straight in. Only reason I am watching is because 2 of my favourite anime ships are inside [Kallen(Ami Koshimizu) / Lelouch(Fukuyama Jun) and Hayate(Ryoko Shiraishi) / Hinagiku(Shizuka Itou)] and I am hoping to pick up a bit more mahjong through this show.

Shangri-La - Acquired but haven't watched it yet. Interesting plot though...

Eden of the East - My "must watch" anime for this season. I am a sucker for conspiracy theory/mystery/detective shows so the plot appeals to me. And of course, with Production IG in charge of animation, its going to be awesome! I especially like the paper animation during the ED theme. Watched the first 2 episodes so far and I think its going great, let's hope it continues this way...

Hatsukoi Limited - From the mangaka of Ichigo 100%. Watching it purely for my RomCom kick. Quite funny so far...

Currently under consideration: Guin Saga, Natsu no Arashi, Asura Cryin'

Been ~~downloading~~ digitally acquiring a couple of old (meaning more than 3 years ago...lol) anime recently like El Hazard - Alternative World, GiTS season 1 and 2, Bubblegum Crisis 2040 and my current DL, Stellvia of the Universe. Will blog about it as I watch them...

2009-03-25T17:22:00.008+08:00

Target acquired!

Song of the moment: Yuna Ito - Trust You (Gundam 00 S2 2nd ED theme)

Kimi ga tooku ni itte mo mada
Itsumo kono kokoro no man'naka
Ano yasashii egao de umetsukusareta mama
Dakishimeta kimi no kakera ni
Itami kanjite mo mada
Tsunagaru kara
Shinjiteru yo
Mata aeru to
I'm waiting for your love

I love you, I trust you
Kimi no kodoku wo wakete hoshii
I love you, I trust you
Hikari demo yami demo
Futari dakara shinjiaeru no
Hanasanaide

(Even if you go far away, still
You're always right in the middle of my heart
While they remain buried away by that kind smile
Even if I feel pain
In fragments of you that I held, because we'll still connect
I trust that we can meet again
I'm waiting for your love

I love you, I trust you
I want you to share your loneliness with me
I love you, I trust you
Even in light, even in darkness, because we're together
We're able to trust each other
Please don't leave anymore)
Trust You by Yuna Ito

As usual, time for my monthly update. Let's start with the latest episode of Gundam 00 S2, episode 24 - BEYOND. Lots of people died in the last couple of episodes, a sure sign of the director tying up any loose ends in the series. While that is acceptable, it somehow gets more and more cliche as it reaches its climax. Ribbons and his clone army in the previous episode was downright ridiculous although if Sieji Mizushima (the director) is trying to appeal to the Star Wars fanbase, it makes total perfect sense. You've got the C3PO/R2D2 equivalent (the Haro), you've got the conflicted/confused hero (Setsuna "I am Gundam!" F Seiei), the princess character (Princess Marina) and of course, The Force (GN Particles). Apparently, GN particles can do nearly anything, namely letting dead people communicate with the living, disrupting quantum brainwaves and even healing injuries. All of which, the Force can do in someway or other.

Look, its so SHINY....

Thus GN particles = the Force, Gundam 00 = Mishmash of Star Wars and other Gundam series.

Moving on I'll be talking about my latest acquisitions in my recent trip to Kino / Borders and an R1 DVD I bought from Amazon (or rather piggyback on DKellis's orders...).

From Kino / Borders ...and Amazon

Total damage after all available discounts is approximately SGD $141.
Was it worth it? For some of the items I guess.

Batman and the Outsiders / Batman RIP - I am buying Outsiders mainly for Batgirl. Probably because Cassandra Cain is like Moe to me. Storyline is mildly interesting, so its fine for the price. RIP though probably wasn't worth the hardcover price. It was good but not exactly fantastic.

Soul Eater Vol. 12 - I've been totally ignoring the anime. Whether that's good or bad I don't know but the manga is going along nicely. Volume 12 ends with Ox getting stabbed by Kim (who's being mind controlled) and Black Star, together with Tsubaki making his usual not-so-subtle reappearance. Volume 13 should be fun...

The Twelve Kingdoms Vol. 1: Sea of Shadow - The Americans really like it for some reason so I gave it a try. Halfway through chapter 2 and so far so good.

And finally, Anime Legends: Cowboy Bebop Remix Complete Collection - Honestly, I rarely buy anime DVDs, much less R1 anime DVDs. I mean, why buy when you can acquire it through certain digital distribution channels, right? I guess it was kind of a practical decision. Since the crappy Malaysian version of the DVD can't be read on both my PC and DVD player and I haven't watch the final third of the series, it was a reasonable decision for me to buy the R1s. Quality was very good, with 5.1 audio for those who have it(maybe I really should get a 5.1 audio system). At SGD $68, it's probably one of the more long term value for money buys I guess...probably...

2009-02-23T13:15:00.003+08:00

The big deal about Slumdog (or Why I think Slumdog Millionaire won Best Picture at the Oscars)

Song of the moment: A.R. Rahman - Jai Ho (Slumdog Millionaire OST)

After watching Slumdog Millionaire at Cathay yesterday and after watching the Oscars, I thought it would be nice to give my two-cents about what I think of the movie and cite perhaps a few reasons why Slumdog Millionaire won Best Picture.

Slumdog Millionaire is the story of Jamal Malik, an orphan from the slums of Mumbai who joins the Indian version of Who Wants To Be a Millionaire and ends up being one question away from the top prize of 20 million rupees. The movie chronicles his life's journey and how each of his life's experiences allows him to answer the different questions in the show and once again meet the love of his life.
While it was a good movie, it wasn't a great movie. My personal favourite has always been The Shawshank Redemption and no movie I've watched so far has come close to that. Where this show truly excels at is being true to its genre. It's fun, its uplifting and it touches the heart. From the interrogation scene at the start till the Bollywood dance homage at the credits, this film is truly poignant yet exhilarating at the same time. One of my favourite scenes in the movie is when the Jamal, in an attempt to get Bollywood star Amitabh Bachchan, jumps into a pile of human excretion to get out of the toilet he was trapped in. It does sound kind of disturbing but I thought it was somewhat reminiscent of a similar scene in Shawshank and represented the kind of underdog determination featured throughout the movie. The film has of course been subject to criticism from certain groups due to its portrayal of the slums and its people. While I admit that I am not an expert in terms of Indian culture and traditions, I think people should look at the movie in a more positive light and let this movie bring attention to the situation in the slums and be a reminder that discrimination exists at all levels of society. So to conclude, this movie is not an emotional roller-coaster ride of a tearjerker. Its one of the best poignant, feel-good, rags-to-riches, triumph against adversity movies you'll ever see.

2009-02-17T17:18:00.004+08:00

Of Angry Lolis and sleeper agents...

Song of the moment: Yuu Kobayashi - Hanaji (Maria+Holic OP Theme)

Looks like I finally have a little free time to update my blog. The main reason for this of course is that this is my university's study break week, which essentially means we have one week to catch up on our homework/projects before we go back to school next week. As you can probably tell from the title of this entry, its going to be more anime-focused than usual but before that let me do a quick update on my life so far.

I am currently working on a project for my Audience Studies module...you guys might have seen me walking around outside Grand Cathay asking people to do surveys. You can still help by doing the online version here. Surprisingly, me and my group (Cheryl, Jaideep, Julius) managed to finish all 161 surveys we printed. Jaideep is currently working on collating the data (once again, you're awesome!!). Also, I am more or less used to my dad's Toyota Corolla Altis, but still having a bit of problem with my parking, still can't get that one shot one kill if you know what I mean.

For those who watched the latest episode of Gundam 00 season 2, Anew Returner's 'innovator mode' has finally been activated and from next week's episode preview, it seems that she's going to try and steal the 00 Gundam from Celestial Being.

Hasta la vista, baby.

Anew being the innovator's sleeper agent was probably the worst kept secret ever (the obvious giveaway being the color of her hair...). It was bound to happen sooner or later. Especially since Ribbons's harem (or at least Regene) is two-timing him with Wang Liu Mei (you can imagine all the yuri doujinshi coming out...), I guess it was time for Ribbons to act. Interestingly, Rie "Angry Loli" Kugimiya finally starts going psycho, crazy laughter and all.

How dare you typecast me!? You shall all die!

Okay it wasn't really Rie but rather her character in Gundam 00, Nena Trinity. I was a bit surprised at this development. While it was clear there was no love lost between Nena and Wang Liu Mei, the timing of the betrayal does put an interesting spin to things (Will Celestial Being be able to find Veda?). Though I am pretty confident that Wang Liu Mei isn't dead (a la Cornelia from Code Geass), and she might make a crucial comeback later on towards the end of the series.

In recent anime news, Kadokawa's 'Big Announcement' about Suzumiya Haruhi has turned out to be a big farce. The March 2009 issue of NewType has announced that there'll will be a rebroadcast of Suzumiya Haruhi season 1 on TV Saitama and other stations. Read more about it here, and for a more optimistic side to the story, read here. On the bright side, the Haruhi-chan web anime is out. I am willing to bet that this is everyone's favorite scene...

Jump around and let him count you!

That scene really made my day...maybe we should all buy a Mikuru sheep soft toy?

2009-01-16T20:24:00.002+08:00

The most awesome piece of A4-sized paper ever!

Come on click it! You know you want too...

2009-01-01T20:27:00.002+08:00

Totally honest...

Song of the moment: Hans Zimmer and James Newton Howard - A Watchful Guardian (The Dark Knight OST Special Edition)

School for me is just 4 days away, while for others like my brother for example, it starts tomorrow. Admittedly, I guess I can't say that I have any expectations for the coming year nor any particular resolution which I am passionate about. For someone in my position as Building Team Head in the youth ministry @ SKMC, life goes on as usual. I readily admit that even now, I still have doubts about my ability to lead the Building Team. I still think that there are many other more capable people in the ministry more suited to this than myself. While I certainly have no doubts that God has definitely called me to serve in the Building Team, the only doubts I have are about myself. All that I've done in the past few months has all been a step of faith, trusting that God will continue to mold me and lead me. Its "Faith" and not "feelings" that fuels and sustains our relationship with God. If I relied on my "feelings", I probably would have given it all up a long time ago. I guess my one resolution for this new year, if it can be considered as one, is to continue to have the faith to trust God, be it in my ministry in SKMC or in my own personal life.

The "countdown party" (or rather just a random excuse to go to his house to have fun and indulge in steamboat) at Moses's house was where I spent my New Year's Eve. Choosing the food for the steamboat was just made over-complicated by the many opinions of the different people there (namely, ZL, Angela, Ken, Moses and myself). I guess we did get "a little" too much food but at least it wasn't as bad as initially thought. Moses drove us back from Ten Mile to his flat where Sandar was already waiting. Amy, Ben, Josh, Mich Lee and Mich Goh joined us later for the actual steamboat. Essentially, the whole party was basically eating, drinking (non-alcoholic drinks) and playing random games like Mahjong and Settlers, with a movie interlude in-between (My own Dark Knight DVD). Tried to sleep to no avail, I was basically just lying there with my eyes closed, listening to the girls playing Mahjong. How Ken actually managed to even sleep is still a mystery to me. I guess I am still lacking a bit on the "Sleep anywhere and anytime" skill.

So was it worth my time? Well, I guess it was. I rarely participate in such events so I guess it was an opportunity for me to see my church clique in a different setting. While I certainly had fun with my friends, learning how to play settlers and also just that little bit more on Mahjong basics, with all the couples there, it also became a needless reminder of my current situation. That I am still a SALAD after nearly 22 years and that my relationship with Sandar will probably never go beyond a normal friendship. To say that me and Sandar were never meant to be would be an insult to our (many) mutual friends who supported my pursuit for her in the background. I guess both of us were probably just not ready for each other at this point of time. God definitely knows that this has been an issue that I have been passionately praying about. Am I angry at God for this? No, but I certainly feel frustrated. Looking at all the couples in the youth ministry doesn't exactly help but as I said before, its all about faith. If its not God's will, then so be it. On hindsight, I am kind of glad that I didn't properly confess to her, even though ZL and Andy were encouraging me too. Speaking to Moses and Jamie really helped a lot in making this decision. No point in saying or doing anything else when you already know the answer. It just makes you look desperate and the relationship will just become more awkward. Sandar, if you're reading this (though that is highly unlikely), I sincerely hope that I didn't embarrass you with my thoughts and feelings(not many people read this blog anyway...) and that we'll continue to remain good friends and colleagues in D'Anchor!

With the end of 2008 and the beginning of 2009, life goes on and I'll still be praying that God will let me meet (or if we've already met, let me know who) that special someone is for me and if we're ready to go into any sort of relationship. And I certainly hope that you'll find a girlfriend before I do, ZY!

2008-12-01T21:18:00.007+08:00

Holiday: AFA '08

Song of the moment: May'n - Welcome To My Fanclub's Night

Can you hear my voice? Be good boys & girls.
ima tashikani kanjiteru no ittaikan everywhere
Don’t you feel it? saishuu keikoku
ageru shuuhasuu odore! shouting through
We’ll enjoy a day today!
(Then) I sing a love song for you.

(Can you hear my voice? Be good boys and girls
I can certainly feel it right now. The sense of unity is everywhere.
Don’t you feel it? This is your last warning
Dance in the rising frequency! I’m shouting through!
We’ll enjoy a day today
Then I’ll sing a love song for you.)
Welcome To My Fanclub's Night! by May'n

Finally after many delays, I have finally acquired and uploaded the (not so blur)AFA '08 pictures and can finally blog about it. While admittedly it's about a week old and many many people have already blogged about it, including my friend and classmate, DKellis, I thought it would be nice to give my two cents worth on the event and perhaps talk a bit about Singaporean behaviour.

Day 1

Hmm...to be honest I can't really remember much (laughs). Started off the day at the Suntec McDonald's, 8AM in the morning. I actually thought I was late so I kind of walked/jogged there. To be honest, I was late...just that everyone else was later. Well, I did expect this, thus I set the meeting time early. SY came soon after and I discovered that X just got out of the bed and thus will be late. Got a couple of replies from a few others, apologising for their no-shows. Anyways, by the time most of the group had gathered, which included SY + 3 friends (Erm, it was 3 friends right?), X, Willis, DKellis and myself, it was around 11AM (well, according to DKellis' post anyway).

After lots of walking, me and Willis bought ourselves a tee-shirt each from the dreaded "O--x" booth. Sure, some of their "merchandise" is crap but their tees do look nice. I was actually tempted to buy the Code Geass DVD until I remembered that it was by "O--x".

And this is the tee-shirt...

After more walking and admiring other people's cosplay, we went for lunch, came back to look-see some-more then adjourned to the book fair (clearly, Harris bookstore doesn't support DC comics) upstairs before we called it a day...

Day 2

Rushed down after church with Willis, Nigel, Jowell and Josh.

The gang...

Met up with X, who brought his new camera and he started snapping away...

...starting off with a picture of Miku's butt. Naughty, naughty...

Anyways, after even more walking and resisting the temptation to buy stuff from the KKNM booth at AFA, we went for dinner and finally arrived for the May'n concert, where local band Quis was warming up the stage for May'n.

And this is my line of sight for the concert...great isn't it?

While the great Singaporean Otaku collective waited impatiently for the concert to start, someone had the bright idea of throwing balloons into the crowd. If it's purpose was to divert our attention, the experiment was definitely a successful one. When May'n finally came out, the Otaku Collective erupted in cheers. The loudest of course came from the mystery Malay(?) guy who kept screaming "May'n!" and "Macross!" at regular intervals while waving around the VF-25S model he just bought.

My definitive May'n photo from AFA '08.

We at least got a few decent pictures after some experimentation with the exposure and ISO settings. May'n really played up to the atmosphere in the hall, showing LOTS of leg/thigh, which I am pretty sure gave a couple of those front seat people nose bleeds, or at least some PLEASANT memories to go back home to, if you know what I mean. While most of us didn't really memorise the lyrics to her songs, I guess we all did know one word from her song "Iteza Gogo Kuji Don't be late", which was "Motteke!" (which roughly translates to "Take it"). After singing most of her solo songs, she had a autograph session with those who were rich enough to buy the front row seats to the concert.

So essentially, that's what happened at AFA '08 in a nutshell, by me anyway. You can view the rest of the pics here.

Yup, that's me in a NERV tee! Trying to imitate AFA-kun...

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I guess there was lots of talk about all these pictures and videos during her concert, where the organisers painstakingly repeated over and over again over the PA system, asking us not to take pictures or videos. Frankly, I think that's near impossible. There's no way you are going to prevent the Otaku Collective from taking pictures. For once, we actually have a bona fide up-and-coming J-POP star, who sings several songs for an anime, right here in Singapore and you don't want us to take pictures or videos? Seriously, when was the last time a well-known J-POP celebrity actually came to Singapore for a concert? The only one which springs to my mind (correct me if I am wrong...) was when a Morning Musume sub-group came to Singapore to perform like around 2 years back. I mean, unless you intend to release this concert on DVD or something, of course people are going to take pictures and videos. Moreover, it was a "free" concert for anyone who came to AFA on Sunday. You can't blame us for getting all hot and bothered over this right? Solution? Either make it a full pay-to-watch concert (which I doubt will go well with many of us poorer fans) or just let us take photos. What's the big deal anyway? I am pretty sure the event will be given more exposure through us, the fans. The so-called "Official Press" gets their pictures posted on the prominent websites, magazines and newspapers, while we the fans just want some pics to remember the event by, be it through our photo albums or blogs. Is it really so-called "Kiasu-ism" in action? I don't think so. We all just want something to remember the day May'n came to Singapore to perform...

~~~

Do dreams mean anything, really?

2008-11-24T22:54:00.003+08:00

Holiday: Preview

Song of the moment: May'n and Megumi Nakajima - Triangular

I guess I was supposed to blog about AFA'08. However, as the quality pictures I took using X's camera has yet to be sent to me, I'll blog/review/comment/whatever-you-like-to-call-it about the two latest games I bought recently.

Left 4 Dead

Packaging - Quite a unique packaging (folder/envelope thingy). I think E Club Malaysia did really well here, at least in terms of creativity. While it was quite practical and interesting looking, its kind of hard to stuff into a normal plastic bag.

Contents - Free mousepad and poster. Not fantastic looking but it was nice for a freebie. And of course, the game and CD key.

Gameplay so far - About the same as the demo I played two weeks back. Essentially a zombie/survival FPS. However, now with the multiplayer and single player all fully unlocked(?), it kind of makes the single player mode seem superfluous. Playing through the first 2 stages of single player seems to emphasize this. I guess players can use it as a way of getting to know the stage better before playing with others online. Otherwise, it seems quite fun.

Football Manager 2009

Packaging and contents - Standard stuff. The usual "Games for Windows" packaging with DVD (yes, the first FM on DVD) and user manual.

Gameplay so far - It is somewhat disconcerting at first to play matches using TV mode (3D match engine, another first for FM09) after being used to the "moving dots" for so long. Of course, the 3D engine is not FIFA or PES-like but it's good enough for a management game. It does take a bit of getting used to though. My first team on the game is Huddersfield, one of the few teams without a manager.

Total damage - S$110

Will start blogging on AFA'08 once I get the May'n pics I took, sorry for the delay. In the mean time, take a look at some of my day 2 pics which I used my camera phone to take...

2008-11-04T21:36:00.002+08:00

Confirmation

Song of the moment: Sheryl Nome - Diamond Crevasse

wasurenai yo, anata no nukumori mo,
sono yasashisa mo, subete tsutsunde kureta ryote mo

It’s long long good-bye…

sayonara, sayonara, itoshii hito
anata ga, ita kara, aruite koreta
hitori nanka ja nakatta yo ne?
ima, kotaeba hoshii

(I won't forget your warmth
Your kindness, and your hands that surrounded everything

It's long long good-bye...

Goodbye, goodbye, beloved one
If you were with me, I would've been able to walk here
I wasn't alone, right?
Now, I want the answer)
Diamond Crevasse by Sheryl Nome (May'N)

Been busy with school work, so not much time for blogging. Admittedly even though my computer is on half the time, its usually for school/church work, watching anime or TF2. ^_^

Watched Solo Flight Week 5 @ NAFA with Andy and his classmate the previous Saturday. Really impressed me and thus, I will be using it for my review assignment. Will probably be going on Thursday to watch the highlights of the series.

Went to have dinner with Yap Xiong and JY at Aston's Express in Serangoon last Saturday. I guess the food there is more or less the same as the one at Grand Cathay. Thanks to JY for helping me buy the Blood+ Complete Best album! I was actually afraid that it was going to be similar to the Taiwan/HK release, which just had 1 CD with the theme songs. So to see the Japanese version having an additional 'MV' DVD and lyrics book with personal interviews with the artistes really surprised me. Once again, thanks JY!

After much deliberation, I will now announce the official list of animes which I will be following for this Season (and 1 or 2 currently still undecided).

Akane Iro ni Somaru Saka - Another one of those anime adaptations of a visual novel. Admittedly the animation quality is not as good as the more high budget ones but the kind of visual novel feel with all the prerequisite/typical female characters (like the Tsundere character, the mysterious girl, the non blood related sister, etc.) that kind of attracts me.

Clannad After Story - One of the current 'emo' romance shows I am following. Hopefully they'll do a 'Tomoyo After' anime...

ef - a tale of melodies - The other 'emo' romance show...hopefully will get to see more of Chihiro and Kei (especially Kei, since her relationship with Kyosuke wasn't really developed...).

Ga-Rei Zero - Wasn't really expecting much but the first two episodes really packed a punch and I got hooked after that. Started reading the manga thanks to the anime...

Gundam 00 Season 2 - Still giving me the Zeta vibes...

Shikabane Hime: Aka - By the same animation team which did Gurren Lagann. So far so good...

Tales of the Abyss - Thanks to the anime, I won't have to spend countless hours trying to complete the game...

Toaru Majutsu no Index - Pretty good so far. Want to see more of Misaka's character though...

Toradora - Another show headlined by Rie Kugimiya this season (the other being Akane Iro). Liked the manga. Let's see how it goes...

Undecided: Tytania, Jigoku Shoujo S3

2008-10-07T19:48:00.004+08:00

A new season...

Song of the moment: Linkin Park - What I've Done

Put to rest, What you thought of me
While I clean this slate
With the hands of uncertainty
So let mercy come
And Wash away

What I've Done
I'll face myself
To cross out what I've become
Erase myself
And let go of what I've done
What I've Done by Linkin Park

Once again as we mourn the loss of several of our beloved anime series like Code Geass and Macross Frontier, we also welcome a new season of anime. I shall give you all a sneak peek into what I'll be following for the new anime season...

Currently watching / Planning to watch A.K.A my confirm will watch at least 1st episode list

Chaos;Head - We all need an unexplained thriller anime with gratuitous violence sometimes right...at least until the Higurashi OVA and Umineko series comes...

Clannad After Story - Yes, I spoiled myself on wiki so I know how it's gonna end...get ready your Kleenex, people...But before that, there's still lots of Tomoya's sarcasm, Nagisa's naivety, Sunohara getting kicked around by Tomoyo and Sanae's bread (bleah...).

ef - a tale of melodies - Another 'emo' show...but at least the characters have a chance of happy ending, right...right?

Mobile Suit Gundam 00 Season 2 - Once again, all of us mecha and action fans are looking forward to the return of a new season of Gundam. After watching the first episode of season 2, I felt that there was a distinct Gundam Zeta flavour in the series. A-LAWS = Titans, Kataron = Karaba, Celestial Being = AEUG? COuld this be a good thing? Zeta was an awesome series after all...

To Aru Majutsu no Index - One of the runner-ups for Kadokawa Shoten's Light Novel Award (Action category) gets an anime! Impressions after first episode? It looks interesting and quite action-ish, with potential for 'emo' storyline...well, not potential since I spoiled myself using wiki and I already know that it will be 'emo'.

Toradora - Now we have a winner of the Light Novel Award (Romantic Comedy category) getting an anime. The typical 'two people who hate each other at first but become friends and fall in love' show. It won an award, so it has to at least be kinda good right? There's Rie Kugimiya as the main character too...

Other shows that I might be following this season include Shikabane Hime: Aka, Rosario to Vampire S2, Tales of the Abyss, Jigoku Shoujo S3, Ga-Rei:Zero, Tytania and the Zetsubo Sensei OVA. Awesome anime season, WHOOT!!!

2008-09-30T21:58:00.002+08:00

Closure and moving on

Song of the moment: Base Ball Bear - Changes (Toshokan Sensou ED theme)

Ch-ch-ch-changes saa, kawatteku sayonara, furui jibun
shingenjitsu atarashii nani ka ga matteru
subete ga ima kawatteku subete ga hajimaru
shinkokyuu hitotsu, aizu ni shite kakedashiteku

(Changes, yeah, I’m changing, say goodbye to my old self
I’m waiting for a new reality, something new
Everything’s changing now, everything starts now
I give a signal with one deep breath and start running)
Changes by Base Ball Bear

Yes leaf...stop complaining, people like me are really busy with school you know. LOL! Now that school is in full swing, its been quite a struggle for me to manage my time effectively. With school, my church ministry, anime and social life all scrambling to get my attention, its been rather hectic. Thus the decision not to go for tomorrow's Sentosa trip with the SK people. I am going to take the chance to catch up on my homework (like my 1500 word essay for example) instead of slacking off in Sentosa tomorrow.

As most anime fans will know, Code Geass R2 has finished its run and thus the main reason for this blog post. I am going to base my thoughts here on what I've already posted on Random Curiosity's blog, which you'll have to dig through to find (page 48 of the comments section in the Code Geass R2 episode 25 post).

In general, I think the R2 wrapped things up pretty well. It wasn't all that surprising that Lelouch would die in the end (As leaf would testify how I had predicted that a couple of months back...). It fit in with the 'redemption' theme I thought the anime was trying to push this season. Lelouch uses his 'death' to create a peaceful world where Nunnally and his friends could live in peace. Suzaku atones for his guilt of killing his father and gets to live as a 'hero', albeit with a mask.

The lack of a Lelouch/Kallen ending was kind of disappointing to me, having rooted for the two of them to end up together since season 1. However, with the really ambiguous ending, it thus leaves it open to interpretation on what really happened to Lelouch. My take on it is that Lelouch is alive. The fact that the series has such an ambiguous ending in the first place makes me feel that Lelouch is alive (be it with or without the Code). The evidence is all there, the paper crane, the ambiguity of how the Code works, etc. How would one interpret it is up to the individual.

To the people who think that Lelouch not dying somehow cheapens his sacrifice, is immortality(assuming he's immortal) really all that great. Sure, you get to live forever with a cute green haired girl (assuming she's immortal too) at your side but I think the negatives outweigh the positives. To see your loved ones grow old and pass away while you stay forever young is not a very good feeling. Assuming the above(getting into the what do C.C. tear's mean debate now...), I think the reason for C.C. tears was for Lelouch's sacrifice, giving up his title, family and friends and even gaining this curse of immortality, all for the sake of creating a peaceful world.

Instead of a sequel, I think a series of movies or OVAs à la Rebuild of Evangelion or the Eureka 7 movie, showing what Taniguchi originally intended for the series would be the perfect addition to the Code Geass series.

Now that its over, its time for me to move on...bring it on, Gundam 00 Season 2!

~~~

No more regrets, no more turning back, No more wishing for the best, no more hoping for something that wouldn't happen. I am not going to look back anymore. I am moving on...for real.

2008-08-22T21:44:00.002+08:00

Its not the end, its just the beginning..

Song of the moment: FLOW - World End (Code Geass R2 2nd OP song)

Kudakechitta yume o asu no hate ni hibikaseru you ni
Sekai no owari de umareta hikari bokura hitotsu ni
Ima kaze no naka

(So to let shattered dreams echo to the edge of tomorrow
Light was born at the world’s end; we become one
Now in the wind)

Phew...the 22nd of August is about over, which means my birthday is about over too. Thanks to all who sent messages to me on this special day. I really appreciate it. Thanks also to my dad who bought cake and pizza for dinner and my friends at SKMC, who also bought cake on Tuesday to celebrate. Like the Tee-Shirt that Sally and youth ministry got me (though I really need to clear out my wardrobe soon).

I also went for my school orientation yesterday (PSB Academy @ Tiong Bahru doing a University of Newcastle degree in Communications). It was typical really, going through the school history, alumni, lame orientation games (got a few laughs out of it though) and stuff like that. Saw a couple of cute girls too (lol). I also met up with Melvin, whom I met during the Uni preparation class. He's doing the IT degree. Really hoping that I'll find school more enjoyable than Barker or NYP.

I got a new fanfic up a few weeks back. Its the Code Geass one I was talking about 2 posts ago. Go check it out @ http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4446884/1/Forgiven. Be warned though that there's character death (which is canon, of course). My writing is not there yet and I am striving to improve the quality of my fics after not writing for 4 years. So, feel free to give your (brutally) honest reviews. Lol...

Now to my anime/movie rant. I watched Murder of the Inugami Clan on Wednesday with Jiazhi @ AMK Hub. Overall, the movie was pretty good. It was nicely paced and had minimal action sequences, unlike today's kind of thriller movies, which has an insatiable desire to throw on an action sequence every 10 minutes. Every scene was purposeful and the movie had its share of comedic moments. Some scenes were rather unrealistic and corny (spurt of blood on the fusuma or sliding door every time you see the person being killed) but I think of it rather as the movie paying homage to the 1976 original (Its the same director, btw...). One thing though which bothered me and Jiazhi was the appearance of a modern day cabin cruiser (go wiki it if you don't know) or at least something which looked like it. I mean, was it invented before 1947 which the movie was set in? Other than that, I thought the movie had a unique, quirky old school charm which should appeal to the more intellectual movie goers.

Code Geass R2 is still going on. Its episode 19 now. Nunnally is dead(?) and the Black Knights have betrayed Lelouch. Lelouch, having lost everything, has declared vengeance upon his father, the Emperor. The so-called "forgiveness/redemption" theme in the series hasn't really been built upon the past couple of episodes, considering what has happened (Suzaku "betraying" Lelouch, firing of FLEIA, etc.), I think it's understandable. I can see Suzaku someway or another joining Lelouch, despite his so-called crazy laughter at the end of episode 19. I am also convinced that it'll end with a Lelouch/Kallen ship, considering all that has happened("You must live on, Kallen", among MANY others...).

Another anime I am currently watching is Macross Frontier. I am just hoping Alto makes his choice soon. This love triangle thing has dragged on for way too long without any sort of significant relationship development with either girl. I am hoping that he does choose Sheryl in the end. I mean, the girl is pretty, strong willed, independent, cares for the guy (though not as open as Ranka) and she's dying of a terminal disease. Wouldn't it be a shame NOT to choose her? That being said, not that there's anything bad about Ranka but I think Sheryl is more deserving of a relationship with Alto.

BTW: Watchmen comic is still available. Feel free to borrow from me!

2008-07-23T21:26:00.002+08:00

You either die a hero, or live long enough to see yourself become the villain...

Song of the moment: Iwasaki Taku - "Libera Me" From Hell (Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann Insert Song)

I finally watched The Dark Knight last night (no pun intended). And it was AWESOME!!! The only complaint I can think of would be who can replace Heath Ledger as the Joker now that he's deceased...anyway, time for some spoilers and speculation about the next movie...
SPOILER
I thought that it was pretty cool how throughout the movie they were foreshadowing Harvey Dent's eventual fall from grace. Stuff like, "You either die a hero, or live long enough to see yourself become the villain." to Harvey Dent discovering the blackened side of his lucky coin. Heath Ledger also gave a brilliant performance as the Joker.
Speculation about the next movie: Personally, I don't think Two-Face is dead. I don't think its their style to create a villain and just kill him off half an hour later. Batman villains are usually recurring and besides, Batman doesn't kill people. An important clue to his fate would probably be his lucky coin. If you noticed carefully, you would see that that the coin landed right side up, which gives merit to my case that Two-Face is still alive and possibly be hidden in Arkham as Gotham's deep dark secret?
Something else which I didn't notice till Ying Xiang pointed out was what Lucius Fox (Morgan Freeman) said to Bruce Wayne (Christian Bale) when handing him his new bat suit. Lucius mentions that while the suit might not work against dogs, it will hold off "cats". This of course, triggers speculation that Catwoman might appear in the next movie. Personally, I would like to see Clayface and Penguin.
SPOILER END

The Watchmen trailer is also out! Clearly its made for fans since no one else can tell who the bad guy is in the trailer. I am willing to lend you guys the Watchmen comic so as to promote the awesome-ness of Watchmen! As long as you have a good eye for stories and appreciate comic books as a form of literature, feel free to ask!

2008-07-17T22:16:00.002+08:00

To hold true to my feelings...

Song of the moment: Sheryl Nome - Infinity (Macross Frontier EP07 Insert song)

Zetsubou kara no tabidachi o kimeta ano hi
Atashi-tachi no mae ni wa tada kaze ga fuiteta ne

Tsutaetai kimochi hodo kotoba togire togire de
Nani mo ienai mama itsumo honto wa fuan de

Ashita ga moshi mo miete shimaeba
Hito wa yume o egaku koto mo naku ikiru deshou

(Remember, on the day we decided to escape this despair,
What lay before us was nothing but the passing wind?

The more feelings I have to convey, the more my words fumble.
Unable to tell you anything, the truth is I live in uncertainty.

If humans could somehow see tomorrow,
Then we probably wouldn't have to live on our dreams.)
Infinity by Sheryl Nome

Long time no update. Guess the slacker attitude from army hasn't quite went away yet. Really just can't find the motivation to do a lot of stuff (Even my Code Geass Guren Type 2 model is not done yet...). Let's pray that I'll be able to stop procrastinating by the time school starts in late August. In case you guys don't know, I'll be going to PSB Academy @ Tiong Bahru doing a degree in Communication (PR and Journalism) from University of Newcastle (Yup, its a double major...). I am hoping the switch from IT to Mass Communication won't be so bad. Actually, that's one of the reasons I am attending the optional University Skills course in PSB. It allows me to brush up my written English skills and at the same time, allows me to try and get back into the 'studying' mindset.

Also started learning how to drive at SSDC. Despite the ridiculous lesson fee ($72 for 2 hours!), I am trying to get my license before the end of this year (My original plan of trying to get it by October back fired cause I didn't book enough lessons at the start). Driving lesson kind of feel like tuition lessons now. You don't really want to go but you've already paid for it and you NEED the license.

I also went out for dinner with Melvin and Kow just now. Used the chance to catch up on a few old friends. Apparently those from Hakka who went to take the Occupational Therapy diploma in NYP have all broken their bonds and started studying in other disciplines (JY, take note!). Why? Well, who knows? A few others went to NUS/NTU while a couple of people from Barker are overseas. Before I forget, I would like to take this chance to wish Melvin good luck in his studies and Australia. I would also like to remind him (something which I forgot to do when we met up) about his adolescent wish to go see Emma Watson while studying in the UK. What happened to that? LOL...

Let's end this entry with the current HOT anime of this season, Code Geass R2! Shirley has been killed (by Rolo of all people...), and Lelouch is now in the angry/angsty, destroying the Geass Directorate to try to atone for his part in Shirley's death (which kind of explains the somewhat sudden development of her character and her increase in screen time for the past few episodes). Apologies to all Shirley/Lelouch shippers and people who consider them OTP (fanfic writers and readers will understand...), but clearly, its not going to happen. Honestly, the writers probably threw that in to try and allow some kind of understanding and probably future reconciliation between Lelouch and Suzaku, which is likely to happen but not before some really intense conflict between them. Anyway, I am working on a Shirley/Lelouch fiction which talks of her last moments (Death is like a theme for me now...as can be seen in my previous Naruto fanfic, go check it out @ http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4343195/1/Tears). Speaking of which, I am a Lelouch/Kallen shipper though, and it kinda saddens me that she might start working with the Brittania (or at least with Nunally and Suzaku) side, at least for awhile. Hopefully, my Lelouch/Kallen ship is still possible as evidenced by their 'moment' in episode 9. Go go Kallen!
PS: Ying Xiang, Thanks for helping me buy the stuff from Japan! You rock!

2008-06-09T21:24:00.002+08:00

ORD

Song of the moment: ORANGE RANGE - O2

asa mo yoru mo koikogarete
hoshi ni naru yo kimi mamoru
tatakai wa yukue shirazu

ashita to kinou no kousaten de
majiwaranai kimi to boku
ima iku yo boku wa nagareboshi

(During mornings and nights, too, I yearn for love
and I'll become a star to protect you,
without knowing the whereabouts of the battle

At the intersection of tomorrow and yesterday,
you and I don't come across each other;
now I'll go, I'm a shooting star)
O2 by ORANGE RANGE

I actually feel strangely detached from the situation. Watching all my juniors trying to work out who is to do the grass cutter escort while standing there and realizing that all these escorts and sentry duty will never have anything to do with you again is a weird feeling. I guess it hasn't really sunk in yet. The fact that I have ORD-ed. In a way, its kind of hard to feel the difference considering that half the time I am at home anyway thanks to dismount. Collecting my IC today and seeing all those Recruit/Private clerks crack lame jokes about ORD personnel, I actually didn't really feel anything. No sense of 'euphoria' whatsoever. Only a feeling of relief that I finally have my IC. After this will be a rush of preparation for this Wednesday's CAC youth camp and the upcoming D'Anchor debate. The usual sourcing for prizes and whatnot. I guess life just goes on... Probably because there's no one to make fun of...LOL. (No offence to my friends who are still serving, of course...)
BTW, my reservist unit is apparently HQ Supply and Transport. Anyone knows what does buggers do there? Or better, what I will do there?

Just finished watching Code Geass R2 episode 9. I am actually starting to get used to the "Zero or some other character will do some stunt at the end" formula. Maybe because of this the twist in the plot actually don't feel as 'shocking' as it did in the first season. However, it has become more fun to watch. Perhaps an attempt to widen the demographics by Bandai? Not that I am complaining of course. Once again, another scene(those who watch will know which one...) which supports a Lelouch/Kallen ship, which is as you all should know by now is my favorite ship in Code Geass so far. But of course the inclusion of a certain pizza loving green-head at the end of said scene was a bit of a disappointment for me (and I am sure, many other Leleouch/Kallen shippers out there). Perhaps, another hint of a harem ending? LOL!

Also recieved the new Evangelion 1.01 DVD in the mail. Haven't really tested it yet so can't tell if they did repair the chapter skip bug. The intro booklet was interesting though. Looks like a direct translation from the Japanese one. I also added a Miku clock below my chat box. Hope it adds some color to my rather dull blog.

Finally to end of, a message of hope to all my friends out there.
ORD LO!!!

2008-05-22T20:50:00.002+08:00

Post FFI - Fit, sianz... (Fight for MP reservist!)

Song of the moment: Utada Hikaru - Beautiful World (ED Theme for Evangelion: 1.0 You Are [Not] Alone)

Nani ga hoshii ka wakaranakute
Tada hoshigatte nurui namida ga hoho o tsutau

Iitai koto nanka nai
Tada mou ichido aitai
Iitai koto ienai
Konjou nashi ka mo shirenai
Sore de ii kedo

(Without knowing what I want,
I merely desire, and warm tears fall down my cheeks...

I don’t have anything that I want to say.
I just want to meet you again.
I can’t say anything that I want to say.
I just might not have the guts.
That’s okay, but-)
Beautiful World by Utada Hikaru
Lyrics thanks to Atashi

As you would already know from my post heading, I just passed my FFI with flying colors...ah well, I guess I can't be a slacker all my life, huh? Still, I'll hope and pray for a slack reservist posting... 7 more working days to ORD!

Just purchased the Evangelion 1.0 R3 DVD (Released by Innoform media) from Poh Kim yesterday. For awhile, I was thinking whether I should just be like any other typical fanboy and post pictures of my latest purchase on my blog. After some deliberation, I decided that it wasn't really worth the effort. After all, I am just going to rant and complain about it for the next few minutes...

First up, packaging. Considering that it is a local release, I didn't really have any high expectation (or rather, no expectations at all). It ended up being one of those examples that show how sparingly local media publishers use the words "Collector's Edition" (or "Limited Edition", etc...). Another interesting point is the words "Introductory Booklet Included". Usually, you don't say that anything else is included when the only thing inside is the DVD and a postcard. Yes, they included a postcard was apparently to be sent to Innoform to redeem the non-existent "Introductory Booklet". While I appreciate the effort, but they apparently expect us to pay the postage for the postcard. Seriously, at least offer to pay for the postage when you've already failed to give us the full package...

Finally, content. The DVD had a bit of a grainy feel in terms of quality for the actual movie, but I can live with that. Extras/Special Features? Knowing local publishers aren't exactly going to provide a lot in terms of extras, I didn't expect much. (Sounds familiar? Honestly, I don't expect much from anything local either...save for manga and food?) A couple of trailers with the theme songs as their BGM are alright. A rather pathetic photo gallery and a single PV, I can endure. Then they mentioned "Rebuild of Evangelion: 1.01". I thought, "Hey ,wow! They actually got 1.01 on DVD...cool!". In ended up being a couple of concept drawings and animation from scenes throughout the movie. Really killed my faith in local products (As if Akira hasn't mangled it badly enough already...).
Worse news is, they again cut off the Preview for 2.0 like they did in the theatres...(Die Innoform, DIE!!!)

You know, I am actually wondering if I can complain to CASE about this...

Anyways, in terms of current anime, you can remove Duruga and Blassreiter and add Amatsuki and Macross Frontier to my currently watching category. Macross Frontier's pretty good, hopefully it'll end up with the particular ship (in this case, Alto/Sheryl) that I am rooting for...Same thing for Code Geass (Lelouch/Kallen!!!), which is stilled filled with your many twists but has a strangely more commercialised feel to it. (I reserved Guren Mark II while Willis reserved Lancelot at the model kit shop in Sunshine Plaza...maybe it is getting to us.)

Hey, I am gonna miss you guys back in Seletar...So I am gonna dedicate the next post to you guys...watch out for it after our 6th June ORD gathering...

2008-04-15T13:03:00.003+08:00

Priorities

Song of the moment: The Brilliant Green - Ash Like Snow (Mobile Suit Gundam 00 2nd OP theme)

Kokoro ni hishimeku haitoku no yami
Kimi no koe ga masui no you ni
Tsumetaku kankaku o ubatteku

Mujun o oikakete mo
Owaranai
Naze boku wa tatakau no?

Tatoeba hikari ga kieusete
Kono hoshi ga ochite mo
Wasurenai yo
Sono chiisa na negai ga
Aru beki basho e to michibiku

(An immoral darkness crowds my heart
Like anesthesia, your voice
Coldly steals away my sensations

Even if I pursue contradictions
They won't end
Why do I fight?

Even if light vanishes
And this Earth is corrupted
I won't forget
Your little wish
Guides you to the place where it must be at)
Ash Like Snow by The Brilliant Green
Thanks again to http://atashi.wordpress.com/

Yeah, Boo to you to Raun...
It's been a horrendously long time since I updated over here (Blame it on anime, FM 2008 and my new PSP). Uh huh, I bought a second-hand PSP slim in very good condition from my friend, Andy, who graciously sold it to me at a reasonable price of $250. So as of now, my latest 'distraction' would be Crisis Core and Warriors Orochi, in addition to my leading of Bolton Wanderers into the Champions League in FM 2008. Crazy times, yeah...

Anyways, the winter 07/08 anime season came and went. Now, the new Spring 2008 anime season has come upon us and with it comes some of the most highly anticipated anime series for this year. Let us look at some of the anime yours truly will be or is already following...

Currently Following

Code Geass - Lelouch of the Rebellion R2 - Probably one of, if not the most anticipated anime for this year. R2 continues from one year after the end of Season 1, which culminated in a stand off between Zero/Lelouch and Suzaku. One year after the Black Rebellion, the Order of the Black Knights have been defeated, Zero declared dead and Area 11 has been relegated to the status of "Remedial Territory". The seemingly normal Lelouch Lamperouge is caught up in a terrorist attack and meets a mysterious green haired girl, offering him his true identity...

The Tower of Druaga: The Aegis of URUK - A young warrior Gil, embarks on a quest to find a fabled weapon, said to be in the highest floor of Druaga... Seems your typical fantasy anime fare but the pilot episode was funny, so I'll give it a few more episodes to flesh out the story...

Itazura na Kiss - Shoujo romance anime. The Taiwanese and Singaporeans know it better as "It Started With a Kiss". Not-so-smart girl chases after the school's number one student but gets rejected. When her home gets destroyed in an earthquake, she and her father goes to live with her father's friends, who happens to be the said guy's parents...

Soul Eater - Revolves around three groups of students from the Shinigami School for Weapon Technicians. Each team comprises of a technician and human weapon, trying to make the latter into a 'death scythe', a weapon fit to be used by Shinigami himself.

Toshokan Sensou - In the near future, the government controls the media through the Media Improvement Act. Standing against them are the Libraries, who opposes the government and has its own 'army'. Throughout the years, this struggle has escalated into a full-scale armed conflict...
This is one of the anime's which i have a real interest in (Other than R2, of course...) because I really like the concept and animation is done by Production I.G (Ghost In The Shell, Blood+, Ghost Hound).

Other shows that I am keeping my eye on are Blassreiter (gives me a kind of Kamen Rider feel...), Wagaya no Oinari-sama and Kyouran Kazoku Nikki (another 'anime' anime, if you get my drift).

~~~

It's over...well not that it began in the first place. Things were never going in the right direction and I guess I should start focusing on the things that do matter...

2008-02-24T15:06:00.002+08:00

Final Thoughts: Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann

Having watched so many anime series ever since starting this blog, this is the first time that I actually bothered to write a blog entry totally dedicated to a single anime.

For the uninitiated, Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann is a Sci-Fi/Action Adventure/Mecha anime telling the story of Simon, a boy who has spent much of his life digging in an effort to expand his underground village and Kamina, who believes that a land exists above ground. One day, Simon finds a small, shiny drill and a mysterious robot when the ceiling collapses and a giant robot appears from the ground above, with a girl fighting it. All these trigger a series of events which eventually lead Simon to fight to save the universe.

Initially, when it was first shown in the month of April 2007, I had missed it because I was too busy with my other shows, Hayate no Gotoku, Romeo X Juliet and Lovely Complex (The latter two I eventually dropped because I lost interest). I came across it again at the end of 2007 in Random Curiosity's 'Best Anime of 2007' blog entry. I was intrigued by what he said - "the scope just kept getting bigger and bigger, up to the point where they were fighting for the entire universe. I think that qualifies this series as being quite epic." Seeing that we both have similar tastes in Anime, I decided to try out this series. Downloading Black-Order's version of the fansub, I started watching it during one of my weekend duties in camp. Despite the somewhat far-fetched (though humorous) situations that some of the characters are put in, I was impressed by how well they scripted and paced the story, together with the overall animation quality.

Most Mecha shows tend to either be too focused on the mecha themselves (Gundam SEED series) or have a over complicated plot (Evangelion TV series). Basically, it either had no depth or had too much depth. Shows like Gurren Lagann (Eureka seveN deserves a mention too...) manages to balance both the mecha action and plot. It keeps the mecha action flowing while having a plot which helps develop the characters, giving them much needed depth, beyond your typical idealistic or angsty robot pilot trying to keep world peace and/or save his friends and family. It even manages to throw in a really unexpected plot twist in the second half.

In conclusion, Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann really goes beyond the Mecha, the likeable underdog characters and its great animation quality (despite having its fair share of detractors and controversy, read here), because most importantly, its an anime where you'll cheer them when they fight, laugh when they laugh and cry when they cry. Its an anime with HEART.

Rating: 6 out of 5 stars

2008-02-04T19:55:00.000+08:00

Countdown to ORD: 4 month 5 days

Song of the moment: Shoko Nakagawa - Sorairo Days (Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann OP theme)

sugita kisetsu wo
nageku hima wa nai
nidoto mayotte
shimawanu you ni

kazoekirenai
honno sasayaka na
sonna koukai
kakaeta mama

sono senaka dake oikakete
koko made kitan da
sagashiteita
boku dake ni dekiru koto

ano hi kureta kotoba ga ima demo
kono mune ni tashikani todoiteru kara
kinou yori mo kyou boku wa
boku no umaretekita wake ni kizuiteiku

kotae wa sou itsumo koko ni aru

(I don’t have the time to grieve
about the seasons that have passed by
So that I won’t be lost again

While I still held such
Countless and simply meager regrets

I only pursued
your back and came here
It’s something that only I,
who was searching, can do

Because the words that you gave me on that day
Certainly reach my chest even now
Today, I’ll realize the reason of my having been born
More than I did yesterday

The answer, that’s right, is always here)
Sorairo Days by Shoko Nakagawa
Thanks to http://atashi.wordpress.com/

Sorry for not blogging recently, been busy with lots of stuff. Another batch of NS men has just ORD-ed, leaving my batch to be the old birds of the NS personnel. Soon our time will come... Anyways, now being the winter season, a new batch of animes has now come to our shores and I shall now introduce some of the new ones that I am currently following.

Currently Following

Zoku Sayonara Zetsubo Sensei - With its unique humor and spoofs of everything Japanese, Zetsubo Sensei returns for a second season, introducing a couple of new characters, from a housewife student to an 'old friend' of Zetsubo Sensei.

Shigofumi - A postgirl who delivers letters from the dearly departed...hmm...interesting.

Persona -trinity soul- - Set 10 years after the Persona 3 PS2 game (which I am still playing...). Apathy Syndrome is back and three siblings are reunited after 10 years...

Spice and Wolf - A merchant and a pagan wolf deity traveling together in ancient Europe. It focuses a lot on the customs and practices of traders during that time. Interesting setting but what keeps me watching is actually the seiyus of the two lead characters (Jun Fukuyama and Ami Koshimizu, a.k.a Lelouch and Kallen from Code Geass)

Lots of interesting shows in the winter season, but we all know that we are all looking forward to the Spring 2008 anime season. With shows like Code Geass season 2 (Bunny girl Kallen!!!), xxxHolic season 2, Toshokan Sensou and Soul Eater (who would have thought...), all of us fanboys got something to look forward to...

PS: You'll all have to wait a bit for the photos. Just don't have the time to post them yet...

2007-12-23T21:34:00.000+08:00

What will come of my dreams for the future...

Song of the moment: YUI - Good-bye Days (Taiyou no Uta movie theme)

Katahou no iyafon wo kimi ni watasu
Yukkuri to nagarekomu kono shunkan

Umaku ai sete imasu ka? Tama ni mayou kedo

Oh good-bye days
Ima kawarihajimeta mune no oku alright
Kakko yokunai yasashisa ga soba ni aru kara
~With you

(I pass you one earphone
And in that moment, it plays slowly

Am I loving you right? Sometimes I get confused

Oh good-bye days
Now what’s in my heart has begun to change, alright
I have a clumsy tenderness by my side
~With you)
Good-bye Days by YUI

Hi guys! Back from a fruitful trip in KL and currently slacking in front of 'Sirius'... Thanks to my mom's laptop, I was able to keep abreast of the current 'anime' happenings...like EP 11 of ef (gasp! Who would have thought...) and the last episode of Higurashi. But before I go too much into my KL trip, let's also look back on the week before the KL trip, where I met my old Poly mates for a gathering at Su Korean Cuisine Place at Far East for a mini-gathering.

Certainly, a couple of people were left out of the gathering, some on purpose, others by accident (not going to mention who is in what category, go figure...). Had a real fun time catching up with the guys like Che Wei, Jia Yi (You're rounder now...lol), Jon, SJ (Has ridiculously high pay for NSF...grrr), Kris and SF. The gals (Keting, Jodi, Feli) were there too. Had good food and a fun time catching up with you guys! Hope that there'll be another gathering like this soon, yeah?

Back to the KL trip, didn't do much sight-seeing per se save for KL Tower. The rest of the time we were shopping and eating. As I said earlier, it was a fruitful trip. This is my official purchase list (excluding Christmas gifts)

1) Newtype Dec 2007 issue (couldn't find Jan 2008 issue)
2) Cowboy Bebop TV series
3) Cowboy Bebop Movie
4) Perfect Blue DVD (Satoshi Kon...hmm)
5) Gedo Senki DVD (Underwhelming...)
6) Taiyou no Uta movie DVD (YUI!!!)
7) Bubble Fiction: Boom or Bust DVD (there's Ryoko Hirosue and Abe Hiroshi...)
8) .Hack// Another Birth Vol. 3 and 4
9) 1/100 Akatsuki Gundam Dual pack set

KL trip: SUCCESS!!

Will post photos from trip and gathering soon. Till next time...

2007-11-26T18:08:00.000+08:00

Gomen ne, Kimura-san...boku wa HERO janai! (Sorry, Mr Kimura...you aren't my HERO!)

Song of the moment: Mongol 800 - Chiisana Koi no Uta

hiroi uchuu no kazu aru hitotsu
aoi chikyuu no hiroi sekai de
chiisana koi no omoi wa todoku
chiisana shima no anata no moto e
anata to deai toki ha nagareru
omoi wo kometa tegami mo fueru
itsushika futari tagai ni hibiku
toki ni hageshiku toki ni setsunaku
hibiku ha tooku haruka kanata e
yasashii uta ha sekai wo kaeru

hora anata ni totte daiji na hito hodo
sugu soba ni iru no
tada anata ni dake todoite hoshii
hibike koi no uta
hora hora hora hibike koi no uta

(One of many in this wide universe
In the great world of this blue earth
This tiny feeling of love will reach
You on the little island
Time have passed since I first met you
The letters with my feelings grow in numbers
Without us realizing, it is already echoing between us
Sometimes intense, sometimes sad
It echoes distantly
This gentle song changes the world

Look, the person who is important to you
Is right beside you
I just want to reach only you
This echoing love song
Listen, Listen, Listen to this echoing love song)
Chiisana Koi no Uta by Mongol 800
Thanks to http://www.songmeanings.net

It's been some time since I've seen a movie which really fell below my expectations and on Saturday, I found out HERO was one of those movies. HERO, as you might already know, is a sequel to a highly acclaimed J-Drama of the same name, starring Takuya Kimura (the GATSBY guy) and Takako Matsu (Brave Story's Wataru). The TV series is basically about how Kimura's character, Kuryu Kohei, a former juvenile delinquent becomes a public prosecutor and takes on various criminals in court. While it's not a must to watch the TV series before this, it'll enable you to better understand the character's back story and the movie's various references if you did. The jokes were lame, but somewhat humorous. Chemistry between the various people in the persecutor's were quite good (I really liked Abe Hiroshi ever since Trick and this movie reminded me of why I felt he was such a good actor...). The plot however, seemed a bit convoluted and failed to sustain my interest at times. Also, the never-ending shots of Lady Justice outside the courtroom annoyed me to no end. (Rating:2/5 stars)

On a side note, I am pleased to announce that my faction (ClubHootHoot) in Grenado Espada (MMORPG which I am currently playing) has finally gained its first two colonies in last Sunday's Colony War!

Go go ClubHootHoot!

~~~

So tell me, is it a sign from God or just a mere coincidence? Well, honestly I don't believe in coincidences. Everything does happen for a reason. But for what reason...?

2007-10-29T17:22:00.000+08:00

Autumn reflections

Song of the moment: Eufonius - Megumeru ~Cuckool Mix 2007~ (Clannad OP theme)

hutashikana kimochi wo idaku
doushitemo huande
imawa mada shiranai keredo
itsuka sonomeni utsuru toki gakuru

sekai wa tsuzuiteru
kimi wo mezashi nagara

kasaneta teto te no nakani
chiisana mirai ga mietara
kiokuwo sa tokihanatou
massugu na kokoro no sakini
tsunagaru jikan ga arukara

(I embrace an uncertain feeling
I feel uneasy no matter what
I still don’t know now
But someday, the moment when I’ll reflect in your eyes will come

The world continues on
While I’m gazing at you

If we can see a little future
Within our joined hands
Then c’mon, let’s release our memories
Because there’s a time that connects to
The tip of my straightforward heart)
Megumeru ~Cuckool Mix 2007~ by Eufonius
Thanks to http://atashi.wordpress.com

Yes...here comes what I personally feel is the best time of the year, Autumn. There's always this sense of anticipation during Autumn, where it's like so close to the end of the year yet it isn't. Where another batch of my seniors start to ORD (just you guys wait, 7+ more months...grr...). Coincidentally, it also represents a new season of TV shows and anime waiting to be watched. Since I probably haven't done this for a long time, I guess it's time where I give my initial thoughts and possible expectations to the new Autumn anime season. At least those which I am currently following or intend to follow in future anyway... ^_^

Currently Following

Bamboo Blade - Well, I personally have a mild interest in sports anime and it being a Kendo Seinen one kind of pique my interest. Admittedly, I haven't watched past the first episode yet, but while this probably won't be in my "must watch" list, it'll be interesting to see how it develops.

Dragonaut: The Resonance (MUST WATCH!) - Lots of potential but possibly overrated? Well, as with the title, it's clearly a Shounen anime with dragons and the Haruhi alumni (as in the seiyuu) are inside (Nagato Yuki/Chihara Minori is the female lead and Koizumi Itsuki/Ono Daisuke is the male lead). It's on probation in my "must watch" list so we'll see how it goes.

Clannad (MUST WATCH!) - The biggest of my personal BIG 3 new animes this fall, it's another anime adaptation of a KEY visual novel after Kanon and Air. With a good mix of comedy, drama, moe characters and animation by Kyoto Animation (FMP:TSR and Suzumiya Haruhi), it's probably a guaranteed sure hit and nothing short of a disaster can ruin this anime.

Mobile Suit Gundam 00 (MUST WATCH!) - Another one of my BIG 3 new animes. As most of you all would know of my fixation of mecha/sci-fi animes (Gundam in particular), it's the latest in the Gundam franchise. Having not watched Gundam for some time after SEED Destiny and the Zeta compilation movies, I was a bit apprehensive till I found out who is the director (Mizushima Seiji of FMA fame). Interesting to see what direction he'll take the seires into...

KimiKiss Pure Rouge - Based on a dating sim from Japan. Main reason for watching is probably the character design and it's director (Kasai Kenichi of Nodame Cantabile and Honey and Clover). Your typical romantic drama...at least it's not a harem anime.

Moyashimon - It's probably this season's (in my opinion) unique anime. About a guy who can see microbes with his naked eye. Hmm...
Well, at any rate, it's one of the funny/comedy animes' out there.

Shion no Ou - It's like a dark version of Hikaru no Go. With elements of murder, mystery and Japanese Chess, its quite an interesting formula...

Ghost Hound (MUST WATCH!) - Last of my BIG 3 animes. Creator: Shirow Masamune (Ghost in the shell, Appleseed) Production Company: Production I.G (Blood+, Jin Roh, Ghost in the shell) Need I say more?

Higurashi no Naku Koro ni Kai - Ongoing mystery/murder anime from Summer 2007. Big fan of the previous season. The 2nd season expands and concludes the story of the Hinamizawa Disaster through the final two solution arcs and two new exclusive anime-only arcs. Will Rika, Keiichi and gang achieve their happy ending? Find out in Higurashi season 2!

Hayate no Gotoku - Ongoing comedy/parody anime from Spring 2007. Based on a manga series by Hata Kenjirou. Started out great but kind of losing steam after reaching the halfway mark. Hopefully it'll pick up again. At least the parodies are still there.

Would like to follow

Shakugan no Shana season 2 - Reluctant as have not finish watched season 1.
ef - a tale of memories - Downloaded but unwatched.
Genshiken season 2 - Same reason as Shana

Cool yeah? So much anime, so little time...

2007-09-24T22:19:00.000+08:00

A Signal of Intent

Song of the moment: YUI - Happy Birthday to you you

Itsumo chikaku ni ite
Tokubetsu na yume kikasete hoshii
Kore kara mo yoroshiku
Purezento mo aru yo omedetou!

Happy birthday to you you
Happy birthday to you you
Happy birthday to you you itsumo arigatou!
Happy birthday to you you
Happy birthday to you you
Anata ni okuru baasudei songu yo? OK?

(I want you to stay near me all the time
And tell me your special dreams
Hope things go well from now on
I’ve got you a present too, happy birthday!

Happy birthday to you you
Happy birthday to you you
Happy birthday to you you, thanks for everything!
Happy birthday to you you
Happy birthday to you you
Here’s a birthday song for you, OK?)
Happy Birthday to you you by YUI
Thanks to http://www.kiwi-musume.com/ for the lyrics!

It finally happened...after one false start, of course. On the actual day itself (right in the middle of my AYL meeting), I had received a piece of bad news from one of my co-conspirators, Jiawei, that Sandar had left for home, without any intention of coming back for FFW later that evening. Which left us no choice but to delay it till Sunday.

Well, at least it was a success on Sunday. Mostly went according to plan (Save for the candles...I mean, did you really expect me to put 9 small ones with 1 big one on a cake that small?) thus I would like to take this opportunity to thank my four musketeers, Angela, Andy, Jiawei and Michelle. Thanks you guys for supporting me all the way! I really appreciate the moral support you gave.

On a separate note, I would like all of you to welcome a new member to the Chia family, "Sirius".

Yup, his name is Sirius. Why did I name him Sirius? Because he's 'Black'? Honestly, I don't really remember myself. Anyways here are his "vital statistics"....

Processor: Intel Core 2 Duo E6550 2.33 GHz ($266)
Motherboard: Asus P5KC P35 ($289)
Memory: 2 x Corsair 1GB DDR2 ($136)
HDD: Western Digital 400GB SATA2 ($167)
PSU: Verudium Power Vortex 480W ATX 2.1 PSU ($72)
Graphics: XPERTVISION ATi 2600 Pro Sonic 256MB DDR3 PCI-E with HDMI ($159)
Optical Drive: Pioneer DVR-212BKR 18x +/- SATA DVD writer ($65)
Monitor: Samsung 226BW 22-inch widescreen ($449)
Speaker: Logitech X230 2.1 Speakers ($68)
Keyboard: Logitech New Touch USB (not shown in picture) ($16)
Mouse: Razer DeathAdder with Mantis Control Pad($89)
OS: Windows XP Professional ($100)
Casing: CoolerMaster Mystique ($99)
Others: Sony Internal Card Reader ($19)

Not sure if I missed anything else but damage is approx. S$1994.

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(Sigh) In the end, is this your answer? Has my time yet to come? Are you reminding me to wait? But of course what I did was tantamount to announcing my intentions to the whole of D'Anchor...making it all the harder to keep my promise of not making a move till ORD...

2007-09-16T19:44:00.000+08:00

To make an impact...

Song of the moment: YUI - My Generation (Seito Shokun! ED theme)

atashi nara mada yareru hazudatte

gisei ni dekinai no wa
komi ageru kibou naku shitara mata michi ni mayou dake

jama nante saretakunai
wakatteiru no kakugo ga areba

itsu datte jiyuu yo

My Dream kowareru koto nante nai kara
machi kirenai kisetsu no naka aruki hajimeta no
utsumuiteta jikan wo tori modoshite
egaita yume wo tsuyoku shinji kireta toki kara kawaru Generation
Sixteen My Dream

(There are still things for me to do.

I won’t allow myself to be a victim,
If it wasn’t for this great rush of hope, I would only lose my way again.

Now that I am mentally prepared,
I will no longer be hindered.

As I’ve always been free.

Because my dreams are unshakable,
In the midst of an impetuous season, I began my journey
To reclaim the time that was lost to diffidence.
Since I entrusted myself to my dreams, this generation has been one of change.
Those dreams at sixteen.)
My Generation by YUI
Thanks to http://yui.groups.vox.com/ for the lyrics

So what happens when you put 2 ultra competitive people in the same room in front of a PS2? You get an extremely ridiculous show of oneupman-ship to watch, that's what. While I don't want to name any names, those on duty yesterday would know who I am talking about. Even my proposition to end the 'hostilities' ended up adding fuel to the fire. Thankfully, me and Sheng Yang had Fate Tiger Colosseum to pass the time while Jere had to wait for his turn at the PS2.

Speaking of the PS2, Persona 3 (my current game of the moment for PS2) puts a rather interesting spin to the typical action RPG game. BY introducing dating-sim elements into the game, it actively encourages you to think about what you want to pursue instead of just grinding your way to max stats (BTW, it's impossible to grind in the game since it adds a 'fatigue' rating to all your playable characters). There are moments where you'll have to choose between going out to eat ramen with a friend, swim team practice or student council meetings. Sigh...real life was never THIS busy...

Honestly, it was never my intention to actually do so much or go to such an extent to celebrate someone's birthday. I ended up organizing the whole thing, together with my team of 4 (musketeers, legendary heroes, friends or whatever you care to name them...LOL). Their identities shall remain a secret for now till after the event to properly ensure the success of the mission I have entrusted them.

Now, writing this Blog entry, I start to think whether what I am doing is right? Am I getting to far ahead of myself? Of course, my justification is that all I am doing is just planning a party, no big deal. Even friends do this, right?

Right?

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I guess it is impossible to justify your own actions. I just don't want to crash and burn like the last time...

2007-08-23T21:19:00.000+08:00

Of Ice Cream and well wishes...

Song of the moment: UVERworld - Colors of the Heart

Wakariaeru hi wo tomedonaku sagashita
Ushinau tame dake ni ima wo ikiteku
Mou dame da to hitori kodoku wo daitemo
If you turn on the lights...
Hikari he terashiteku

“Negai tsudzukeru omoi itsuka irodzuku yo” to
Oshiete kureta kokoro ni ikitsudzukeru hito
Nanimo kamo hitsuzen no naka de umareru colors
Mou ichido kono te de asu wo egakeru kara

(I searched endlessly for the day of reconciliation
Only for the sake of losing it, I will live for the present
Even when it is useless and I embrace solitude alone
IF YOU TURN ON THE LIGHTS…
I will shine towards them

“Feelings continuously filled with wishes will someday create colors”,
That’s what I’ve been taught, to be a person who continues to live with this in the heart
Because COLORS are born within anything and everything inevitable
I will paint tomorrow once more with these hands)
Colors of the Heart by UVERworld

Originally wanted to post last night but couldn't get into the Blogspot/Google server, thus the delay. In case any of you don't know, I celebrated my 21st Birthday yesterday with as LITTLE fanfare as possible. I am not the kind who likes those big parties or whatever so just a private one with family is good enough. (Well, the real reason I didn't hold a party was because I didn't want to end up inviting my whole SIM card contact list if you know what I mean...) So thanks to those who sent me Happy Birthday SMSes like Jon, KT, Michelle, Jerline, JY, Angela, Shu Wei, Sheng Yang and SJ. (BTW, it's descending order in which you sent me the SMSes, according to my mobile anyway...LOL) Anyways, I really appreciate that you guys took the time to wish me Happy Birthday so once again, thanks A LOT you guys and God Bless.

Had my Birthday dinner @ Swensens J8. I was really surprised at the quality of their Seafood pasta. Absolutely scrumpu-licious! So much better than PastaMania...hmm, now I know where to go for good pasta, eh? Really enjoyed my Ice Cream too (Hazel Daze) though I couldn't taste the supposed melted marshmallows which was inside the ice cream. The Mango cheese cake my mom bought from Sweet Secrets tasted great too!

Birthday present my mom bought for me was actually a blazer from G2K. Now why, you would ask, would I want a Blazer for my Birthday? Honestly, I've never had a Blazer of my own, nor ever worn one before. So, I thought it would be a nice practical gift...besides, it's my Birthday and I'll get a Blazer if I want to! Now to just find an excuse to wear it...

On another note, I've been listening to a quite a few YUI songs recently. Even went to the extent of ~~downloading~~ "getting" her two albums. Why? Well, I thought her two theme songs for Bleach were pretty good but I really LOVED her ED theme for Seito Shokun called 'My Generation'. Look out for it in my next post...

So nearly a day on, the person whom I really wanted to wish me a Happy Birthday didn't. Those of you who know who, so be it and those of you who don't...well you probably don't need to know. Does it matter really? Honestly, no. I've already made a conscious decision to not be actively involved in the 'process'. When, where and how, maybe even who, I'll leave it in God's hands.
Sometimes, it just hurts too much to want to be in control...

2007-08-06T16:59:00.000+08:00

Survivor... (Spoiler Alert: All about Harry Potter Book 7 a.k.a The Redemption of Severus Snape)

Song of the moment: SunSet Swish - Mosaic Kakera (Code Geass 2nd ED theme)

Konna hazu ja nai sou omotte nemuri
Mezamereba itsumo no kawaranai karamawari
Imi mo naku kurikaeshi

Mozaiku kakera hiroi atsumeteta "umaku ikiru tame no sube"
Ibitsu na sore ga utsukushiku mieta n da
Tsuyogari nagara tsumazuki nagara erabinuita michi no ue de
Hagare ochite wa umaranai kakera

(“It shouldn’t be like this,” I sleep while thinking so
And when I wake up, my usual, unchanging, and fruitless efforts
Meaninglessly repeat

The “method for living well” that I’d gathered up in mosaic fragments
It was distorted but seemed beautiful
While I bluff, while I stumble on the road that I’ve chosen to stick to until the end
The fragments peel off and fall, but they won’t be buried)
Mosaic Kakera by SunSet Swish

This post was a bit delayed but it has come. I've finally finished Book 7 last week while in camp. It has been an exciting, fun and at times tiring journey, but it's finally OVER! (Well, save for all the fanfiction out there...) So if any of you reading this haven't read Book 7 yet, I suggest redirecting yourself to another site like this for example...

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So in the end our hero lived. Is it really any surprise? To be honest, not really. In my opinion, I couldn't see Rowling actually killing of Harry just to end the series. You always get that, "There's always a silver lining" kind of feel when you're reading HP. Even as the hero's world start to fall apart, there's always a small 'lining' out there somewhere and perhaps it's like a recurring theme in the book. That Good will always triumph over Evil, that there will always be a happy ending somewhere out there.

Continuing on Book 7, I think the most obvious fanservice in the book (albeit perhaps appealing only to a smaller community (893 fics out of 311,013 as shown in FF.net on 6th Aug 07)) would probably be the Severus Snape/Lily Potter pairing. I can literally see all the fanfics starting to pop out once this 'best friends but perhaps more' kind of pairing was confirmed. Admittedly, while it did explain quite a few things in the plot like his motivation etc., I still believe this was a fanservice decision by Rowling as with the Tonks/Moony pairing in book 6.

Moving on to something other than HP, I recently watched Paprika with Sheng Yang at The Picturehouse. It was one of those really psychedelic films with lots of visuals and Tschno-ish music. Directed by Satoshi Kon (Perfect Blue, Tokyo Godfathers) and the lead seiyuu being THE Megumi Hayashibara (Rei from Evangelion, Lina Inverse from Slayers), it was an interesting and fun movie though you might not understand the full plot on your first viewing.
Planning to watch Brave Story next.

BTW, is your anime download being marked on the AVPAS list? If so, beware of the Odex letter! To find out more about our local anime 'licensors' (and I really use this word loosely...) and what their really doing, go check out their Wikipedia entry.

2007-07-18T14:25:00.000+08:00

Cosfest 07

Song of the moment: FLOW - COLORS (Code Geass 1st OP theme)

Jibun wo Sekai sae mo Kaete shimae sonna
Shunkan wa Itsumo sugu soba ni…

Kakusenu iradachi to
Tachitsukusu jibun wo Mitsume

Mayoi nagara Nayami nagara Kuyami nagara Kimere ba ii sa
Kimi ga kureta kotoba hitotsu Tomadoi wa kiesari

Karappo datta Boku no heya ni Hikari ga sashita

(The moment that seems to able to change me and even the world
Is always right by my side…

Staring at the irritations that I can’t hide
And the me who stands completely still

While I’m confused, while I’m troubled, while I’m grieving, I should decide on it
With the one word that you gave me, my confusion vanishes

In my room that seemed empty, light shined)
COLORS by FLOW

As promised I have uploaded the pictures and you can view them here. As I have mentioned in my previous post, it was a pleasant though somewhat tiring experience. Reached there around 3.30PM when the event was already well under way. A bit surprised to see Benedict there too though, as we attempt to convert him into the way of the anime. The WCS local finals was eventually won by the Sakura Taisen pair, probably because their battle scene was the best choreographed among all the contestants. The Naruto pair really disappointed me though, with their crap dance routine. In the end, went to White Sands to have dinner with Poh and bought Trick season 1 (Woo hoo!) at Poh Kim.

On a side note, I went to watch Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix last friday with JY and Yap Xiong. It wasn't as draggy as the book which is a good thing but I felt it could have been much better. "Creative license" during certain parts really annoyed me (eg: Harry peeking into Snape's memories scene) but in the end it didn't really matter much as they kept most of the later scenes (eg: Luna and Harry's conversation before leaving Hogwarts) intact. The ending however, was a little too 'cheerful' in my opinion, since this was like one of the darkest books in the series, especially since Sirius just died. (Rating: 4/5 stars)
It was nice to see both Yap Xiong and JY doing well. Though I still feel Yap should shave off his goatee (lol!). I really enjoyed our time together and hope we'll see each other again soon, yeah?

BTW, thanks to Poh for helping me buy my anime @ Anime House and also to Ying Xiang, who has agreed to help me build my new computer, possibly starting within the next 2 months. ^_^

2007-07-16T22:53:00.000+08:00

Cosfest 2007 @ Downtown East Preview

Went to Cosfest 2007 WCS local finals on Sunday @ Downtown East. A little tiring but rather fun. Here are some photos for you guys to muse over...

Seletar Anime gang @ WCS local finals (Clockwise from top left: Sheng Yang, Benedict, Poh, Ying Xiang and myself)

Probationary Anime gang member Benedict. Is he really an otaku? Only time will tell...

Will post the rest of the photos on my next post and describe my experience in further detail. Look out for it! Probably within this week...hopefully heh heh...

2007-07-08T19:58:00.000+08:00

Who will open the door of miracles?

Song of the moment: Kuwata Keisuke - Ashita Hareru Kana (Proposal Daisakusen ED theme)

Mimi wo sumaseba kokoro no koe wa
Boku ni nani wo katari kakeru darou
Ima mayou nureta machi no katasu ni ite
Ano koro no sora wo omou tabi ni

Kami yori tamaeshi kodoku ya trouble
Nakitai toki wa nakina yo
Kore ga sadame deshou ka?
Akirameyou ka?
Kisetsu wa meguru mahou no you ni

(If I listen carefully, the voice of my heart
what would it have to tell me?
Though I stand in this lost wet corner of the town
That sky back then, I'll remember everytime

Loneliness and troubles bestowed upon us from God
Just make us cry when we desire to
Is this my fate?
Should I give up?
The seasons return just like magic)
Ashita Hareru Kana by Kuwata Keisuke

Guess I haven't been blogging for quite sometime. Apologies to anyone who still actually reads this blog (If you still do, I am quite touched, really...). Anyway let me update you on what has been happening during my blog entry-less period.

Watched a couple of movies during this period, like POTC3 for example but the more notable ones were probably Toki wo Kakeru Shoujo (The Girl Who Leapt Through Time) and Transformers. It's interesting to note that I actually already watched Toki wo Kakeru one or two months back when the fansubs came out. So, it was the first time that I actually went to watch a movie which I had already watched and downloaded on the PC. Maybe it was for Sheng Yang too, I am not to sure (Please clarify...lol). Anyways, I think we agreed that it was for that 'movie theatre' experience. Despite having already watched it, I still enjoyed it the second time around. It was one of the movies with a high re-playability value, I guess.

For Transformers, I watched it with Angela, Yun Jie and Terence, which despite not getting premium seats, was quite an enjoyable (and most importantly, FREE btw...) experience. Honestly, it wasn't really a 'must-watch' show in my list (since it was a Michael 'Pearl Habour' Bay film, you know, all action, no plot or substance) but since it was free, I decided to go for it anyway. I was pleasantly surprised that I actually enjoyed the movie. As Ying Xiang said, it was probably a good thing to actually go in to the theatre without any expectations. I thought it was very funny and the action sequences were rather well done. A (surprising) 4 out of 5 stars.

Anime wise, I've completed a couple of series, like Higurashi and Blood+ among others. Code Geass, was unexpectedly good. Maybe because I kind of underestimated it since it had a somewhat cliché anime plot (Guy unexpectedly gains 'super powers' and gets drawn into war etc...). Anyways, it's probably one of the really good animes I have watched so far. At least now I can understand why everyone is complaining about the ending being delayed by TBS. One of those shows which keeps your in the edge with the plot twists and turns.

More recently though or rather just yesterday, I went to the Cosfest 2007 local semis at Ngee Ann Civic Plaza with Jonathan and SY. Jonathan was really enthusiastic about the, erm...females at the event while me and SY just kind of wandered around exploring the place. Took a couple of pictures but haven't uploaded them yet. Maybe after the local finals at Downtown East next week?

Sometimes, its better to look ahead than to stay back and wait for something to happen. If our time comes....
Who will open my door of miracles?

2007-05-12T11:21:00.000+08:00

Is this what I wanna be?

Song of the moment: KT Turnstall - Suddenly I See

Its been a rather interesting past month for me. Managed to watch a couple of movies, like Spiderman 3, Bridge to Terabithia and Children of Men (on DVD). Also caught up with a couple of friends from Barker, like John, Joshua and Zhu Dong. Most of them are just waiting for entry into Uni since they've ORD-ed, save for Josh, who's already in NYP doing Occupational Therapy and John, who's still serving like me.

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There was a blackout in camp last Monday when I was on duty. It really was an interesting experience. It kind of reminds you on how much a person can rely on electricity, be it for the fan, air-con or simple just the lights. We (Ben, Sar, Sheng Yang and myself) tried to start a fire without much sucess and we ended up sleeping outside in the open (with the mosquitoes of course...). Definitely an experience I wouldn't want to repeat.

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Spiderman 3 to me was a tad bit disappointing. Didn't really live up to my expectations. Although there was surprisingly a lot more humor in the movie (Peter Parker dancing down the street while checking out girls was hilarious) and brings the show full circle, the ending didn't really feel satisfying for me. Venom's questionable fate in the movie and Peter's and MJ's relationship didn't really end the way I though it would. Still, it's a pretty good movie. The action sequences were really top-notch (I liked the first fight scene between Peter Parker and Green Goblin/Harry Osbourne). A 4 out of 5 stars from me.

Children of Men was one of those movies which really didn't deserve the 'straight to DVD' treatment. Directed by Alfonso Cuaron (Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban), it has one of the best (if not the best) cinematography I've ever seen (a 5-10 minute scene in ONE, continuous single take, its amazing) which probably should have won an oscar. Perhaps, I was a little disappointed by how much screen time Julianne Moore had in the movie but otherwise, this movie is really a masterpiece in storytelling. A 5 out of 5 from me.

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I would be coordinating the youth for our church during the 24-7 prayer starting this Sunday, please keep me in your prayers and pray that we will all experience God more intimately during this period.

2007-04-01T23:01:00.000+08:00

Adventure of Life...

Song of the moment: Hirano Aya - Bouken Desho Desho? (Suzumiya Haruhi no Yuutsu OP Theme)

Kotae wa itsumo watashi no mune ni...

Nande daro anata wo eranda watashi desu
Mou tomaranai unmei sama kara kimerareta kedo
I believe mane dake ja tsumaranai no
You'll be right!
Kanjiru mama kanjiru koto dake wo suru yo

(The answer is always in my heart...

Why did I? I ask myself why I chose you.
I can't stop. It's all been decided by fate.
But I believe imitating is boring.
You'll be right!
I'll do what I feel like the way I want to.)
Bouken Desho Desho? by Hirano Aya

Haha...it's as if I am blogging like once a month nowadays, which is kind of ironic considering that I have more free time now compared to 6-8 months back when I was still a trainee back in Tekong and later, Mowbray.

Since this was my long weekend for the current duty forecast, I took the chance to so called end my long weekend on a 'high'. Stayed back in church till post jamming/Bay spring cleaning and went out with the gang to go eat Botak Jones at AMK. It was a great chance for me to catch up on the latest church ~~gossip~~ news. Learned quite a few new things today, so it definitely wasn't a wasted trip (well, of course there was another ~~person~~ reason why...).

Dinner at Botak Jones was pretty good. One of the best hawker westerns I've ever eaten. My main gripes though, was the long waiting time (45 minutes ++) and the lack of ventilation (Maybe it was the location of our table? Who knows?). I enjoyed my dinner nonetheless and would probably go there again if I had the chance.

Honestly, I do wonder...what kind of life I would be leading if I never met you. Truth be told, I don't know and I never want to know. Because I would never ever regret meeting you, whatever the circumstances. Perhaps, my only regret would be that I never met you earlier. Would things have been different? Probably, but we would never know would we. I think Andy and Jonathan are right, you've got to take a stand on this. It's time to stop procrastinating and such and take the initiative to change the situation. As Andy says, come August, "...half the battle is lost.". Maybe I...

2007-03-06T13:58:00.000+08:00

So close like this...

Song of the moment: Crystal Kay - Konna ni Chikaku de (Nodame Cantabile anime ED theme)

konna ni konna ni
chikaku de mitsumetemo
doushite doushite
tada no tomodachi da yo
donna ni donna ni
tsuyoku omotte itemo
tsutaerarenai

You don’t understand
I’m so in love with you

(Like this, Like this,
I gaze at you from so close
Why, Why
are we only friends?
No matter how, how
strong are my feelings
I just can’t tell them to you

You don’t understand
I’m so in love with you)
Konna ni Chikaku de by Crystal Kay

Been doing some shopping around for the past 2 weeks after CNY. Finally acquired my Kiddy Grade VCD, the Girlfriend of Steet 2nd Manga, the DivX DVD player for camp and a DVD burner for my PC. However, still haven't acquired the rest yet, either due to unavailability or poor timing. So I'll just wait for a couple more days till my NSF allowance comes and then we'll see about it.

I'm back to downloading Naruto, now that it's back to the manga storyline and also another interesting anime called Nodame Cantabile. Basically a humor/romance classical music kind of anime. Highly recommended. I also got the live action J-Drama.

I watched Notes on a Scandal a couple weeks back. A really good movie. I liked the script and the way the director managed to flesh out Cate Blanchett and Judi Dench's characters. I can see why Judu Dench got her Best Actress nomination at the Oscars.

Hey, congratulations on your results! Hope that you'll be able to get into a good course in Uni...maybe we'll be in the same course? Lolz!

2007-02-15T21:01:00.000+08:00

Worth waiting for that moment...

Song of the moment: YUI - Rolling Star (BLEACH 5th OP theme)

Koronjatta tte iin ja nai no
Son toki wa waratte ageru
Norikonda basu no oku kara
Chiisaku hohoemi ga mieta
Kimi no tayori ni shiteru yo oh! Oh!

Yume ni made mita you na sweet love
Koibitotachi wa kakurega wo sagasu no
Demo genjitsu wa aenai hi ga
Tsuzukinagara mo shinjiteru no rolling days

(It’s OK to fall, right?
When you do, I’ll laugh for you
I got on the bus, and from inside
I could see you smile a little
I depend on you, oh! Oh!

In the sweet love I’ve dreamed of
The lovers search for a hiding place
But in reality, there are days when we can’t see each other
Even when I stumble, I have faith, in those rolling days)
Rolling Star by YUI

There are times when I am reminded of the reason why I fell for her in the first place, why she's worth waiting for. It is during those times, that I really can just appreciate the impact she has made not only in my life, but in the lives of others as well. Perhaps, next year...?

Spent Valentine's Day with the rest of Team SALAD (Single Available Lonely And Desperate) in Seletar on duty. Of course, strictly speaking, not all the SALADs were there, but enough of us (Ben, Jon, Tony, Beh, BK and myself) to spend a lonely night sleeping/prowling in camp...lol.

Sigh, haven't really had the chance to go out and enjoy myself recently. And I REALLY want to watch Babel...maybe this weekend? (Hint, hint...)

Current list of stuff to buy after CNY (in no particular order):

1) NDS lite slot 1 device (Estd: $80)
2) Kiddy Grade and other anime VCD/DVD (Estd: $50-80)
3) 1/100 scale Saviour Gundam model (Estd: $40)
4) 1/100 scale MG Rick Dias Quattro Custom (Estd:$60-70)
5) Evangelion: Girlfriend of Steel 2nd manga series Bk 1-6 full set (Estd: $50-60)
6) For camp: DivX-enabled DVD player (Estd: $20 per person)

Total approx. spending: $320-$350

2007-01-23T11:28:00.000+08:00

Just a little more hope to last that much longer...

Song of the moment: McFly - I've Got You

'cause i've got you to make me feel stronger
when the days are rough and an hour feels much longer
yeah when i got you
oh to make me feel better
when the nights are long they'll be easier together
I've Got You by McFly

Came back from Seletar just a couple of hours ago. Last night's duty was more or less as per usual. Zhaoyang, Poh, Beh, Ruan, BK and myself being the duty personnel. Around 8pm, BK and myself went to the Tech Mess to chill and get some sleep as we were on the 3 and 5 prowl timings. Not unexpectedly, we were woken up around 12MN by the sounds of Ruan playing Winning Eleven on the XBOX. At least I got some decent sleep before prowling...

Sandar 'dragged' MK, Zhiliang and myself along to go last minute shopping for Gabrielle's present (well, I was probably the most willing of all the above mentioned parties but that's beside the point). We settled for a nice pink/brown Puma handbag from Royal Sporting House (I think...). Rushed back to Church to present the gift and sing a quick B-Day song before the Music team's Jamming Session.

As some of you might know, I recently acquired a Nintendo DS lite for $309 with casing and 1 original game (There goes this month's pay...T_T), together with Zhixue and Han Ping. Thus, from now on, there is a DS 'gang' which consists of The above mentioned people and Ying Xiang who introduced us to the joys of DS. Should anyone of you be posted to Seletar Camp and have a DS, you are more than welcome to join the DS gang! LOL!

Just when it seems that there is no hope, a glimmer of it comes along. How long can I survive like that, not knowing the story's end?

2007-01-02T16:52:00.000+08:00

Beginning of something new...

Song of the moment: Zac Efron and Venessa Anne Hudgens - Breaking Free (High School Musical OST)

But your faith it gives me strength
Strength to believe

We’re breakin’ free
We’re soarin’
Flyin’
There’s not a star in heaven
That we can’t reach
If we’re trying
Yeah, we’re breaking free
Oh, we’re breakin’ free
Breaking Free by Zac Efron and Venessa Anne Hudgens

New Year...new hopes, new fears, new wishes, new dreams and new beginnings. Let's hope that this New Year will not only be better than the last but also hold new learning experiences for us all.

Spent New Year's Eve on duty in camp. I am not realy one who actually bothers with the countdown etc and the fact that I was on prowling duty on 3 and 5am led me and Ying Xiang to go to sleep early...only to be woken up at 12 midnight by BK, Ho et al. Not that it was unexpected but being woken up again 15 minutes later by Ho irritated me a little.

Went to watch Death Note 2: The Last Name with BK and Desmond. According to Desmond, he's really leading a tough life in APC with the seniors playing the 'old bird, new bird' game very seriously. A contrast to the life me and BK are leading back in Seletar camp... ^_^ Anyways, the movie was pretty good and did a good job closing up all the loose ends in the movie storyline. What bugged me however, was the technical difficulties they had when the movie started playing. No movie trailers were shown (boo!) which at first lead me to believe we were in the wrong theatre. Then when the movie finally started, it skipped passed the first few minutes and had no sound at all. When they stopped and restarted the movie again, we watched a minute or so worth of the movie in 'half-screen' (as in they only showed the bottom half of the scene...boo!!). Although GV compensated by giving all the patrons in that theatre a complimentary movie pass, it cost me to miss the last bus home and I had to take a taxi back, which negated the price of the complimentary movie pass. (Bleah!)

2007, a time for new starts and new beginnings...hopefully...

2006-12-23T12:42:00.000+08:00

A Time for Giving and hoping to Recieve...

Song of the moment: Rascal Flatts - My Wish

Looks like I've been neglecting my blog for nearly a month now...no new posts or tag board updates. That's what happens when you become lazy and keep getting distracted by games like Okami, Football Manager 2007 and FF XII. Anyway, here's my update, so here goes...

I've been in 1AMB/13FMD/2FMP @ Seletar Camp for over a month now and I guess I am more or less settled into the somewhat 'slacker' lifestyle over here. Other than the times on escort/sentry/prowling duties, I am usually sleeping, watching the TV or watching various VCDs and DVDs in the mess or guard room. Made friends with quite a few of the seniors (ONLY in rank btw...) too, like Jonathan, Poh and Jeremiah. It's really quite the good life over there...

Was on duty last night. Was watching Stormriders and GSD with Poh to pass the time in between prowls. Also learnt how to play poker yesterday, quite fun too. ^_^

Thinking back to about a year ago, I realise how much things have changed since then. Not just the physical aspects but also the emotional aspects too. The way you evaluate things, how you respond to people and other stuff like that. Do I still feel the same way about her now compared to last Christmas? It's a definite no. I guess after entering the SAF, the way I approach subjects like Love and Romance has changed (and hopefully matured). It's as if the initial excitement and passion has mellowed into something like...a strong sense of appreciation and admiration combined with a feeling of really enjoying her presence around me. Sometimes, I really wonder whether do I still like her (romantically). Maybe when the time comes, I'll know what to do and how I really feel about her.

2006-11-27T19:57:00.000+08:00

The Great Unknown

Song of the moment: Matt Redman - Dancing Generation

You mercy taught us how to dance
To celebrate with all we have
And we'll dance to thank You for mercy

Your glory taught us how to shout
To lift Your name in all the earth
And we'll shout to the praise of Your glory
Dancing Generation by Matt Redman

Slightly over a week into my new posting at 1AMB, Seletar Camp and we're all starting to get used to the simple/slacker lifestyle there. I try my best to make it as meaningful as possible by catching up on the things which I didn't have time to do before, like reading, watching old VCDs and maybe even a little fanfic writing if I ever feel up to it. The lack of PT there is really starting to get to me. Just a matter of time before I go back to being a zero-fighter. I guess I'll have to do some OTOT training.

Donated some of my life force (a.k.a Blood) after the CO parade at Ayer Rajah Camp last Friday. Wasn't a particularly pleasant experience for me. Felt a little bit on the weak and faint side after that. I doubt I'll be donating blood again. However, another half day off could be an influential factor when I make the decision in future...

Found out on Sunday that I'll be involved (together with Agnes, Jamie, Matthew and Sandar) in teaching the EBS/BCL classes for the Sec 1 and 2s next year. Admittedly, I am not a natural teacher of any sort neither am I the type who can control and discipline a class of any age but I'll take this as a learning experience, especially since I would want to continue serving in the Youth Ministry here in SKMC.

The same old feelings of doubt and apprehension are creeping up on me again. Am I overly concerned? Honestly, no. In a way, I guess I am a little worried about where all this will eventually lead to, being at my current age and all (Do I sound old?). Haha, maybe my biological clock has begun ticking...LOL! They say that I'll know when the time comes and I still do trust in that statement. It feels a lot easier now than before to put all this in God's hands and trust his timing. Till now, I still believe that she's the one. Any basis for this belief? None really, just a feeling I have in my heart about this. Still, God's divine plan for our lives will always be beyond our understanding. Maybe things will change, maybe not. Once again, only time will tell...

2006-11-18T15:41:00.000+08:00

Is this where I want to be?

Song of the moment: Dishwalla - Angels or Devils

The angels they burn inside for us
Are we ever
Are we ever gonna learn to fly
The devils they burn inside of us
Are we ever gonna come back down
Come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold
Angels or Devils by Dishwalla

I've finally graduated from School of Provost and am officially a military policeman of the Singapore Armed Forces. It's been a not-so-long and somewhat arduous path and I've finally reached the end of this journey and the start of another.
...Okay, maybe I sound too melodramatic. It doesn't feel as emotional when compared with POP-ing from BMT, in fact I don't really feel emotional at all. It feels more like a natural progression than anything else. A sort of maturity, perhaps? LOL...

I've been posted to AMB at Seletar Camp, where I am supposed to guard sensitive equipment and prevent if from falling into the wrong hands. Haha, sounds really cool, huh? Amazing, how I can make a boring and sedentary job in some ulu place sound so exciting. Apparently, it's located DEEP inside Seletar Camp (approx. 20 mins+ from the Seletar guard room) and its rather run down (I get the feeling that the lockers we're using comes from my father's generation of army equipment). Also, only one bus(103) actually stops outside Seletar Camp, the rest of the buses stop at Picadilly Circus and you'll have to walk like 2KM inside to reach the Seletar Camp's entrance. Well, at least Seletar Camp is reasonably near my house (10 mins car ride away). I guess this is the price that one has to pay for a so-called slacker posting...

BTW, forgot to mention this in my previous post. I have purchased a new handphone to replace my 6230, a Nokia 3250. Another purchase I have made is FM 2007 for the PC and Okami for the PS2. Planning to get FF XII soon. ^_^

1 month or so away from Christmas. And I actually feel quite relaxed about it. No nervousness or apprehension of any sort unlike the past two years. Maybe because it's still early, I haven't even thought about how I'll spend my Christmas holidays, what presents to buy, etc. I'll take things as they come, still got like a few more days to go before it ends anyway. So just endure the last few days of "torture", then maybe...we'll see how it goes.

2006-11-11T16:38:00.000+08:00

Without Fear or Favour

Song of the moment: Hillsong United Live - All I Need Is You

Left my fear by the side of the road
Hear You speak
Won't let go
Fall to my knees as I lift my hands to pray

Got every reason to be here again
Father's love that draws me in
And all my eyes wanna see is a glimpse of You
All I Need Is You by Hillsong United

Guess it's been quite sometime since I blogged. I've been busy with many things like movies, shopping, friends, PC and the like. Lots of stuff have happened since my last post like my P226 range, EX Moonlight Marshall and Military Law test among others so I'll probably just go through those which I felt was interesting or important.

The P226 range was somewhat of a joke really. The first range was cut halfway through due to an out of control fire at one of the many rifle ranges and I nearly screwed up my second one due to my crappy shooting. Got 16 out of 50 for the trial followed by 21 out of 50 for the actual test thus I had to go for a re-shoot. Nearly failed again (26 out of 50) had it not been for my above average shooting for my standing and sitting positions.

EX Moonlight Marshall was quite fun. It was kind of a mixed feeling of excitement and nervousness going back to Palau Tekong. The 2 day 3 night exercise basically involved Traffic control, security and PW operations with lots of concertina wire and sandbags. Even though I had very minimal sleep for the first 40 or so hours, it was a very enjoyable experience. I was a bit disappointed though, that I didn't get a chance to visit my old PS and Sect Comm in my old BMT company. Nontheless, I am glad that I enjoyed and learnt a lot from the experience.

I'll be graduating from SOP this coming Thursday. While I do feel happier than usual, it doesn't really reach the height of the feeling of passing out from Tekong. Guess I am already used to it. Got my somewhat ugly/smart/cool MP No.3 uniform which I'll be wearing during my GP. I'll probably be wearing it for the rest of my NS life since my posting will most likely be Gombak or Portsdown. Looks like I'll have to get used to wearing a No.3 instead of a No.4.

I'll really miss you guys come 16th November. Glad most of us survived MP Basic 03/2006 together. Good luck to you guys, wherever you're posted to!

Ming Feng said something to me after reading my blog, which is more of a reminder of what YX said to me when we met a couple of months ago. "Don't let _____ be the center of my life." Have I really lost focus on what's really important? I really hope not...

2006-10-08T16:46:00.000+08:00

Patience to wait, faith to persevere...

Song of the moment: Hillsong United - King Of Majesty

You know that,
I love You,
You know that,
I want to know You so much more,
More than I have before

These words are,
From my heart,
These words are,
Not made up,
I will live for You,
I am devoted to You
King Of Majesty by Hillsong United

Haven't really been blogging lately. Probably due more to various distractions (eg: PC/PS2) rather than time constraints. The monotony is starting to settle back into my army life after the initial 'honeymoon' period of settling into Mowbray Camp. I guess perhaps I might be going back to my old habit of procrastinating/confusing my priorities (on the other hand, it's not like I have to many things to prioritise...). Met quite a few nice people(same interests as me too...) in camp, like BK, Desmond and Ivan. Seems like I am settling down nicely, we'll see how it goes in the next few weeks, with Section Training outfield, P226, Military Law and Moonlight Marshall field camp.

I am also currently hunting around for a new handphone. If anyone has any recommendations, feel free to tag and/or SMS me. Budget is around $300-$350 inclusive of 2 year contract with M1. Must have a music and movie player in the phone.

I admit that I sometimes still struggle not knowing God's plan for me...and you. I still question myself whether I should continue waiting or not. I still pray that God will help me accept the plan he has for my life, whether you will be in it or not. Perhaps, after November...

2006-09-24T17:32:00.000+08:00

Be careful what you wish for...

Song of the moment: Lifehouse - Take Me Away

I try to make my way to you
But still I feel so lost
I don't know what else I can do

Cause I've seen it all
It was never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you
Take Me Away by Lifehouse

This is one of the few times when the mantra, "Be Careful What You Wish For", comes into play in my life. I have to admit, I have led a somewhat blessed life. Everything that I've needed and to a certain extent, what I've wanted, God has provided. Most of the events in my life has gone smoothly, without much of a hitch. Though sometimes I take things for granted, I try to remember to thank God for what he has done in my life. Actually getting into School of Provost (Soon to be renamed Military Police Training School by the way...) was somewhat of a surprise for me. Although I admit I really wanted to go in, I wasn't really optimistic about my chances. Now that I've actually made it in, I've got to hold onto this chance. Endure another 7 weeks and 5 days of MP training and I'll get my 9 to 5 posting (Hopefully anyway...).
PT is a lot tougher than BMTC but still manageable (However, I am the ONLY ZERO FIGHTER in the entire batch). Lectures, lessons and homework seem unending but I think I am still able to handle it so far at least. I'll have to increase my discipline level by a few notches as the standard here is probably one of the highest among the SAF. I pray that God will be able to help me through this MP Basic course and post me to a suitable company after that.
The people here are quite friendly though. I know at least one person who lives somewhat near my area and my buddy seems like quite a nice guy. Hope to make more friends here too.

I guess I forgot to wish you a Happy Birthday on the actual day itself...but I hope the message got through by the present. You know, sometimes I feel that it's quite hard to have a decent conversation with you. As if there's a barrier I can't get past, that we'll never be more than friends. I pray that God will help me accept the plan he has for my life, whether you will be more than 'just a friend'...

2006-09-14T22:07:00.000+08:00

Where, oh where will the Yellow Brick Road lead me?

Song of the moment: 阿杜 (Ah Du) - 坚持到底 (Jian Chi Dao Di)

Post POP, day 8. Have been spending most of my time with the PC and PS2. Of course, that's not to say that I've gone back to being a computer freak. I have been going out, watching Movies and shopping for a certain someone's birthday gift, etc. Even as an NS man, I try my very best to maintain a reasonable social life.

After SKMC's anniversary celebrations, I went to watch Monster House with Moses, Jamie, Jessica, Jerline, Zhiliang, Angela, Andy (not my brother), Jowell and Josh at Plaza Singapura. Thanks to my newly acquired SAFRA card and Moses' HSBC credit card, we all paid $7 each for a weekend movie ticket. Movie was pretty good, quite a few twists and I can appreciate the fact that the director was doing his best not to make it to cliche. Thus I give a 4/5 stars.
Went to Sunshine Plaza to eat the Wanton Mee for dinner and Rochor original beancurd for some Tau Huay dessert. All in all, Sunday was quite a good day, mentally and gastranomicaly anyway.

I am glad I accepted Angela's offer to go shopping with me for the certain someone's birthday gift on Monday. It was the first time ever where I actually was certain of what I wanted to buy for a girl I like. Well, actually second, but since that girl told me what she wanted before hand, I won't count it in. It's so much easier when a female friend (who actually knows the certain someone better than you do, or at least longer) gives you advice and suggestions on what to buy for the girl. So, thanks for all your help Angela, I really appreciate it. Remember that I owe you a treat, in case I forgot. ^_^
The gift, in short, is simple but useful, ordinary but with an added touch of uniqueness and individuality.

Went out with Melvin yesterday for lunch at J8 and watched The Devil Wears Prada with him. Glad to see he's doing well. Not that he shouldn't be, especially since he's in PES C. He'll either get the really enjoyable/slacker postings (ie. Admin, Clerk) or the really boring/crappy stuff (ie. Driver/Storeman). Still don't really know whether I should feel envious of him or not. Well, there's good and bad points in everything, so you just have to take what you can.
The Devil Wears Prada is actually a not-so-typical morallistic kind of movie. A somewhat interesting take on office politics and on how a person eventually becomes the very thing he/she detests for the sake of climbing the corporate ladder. I kind of like the way it brings across the message, so I'll give it a 3.5/5 stars.

Somehow, I really wish I could spend more time with you. But circumstance and responsibilities somehow just seem to get in the way. Even though I don't know the ending of this chapter, I'll wait and I'll endure. That's because I know, whatever the ending might be, good or bad, it's definitely worth the effort.
BTW, let me wish you an early Happy Birthday! Hope that you like the gift I bought you.

ePosting tomorrow! Give me Provost or slacker!! LOL!

2006-09-08T14:42:00.000+08:00

POP-ed!

Song of the moment: HIGH and MIGHTY COLOR - Ichirin No Hana (Bleach 3rd OP theme)

Post POP, 2nd day. It feels somewhat unusual that I get to spend an extended time at home, free from Book Ins and stuff like that. I plan to get a few things done in this free time which I have, like cleaning up my room and other miscellaneous stuff. Also plan to catch up on the games I have been neglecting, like FF VII and Grandia 2 for PC and Midnight Club 3 for the PS2. Battle For Middle Earth 2 is also waiting to be installed. Deadline: 18th September 2006.
So many things to do, so little time... ^_^

The Passing Out Parade was pretty good, though somewhat tiring. Most of us just wanted to get it over with so that we could go home. The feeling when throwing your jockey cap into the air was totally amazing. It was as if a really heavy load has been lifted off your shoulders. However, we know that the journey's not over yet. We all still have a year and eight more months to go in the army. Hopefully God will guide us through it, just as he has guided us through BMT.

Planning to watch a couple of movies during this break. The Host will definitely be one of them, followed by Monster House and maybe Singapore Dreaming. No problem watching on weekends, thanks to my SAFRA card. Anyone who wants to join, feel free to leave a tag on the tagboard or SMS me.

POP orh!!!! Now PTE WH CHIA!

2006-09-02T23:33:00.000+08:00

Soon to be a TRAINED soldier

Song of the moment: NIRGILIS - Sakura (Eureka 7 4th OP theme)

POP-ing in 4 days and morale is especially high. Especially since we've just completed the 'dreaded' 24KM route march. Actually, it was more of a fast march than a route march considering the speed at which we were going. The worst part was probably the march to Feba Village and back to old SISPEC, where it seemed never ending. Now that it's over, all thats left are the long and tiring POP rehearsals and the actual POP on Wednesday. Seemed like it was just awhile ago that I first came to BMTC. I'll definitely miss the times I've spent with people like Wee 'Teddy Bear' Boon, Xian-ge, Eddie, Jonathan and everyone else from Cougar 3 Section 4.

Went out with the Poly gang to Esplanade for KT's and Winnie's Birthday celebration. Japanese food there was a bit on the expensive side but it was quite fresh and filling. The cake they bought was really good too. Though we had to wait for awhile before the actual cake cutting got under way. Still, it's pretty cool to see most of the old gang together. Shared a cab ride with Jia Yi for the trip back and I probably owe him a bit of cash. Hope to have a chance to return it to him... ^_^

Honestly, if I can't go to Command School, I am hoping they post me to Provost School for MP training. Though I got my MP interview, I am not really getting my hopes up since I'll be up against an entire batch of MP interviewees (those not selected for Command School anyway) for a place in SAFPU. Still, I just hope for the best and pray that I get a good posting.

GOING TO POP!!!!

2006-08-26T23:48:00.000+08:00

Lessons learnt...(11 days to go!!)

Song of the moment: COOLON - Canvas (Eureka 7 4th ED theme)

furikaeru to itsumo kawaranai basho ga aru kara
donna gyakkyou mo fuan mo koete yukeru
hateshinai michi naru michi e to fumidaseru

(Always when I look back, there’s a never-changing place
So I can overcome whatever adversity and unease
And I’ll be able to step out into the never-ending unknown road)
Canvas by COOLON

Only 11 days remaining to POP and still lessons are being learnt all the time. Two main events for the past week has been my 20th Birthday and the 16KM route march. Thanks to all who remembered my birthday and sent me SMSes! I really appreciate the fact that you all remembered despite not seeing me most of the time now that I am in NS. Many thanks also to MI0312 for getting me a mystery birthday gift. Still not sure what it is but I really look forward to finding out.

The 16KM route march has been a lesson in itself. The two main things I've learnt are NEVER EVER go on a route march when you have a bad case of diarrhea AND to drink PLENTY of WATER/ISOTONIC DRINKS whenever possible during a route march. This will be the first AND last time I ever go on a route march while I am sick. However, though I suffered a lot, it was also the first time I've ever experienced comeraderie so closely in my life. Without people like Jonathan, Kevin, Kenneth, Daniel and Zul, pushing me and encouraging me all the way throughout that 16KM, I think I would have fallen out halfway through. To all those who helped me during that 16KM, thanks! I owe all you guys one!

I've always wondered why people say that BMT will be the most fun and memorable period of your NS life. I've since realised that though you suffer a little during the experience, it's the memories it creates that makes it all worth while.

Will you be my constant, my never-changing place?

2006-08-06T00:01:00.000+08:00

Not long to go...

Song of the moment: Mr. Big - Shine

I say a lot of things sometimes that don't come out right
And I act like I don't know why
I guess a reaction is all I was looking for

You looked through me
You really knew me like no one has EVER looked before

Maybe on your own you take a cautious step
Do you wanna give it up?

But all I want is for you to SHINE
Shine down on me
Shine on this life that's burning out
Shine by Mr. Big

Another long, draggy book out day over...and army life starts over again tomorrow. But...not long to go now, just four and a half weeks and I'll be out of there, never to return as a recruit.

With field camp and live range over and gone, all that's left is SOC, GAC, BAC, IPPT and it'll be POP (No doubt, only the militarily-inclined and those already serving the country know what I am talking about). I am not really going to elaborate much on my field camp experience here but no doubt, it has been a beneficial experience. Special thanks to Chong for helping me survive those 7 days. For Live Range, I really screwed up my night test but at least I passed. Congrats to Jian Wen for getting Company Best Shot (most probably anyway, since the results aren't out yet).
Went to watch Tokyo Drift with the old gang from Poly today. Totally plotless movie with eye candy as it's only redeeming factor. The perfect movie for the typical testoterone driven male.
Also got to see the fireworks outside Esplanade with the gang. Personally, I am not the kind of person who watches fireworks with awe. The fireworks were rather nice to watch, but with hundreds of people around you 'wow'-ing and 'wee'-ing around you, it kind of takes the atmosphere away...maybe I should have got someone to watch it with me?

I guess a reaction is all I was looking for...will you give me one?

2006-07-09T21:07:00.000+08:00

Bowled over by you

Song of the moment: 王力宏 (Wang Lee Hom) - 大城小爱 (Da Cheng Xiao Ai)

This will most likely be a short entry as I prepare for an early lights out because of World Cup final at 2AM which BMTC has kindly allowed us to watch... ^_^

This week's training has been somewhat slack thanks to yesterday morning's IPPT and CAT 1 warnings. Just the usual AGRs, speed trainings and BCCTs. Only had 1 route march this week because of Thursday morning's CAT 1. My platoon's blur guy, Terrence has started some Sun God worshipping theory about our CBT 1, which has really raised the weirdness level another notch. Let's pray he doesn't continue on about it when I book in tomorrow.

Had fun today because of Youth Sunday's activities. D'Anchor performed for both the 9 am and 11 am services in Church today. Guess it went quite well but will probably have to see the pictures to make sure. Went for the annual Youth bowling competition at Kim Seng after lunch. I bowled a 41...gee that's pathethic. Sigh... Anyways I aim to improve, lol...

Glad to see you...again. In a way, I'll have to thank you for helping me hold on for another week. I wish I could spend more time around you. But I guess seeing you smiling is enough for me...

PS: Cheering on France tonight!! Go go Zizou!

2006-07-02T16:37:00.000+08:00

Words I can't say out loud...

You know, it feels great finally seeing your after 3 weeks. It's a great relief to know that you are doing well. I really missed you...and the rest of the guys too, of course. Sometimes, I struggle a lot with the present circumstances...sometimes, I feel I don't deserve to be in this kind of situation. However, I know God is telling me to wait and wait I shall. I don't know what will happen to us or if there ever will be an 'us' in the first place. I still pray and hope that maybe we can be together one day...
Thanks a lot for your words of encouragement. You've been a great source of support and encouragement for me... Maybe one day I can be a source of encouragement for you too...

2006-06-24T17:30:00.000+08:00

Island of dreams and nightmares

Song of the moment: Hillsongs - Free

Would you believe me if I said
That God can make miracles happen today
Would you believe me if I said
That you don't need to wait for the answers before
You step out in faith
Would you believe me if I said
That nothing is ever IMPOSSIBLE for God

And if I had wings I would fly
Cause all that I need, You are
And if the world caved in around me
To You I'd still hold on
Cause You're all that I believe
And the one that created me
JESUS.. because of You.. I'm FREE
Free by Hillsongs

After two weeks of sweat, tears, blood and pain, I am finally back home for a VERY brief respite from the struggles of military life on a small island named Tekong...

Hmm...

Maybe it is a bit of an exaggeration but it was a struggle nonetheless. It wasn't as smooth a transition as I thought it would be. Still, I coped with it, survived and came back out relatively unscathed save for a few aching muscles, bruises and mosquito bites.

I don't think I'll go into too much detail about my last two weeks but I hope my account will satisfy those who want to find out what army life is like on Tekong and also those who might wish to reminicise about their days in BMT.

The first week kind of passed by in a blur for me though I still kind of remember the first day. My family and I sat the Penguin "fast" craft ("fast" = it's only fast when travelling to Tekong and excruciatingly slow when going to the mainland). Upon reaching Tekong, we were immediatly seperated from our kin and gathered together like sheep going into the slaughter. We were forced to surrender our "Get Out Of Jail Free" card (a.k.a Pink IC) and given our "Stay in Jail For At Least Two Years" card (a.k.a 11B). Then, us sheep were forced to watch a video expouting the virtues of National Service and it's aim of "turning boys to men". Then we went for our oath taking ceremony, which was for all intents and purposes, the proverbial final nail in the coffin. I then joined my parents for a late lunch before sending them off at the ferry terminal and joining the rest of the "sheep". It was during that time, sitting down with the rest of the guys, waiting to know which platoon I will be in, that I really felt lost. I was silently praying to be in a good platoon with good people. I really thank God for putting me in Platoon 3, where the Sargeants and fellow platoon mates are friendly and fun-loving.

The days that followed were filled with physical training that pushed you to the limit and a demand for discipline which put fear in us. I am not the kind of person which excels under too much pressure but I appreciate that they really push us. Because even though real life isn't that physically demanding, the pressure is the same, if not more in the real world.

Still nothing beats the feeling of booking out. The fresh, Carbon Monoxide-laced air of mainland Singapore, the sound of cars filling your ears, the comfort of the Compaq Presario PC in my room and my mom's baked macaroni. So, I am sitting in front of my PC, enjoying my room's fan and the feeling of pressing plastic beneath my fingers. Apologies to the rest of the SF-FFW organising committee for not turning up for SF-FFW. I promise to turn up for the next FFW if possible. Thanks to everyone who prayed for me during my 1st 2 weeks and I hope that you'll continue to pray for me throughout my service in the SAF.

See you guys in church tomorrow!

Can't wait to see you again. I did kind of miss your presence. Especially on the 2nd Sunday when it felt kind of weird that I was having free time in my bunk and not going to church. Obviously, I still hope for the best...but I guess just seeing and maybe talking to you will be enough.

2006-06-09T21:39:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, 'goodbye' and 'thank you' just ain't enough...

Song of the moment: Robbie Williams - Better Man

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man
Better man by Robbie Williams

In less than 16 hours time, civilian Anthony Chia Wenhao will cease to exist for 2 years. In that time, Recruit Chia Wenhao will exist in his place. Well, of course I don't intend to stay as a recruit, I still got my SPF or OCS dreams to pursue. It's kind of hard to believe how fast time passes. It seemed to be just a few days ago that I just graduated from Polytechnic. Now, my bag is about packed, and tomorrow, I'll be on a fast craft to Tekong. Am I worried? Yes, a little. After all, no matter how much you prepare for something, you can never be totally prepared for it. Will I miss the mainland? Who wouldn't? Nice food, bed, pink IC, the works...
All I can do is put my trust, everything into God's hands.

Skipped FFW last Saturday to meet YX and JY at Hougang. As it turns out, only YX made it because JY had a prior appointment. So, we both went to Hougang Mall's foodcourt to have dinner. Then after some deliberation, we decided to go to Compass Point's Starbucks to have a drink. We talked more or less about the usual stuff, NS life, old friends, the works. He also gave me some stuff for use in Tekong. I really appreciate all the stuff you have done for me. So thanks a lot, friend!

On Sunday, everything went as expected. I was called up to the center of the room and the guys prayed for me and my family. Although it felt kind of embarrassing, I was kind of touched too. So thanks to all the D'Anchor youths for keeping me in your prayers.

Watched Cars with Jia Wei and Jowell, the only two people who were willing to be with me during my last few days as a civilian (Hah...and you call yourselves my friends...lol just kidding!). Thanks to you two for making sure I don't spend my last civilian movie outing as a loner.
Anyways, movie was quite good. I really liked the appetizer, "One Man Band" (or was it "Orchestra"?), a Pixar short film about a kid and two buskers. The storyline for "Cars" though, was a bit cliched (your typical growing up kind of story) but if you watch enough Pixar films, you realise its not really about the plot, its the way they execute it that makes it enjoyable. (Rating 4.5/5 stars)

Had dinner today with my family + the 2 Lek brothers at Cafe Cartel. My Grilled Chicken was quite good, but the sauce was a bit too...BBQ-ish? It'll probably be my last decent dinner with decent ambience...well, for the next two weeks anyway. I did enjoy myself, so no regrets.

This entry is starting to become some sort of extended thank you speech...haha. Anyways, thanks to everyone once again. For all your words of encouragement, bible verses, pieces of advice(Febreze and zip lock bags), Army surplus(more zip lock bags, rifle cleaning kit etc...) and just spending time with me. I really appreciate what all you guys have done for me. God Bless!

~

Stuff I ~~plan to do~~ haven't done before June 10th:

1) ~~Complete at least one of my MG Gundam Models~~ - DONE!

2) Watch the VCDs and DVDs which I bought but haven't had time to watch till now - Still haven't Three Extremes and Be With Me...I am getting lazy...

3) Download and watch Kakashi Gaiden arc from Naruto TV series - Sigh...

4) Win a Premiership title in FM 2005 within 2 seasons without using any of the top 6 teams in the division - Sigh...

5) ~~Lastly and most importantly, confess my undying love and affection to _______ and for her to do the same to me and live happily ever after TOGETHER as a loving couple~~ For ______ and I to actually have a decent conversation without getting distracted or interrupted - Sigh...sobs...sobs...

~

To the one I'll miss most of all: Will you wait for me? Be it yes or no, no matter what happens, I'll always wish the best for you. I still don't know if we'll eventually work out, but I trust God to make the right decision for us all. You'll always stay in my prayers...
PS: Time for you guys(yes, you know who you are...) to keep to your promise!

See you in 2 weeks!!

2006-05-31T22:02:00.000+08:00

Running out of what I took for granted

Song of the moment: Sambomaster - Sekai wa Sore wo Ai to Yobundaze (Densha Otoko TV ED theme)

Bokura wa izure dareka wo utagacchimau kara
Semete ima dake utsukushii uta wo utau no sa
Kanashii kotoba dewa OH YEAH
Namimo kawaranainda ze
Yatsura ga nani wo shita tte iunda

Kinou no anata ga uragiri no hito nara
Kinou no keshiki wo wasurechimau dake da

Atashii hibi wo kaeru no wa ijirashii hodo no ai nano sa
Bokura sore wo tashikameau sekai ja sore mo ai to yobunda ze

(A time will come where we have a doubt about someone
But for now I'm going to sing a beautiful song
With sad words, oh yeah
Nothing will change
Are you saying they've done something?

If the you of yesterday was a traitor
Then I'll just forget yesterday's scene

We're changing the new days because this is such an innocent love
And we want to confirm that. The world calls that love)
Sekai wa Sore wo Ai to Yobundaze by Sambomaster

Yes, the clock is ticking. Time is running out for me. In 10 days time, I won't be on the mainland anymore. While most of my church mates will be at the CAC BYM camp at St. Francis Methodist, I will be enjoying the sun, sand and sea at a totally different kind of camp. Where you actually get paid to come to this camp. Not only that, you'll be given free clothes (albeit uniform ones...), free food and free lodging. While it does sound as if I am trying to comfort myself, I am not...(well, at least I am trying to convince myself its not). I've already bought most of the stuff I need for army, save for a few miscellaneous items. Honestly, I don't feel nervous about it or anything (well, not yet), I am just realising how much I'll miss living on the mainland, in a proper home. Well, I'll still be back on weekends but it's just the abrupt change in lifestyle that unsettles me.

Got a rather annoying notice from CMPB, asking me to go back there to take a picture, which I already did during my medical check-up there. After a rather boring and seemingly never-ending (but thankfully direct) bus ride, I went in and was out in less than 5 minutes with my photo successfully taken. A rather big waste of time if you ask me. Hopefully no more last minute annoying notices from anybody.

I met up with YX yesterday for a drink at Starbucks. We had a good talk for about and hour or two about life, NS and stuff like that. I am glad he's still doing alright in the SPF. In a way, YX is still the same Barker YX but more mature, worldly-wise maybe? I am reminded that no matter how grueling NS life is, it'll never change who we are, maybe it'll smooth out certain rough edges or chip out certain parts but the core will always be there.

Went to watch 'Over The Hedge' with MK, MK's bro, Jia Wei and Lester a few hours earlier at J8. MK's brother is apparently the same age as mine, with similar 'characteristics'. Maybe they can be good friends, who knows? Anyways back to the movie, while it wasn't particularly impactful, it was funny. Especially liked the skunk-persian cat romance scene and Hammy the squirrel's caffine high bullet time scene. While the storyline seems somewhat cliche, its still good for a laugh or two...or three...or four... (Rating: 3.5/5 stars).
Hopefully I'll manage to watch X Men 3 and Cars before I leave for holiday resort island...

After inadvertendly spending more time in your presence has made me realise how much I'll miss Singapore mainland. If I could turn back time, I'll definitely have made more effort getting to know you better than I do now. Maybe because, I don't want to be just an acquaintance, not just a friend but...

2006-05-15T22:58:00.000+08:00

Feeling Random

Song of the moment: YUI - Life (Bleach 5th ED theme)

kodomo no koro ni modoru yori mo
ima wo umaku ikite mitai yo
kowagari wa umaretsuki

hi no ataru basho ni dete ryoute wo hirogete mita nara
ano sora koete yukeru kana?
nante omotta n' da
tobidatsu tame no tsubasa sore wa mada mienai
kantan ni ikanai kara ikite yukeru

(I want to try living in the present
rather than returning to my childhood
It's my nature to be a coward

If I go to a sunny spot and stretch my arms out,
I wonder if I can go beyond the sky
that's what I thought
The wings I use to fly away are still invisible
It's because it's not simple that I can go on living)
Life by YUI

Can't really express what I am feeling now...okay, maybe I can express it in words. It's kind of like a mixture of emotions. A mix of fear, apprehension, excitement and joy...

I went out with Melvin and KK last Friday. I was really hoping to watch a movie but due to it being a public holiday, the chances of getting a decent seat will be close to nil and not to mention how it'll damage our wallets temporarily. We ended up going for lunch at Lido then proceeded to Pool Junction for some 8 ball. All the while, throughout our outing, we were actually talking about Tekong et al. While I did gain some really useful information about army life, a kind of apprehensiveness kind of landed on me and I really started to actually dread the occasion. In fact it lasted all the way till Sunday and in a way manifested itself when Zhao Yong passed me his old army supplies for me to use. It really hit me right there and then. That I am less than a month away from entering a certain offshore island, where I'll spend four months preparing to serve my country before getting my vocation. Then I'll spend my remaining one and a half years serving my country in some way or another.

Then this afternoon, after looking at the ARMY singlet that Zhao Yong gave me, my emotions took a 180 degree turn. I was actually looking forward to wearing it when the time comes, looking forward to finally start reading "The Rule Of Four" in camp, looking forward to army life in general. Which, now that I think about it, is kind of weird. And now...well, as I said, it's kind of a mixed feeling. I really have no idea how I'll feel come June 9th and 10th.
Anyways, I'll be meeting Jia Zhi on Wednesday to go buy my 'army essentials' at North Bridge Road. Well, not that it has much connection to the current train of thought...

Someone mentioned that I don't really take the initiative. Of course, considering where that comment came from, I of course took it very seriously. While I definitely shouldn't read too much into the statment, it still got me thinking. Should I take the initiative? While the heart is willing, everything else says no. I know all that's at stake and I don't think I'll ever forget(in the near future at any rate) what happened in December 2004. While I've obviously moved on(just to clear some doubters, if any), I've kept the lessons I learned then close to my heart. I've learned to be more sensitive of others and most importantly, to watch what I say (or SMS). As I've said many times before, I am not going to repeat this mistake again.

Period.

2006-05-03T10:28:00.000+08:00

And the days go by...

Song of the moment: Home Made Kazoku - Thank You (Bleach 2nd ED Theme)

Itsumo sasaete kureru hito-tachi ni
Higoro no omoi wo kometa RHAPSODY
APPRECIATION no kimochi yo todoke
Itsumo arigatou hontou arigatou
Tatoe doko ni itatte kimi no sonzai ni kansha shiteru yo

(To the people who have always supported me
I've put you in my rhapsody of everyday thoughts
I hope my feelings of appreciations will reach you
Thank you as always. Really, thank you
No matter where you are I'll always be thankful you exist)
Thank You by Home Made Kazoku

Looks like I am making it a habit of updating every other week. Sometimes, it seems that because of the holidays, things just seem so monotonous that there seems to be nothing worth writing about. Anyways, I am updating now, right? So there still are things worth mentioning in this blog after all...

It seems that nearly all of our local media are now indulging themselves in every morsel of news and gossip coming from the General Election, the political parties and the candidates. In a way, it does make for an amusing read (to see political opponents in a slagging match about their opposition's tactics and policies is somewhat amusing). However, you do wonder will they ever be a time when political parties and their respective candidates campaign fairly and honestly, solely based on their policies and beliefs, without criticizing the opposition? To me, it seems that both sides (in Singapore politics, there are really only 2 sides, namely the OPPOSITION and the _ _ _ [I shan't mention the name save I get arrested for sedition, etc...]) seem to revel in the idea of insulting and putting down their political opponents and (as quoted by the press) 'Making a mountain out of a mole hill'. If you really claim to give people 'a choice', a chance of 'moving ahead', to be 'ready in action', or an opportunity ro 'speak out', focus on what YOU can bring to our country instead of what THEY can't do.
Haha, what do I care anyway? I still can't legally vote and even if I could, there's no opposition challenging in my GRC...

Watched a couple of movies the past few days. Sympathy for Lady Vengeance (on VCD) and The Sentinel (@ GV Bishan). Sympathy was rather good. Director Park Chan Wook at his best (well, can't really say that considering the only other movie of his which I watched was Joint Security Area). Excellent use of symbolism and the dark humor was good. Overall a 5/5 stars.
Sentinel which I watched with Melvin was alright. Considering it was a suspense thriller kind of movie, I expected a little more drama and action in the movie. No other complaints though, plot was well executed and Kiefer Sutherland's acting was good (but not as good as in 24). Overall a 4/5 stars.

~~~

Stuff I plan to do before June 10th:

1) Complete at least one of my MG Gundam Models - I've started building my MG Strike Rouge model. I'll probably be able to finish it before June 10th anyway so no worries here.

2) Watch the VCDs and DVDs which I bought but haven't had time to watch till now - About done, save for Three Extremes and Be With Me.

3) Download and watch Kakashi Gaiden arc from Naruto TV series - This one is out of my control. Not really sure how long more the fillers will go on, but I am hopeful...

4) Win a Premiership title in FM 2005 within 2 seasons without using any of the top 6 teams in the division - Well, that's unlikely considering my current team is Southampton. However, I do have one of the best offences in the premiership but one of the worst defenses...

5) Lastly and most importantly, ~~confess my undying love and affection to _______ and for her to do the same to me and live happily ever after TOGETHER as a loving couple~~ For ______ and I to actually have a decent conversation without getting distracted or interrupted - Hmm, needed a little bit of correction and use of the strike HTML tag but still, the toughest of the lot. Sigh...I will continue to wait for not the OPPORTUNE moment but the RIGHT one.

2006-04-19T20:13:00.000+08:00

Let me treasure my remaining time here with you...

Song of the moment: Gackt - Mind Forest (Gundam Z: A New Translation - Lovers ED theme)

koboreru hikari no naka, tawamureru kimi o mita
yureru kibi no koe kara hohoemi ga ukabu
kowarete kieta yume o itsumademo ooikaketa
shinayaka na yubisaki wa setsunasa o hakobu

kaeranu toki no towa no hakanasa ni
te no todokanai basho ni tsuresarareteiku
azayaka ni saita donna hana yori mo
kimi to no omoide ga utsukushikute

(Inside of the overflowing light, I saw your flirting self
From the voice of the wavering trees, a smile floats to your lips
I forever chased the broken down dream
A graceful fingertip carries pain

Into the eternal transience of the time we cannot return to
You're being taken away to the place no one can reach
More than any flower that brightly blooms
My memories with you are beautiful)
Mind Forest by Gackt

So it seems I have been my usual self and have missed last week's blog update. Apologies to anyone who has been waiting for me to update (IF there is anyone...). Have been rather busy with Journey To The Cross (or JTTC for short) event preparations and lots of other miscelleanous stuff (From taking Reading FC into the Prem in FM 2005 to conquering a planet in Sid Meier's Alpha Centauri). To be honest, it's quite hard for me to run out of things to do really, with one more SS lesson to prepare, VCD/DVDs to watch, movies to catch at the theatres, 2 MG Gundam models to build etc...but it's trying to make each day I spend meainingful. Especially since I won't be here for very much longer...

...Not that I am on my death bed or anything but two weeks ago, I received my green MINDEF 'love letter'. It's confirmed that I'll be going to the SAF 'holiday resort island', Palau Tekong, on the 10th of June, 2006. I've heard from a reliable source that I'll most likely be assigned to 'C' or 'F' coy. Am I worried? No...well, not yet anyway. I'll probably only start worrying the 2 or 3 days leading up to the 10th. I guess you guys can start praying for me and giving me tips on survival and essential army items, lol.

Obviously, this has got me inadvertendly thinking about OTHER stuff and a certain conversation I had with 2 other people on an MRT home from work. I am prepared to wait it out. To see how God guides me regarding this. But how many times have I said this only for me to waver a few weeks later? Will my resolve last this time round? I really don't know, after all it's not a matter of faith but rather, it's a matter of the heart. Will I want you 2 guys to keep that promise you made then? Lol...while I really would like you 2 to 'hold the fort' if you get my drift, part of me thinks it's better to go with the flow, see how God deals with this. For all I know, you 2 would probably have forgotten that conversation by now...

Journey To The Cross (SKMC D'Anchor Holy Week event for youths) went well. The preparation for it was tiring, hectic and a little bit rushed but we made it in the end. For the uninitiated, Journey To The Cross is basically a prayer station event. Each prayer station focusing on a part of Jesus' journey to the cross, hence the title. I can see the youths really experience Jesus' journey to Golgotha as they went thorugh the stations. I also talked to a few people and got a couple of positive reviews, which I am quite happy about. I'll be meeting the rest of the organising committee on Saturday for a debrief so we'll see how it goes.

Yesterday, I was asked the question, "What do you daydream about?". I guess an honest answer would be about the future, the unknown. About army life, about where I might be assigned after POP, about ORD-ing, about university and probably most of the time, about HER.
(I'll be lying if I say that I've never thought about what we might be like together as a couple. While I don't have any unrealistic expectations about US, I do have dreams. But a dream will always remain a dream...for now at any rate. Only God knows what the future might hold for ME and for YOU...)

2006-04-05T21:29:00.000+08:00

The best way to learn is to teach

Song of the moment: Minawo - Tenohira no Hikari (Melody of Oblivion ED theme)

nee, chiisana koe
totemo kanshiku hibiku yo
boku wa damatta mama de
hoshi o kazoeru kimi o miteiru kedo

nemurenai yoru demo
asa wa kitto matteru kara
atarashii hikari ni
te wo nobazeba kimi wa ikiru tsuyosa o
te ni ieru

(Well, your small voice,
It echoes so sadly.
I am silenced,
Watching while you count the stars,

Even on these sleepless nights,
Morning is surely waiting.
If you reach out your hands,
For the new light,
Then you'll obtain the strength to live on.)
Tenohira no Hikari by Minawo

Once again, I am back with a slightly delayed entry. I've been busy with the preparations for the Easter event, SS teaching and...Football Manager 2005 (Speaking of which, I've just been sacked from my position as West Brom manager (after 2 1/2 seasons and a UEFA cup final...those ungrateful %*&$#) and am now the new 'boss' of Reading, who have just been relegated from the Premiership...). Yes, 'SS' as in 'Sunday School'. I've been assigned to teach Sunday School for the month of April in place of Keith, who seems to be enjoying married life and is taking the chance to sit back and relax during SS. Anyways, my first SS teaching experience went quite alright though some people said that I refer to too many scripture passages, which is quite true (well, I was just following the material...). I, of course, aim to improve and hope that I can become a better teacher. So to all my peers, "Qing Duo Duo Zhi Jiao!".

Now to back track a bit to last week, Keith's wedding on the 25th of last month was fun. I guess it's been ages (actually, I can't even remember) since I last went for a Wedding ceremony. You could really sense that romantic mood in the air during the ceremony. Lots of the girls took the opportunity to dress up and well, you all looked real good (Well, some of you know what(or rather...) I mean, right?). Food was great too. I also met up with lots of the HKMC people during the reception (like the other 'Chia' family, Paul and Andrew to name a few). I guess it added a sense of nostalgia to the event in a way...

Watched 'The Hills Have Eyes' with Ryan and Winnie on Tuesday of last week (28th) at J8. I ran (or rather he ran, since he saw me first) into Zhiliang right at the theatre. Apparently he was on leave and was watching the movie with a friend. Quite an interesting coincidence, anyway, the movie was just your typical, overly clichè zombie horror movie with lots of blood and gore. Definitely not a movie you would like to bring your date to on a romantic day out. While the concept was somewhat interesting (human who become 'freaks' after constant exposure to radiation due to nuclear bomb testing by the US government), it was just as I said, overly clichè and typical. You can almost predict the storyline 5 minutes into the movie. A waste of money (well, it was a treat from Ryan, thanks anyway) unless of course you're attempting the 'watch scary movie with girl and try to score' tactic, don't bother watching. (Movie Rating: 1.5/5)
That will probably the last time I see Ryan for quite awhile since he just entered the 'Island' yesterday if I remember correctly. To Ryan: Remember, keep your spirits up no matter what happens. And you've still got your GF and friends like me waiting for you... ^_^

Still waiting for my NTU acceptance/rejection letter. To be honest, I don't think I can make it to a local university with my results (I consider it about average). Which was why I resorted to using my CCA record and a couple of appraisals by Sally and Keith when I applied. Even if I do make it in, I am only mentally prepared for my first 2 choices (which are Computer Engineering and English Literature respectively). I guess its up to God's will...

Do keep me in your prayers. Especially with Sunday School teaching Part 2 and the Easter event coming up. Thanks in advance to whoever prays for me!

I guess it's up to God's will for many things in life. Well, when it comes, I'll welcome it. If it doesn't, then I'll continue to wait for the right time...

2006-03-24T23:45:00.000+08:00

Who is but the form following the function of what. And what I am is a man in a mask...

Song of the moment: UVERworld - D-tecnoLife (Bleach 2nd OP)

itsuka ushinatte shimau no kana
usurete iku egao to kimi wo mamoritai kara
hibiku boku wo yobu koe sae kare
toki ni sou kaze ni kaki kesaretatte
kimi wo mitsuke dasu

ienai itami kanashimi de kizu tsuita kimi
mou waraenai nante hito girai nante kotoba sou iwanai de
mienai mirai ni okoru koto subete ni imi ga aru kara
ima wa sono mama de ii kitto kizukeru toki ga kuru daro

(Will we lose it someday?
I want to protect you and that disappearing smile
The ringing voice that calls me dries out
Even if it gets erased by the wind along time
I will find you

Injured with pain and sadness, the you that cannot be healed
Don't say words like you can't smile or you hate people
Everything that happens in the unseen future has a meaning
So stay like this, there'll come a time when you will realize)
D-tecnoLife by UVERworld

Finally, after quite sometime, I've actually updated my blog on time (within a week of the previous entry). Honestly, I am not particularly eager to blog about anything but i figure that if I drag things too long, I'll end up forgetting about the stuff which I want to put down in this blog.

As usual let's go in chronological order. Last Saturday's FFW was quite interesting. Weiliang, Ken and Sandar shared about their experience during the previous FFW. It was really amazing to hear people talk about how they felt when they were being touched by the Holy Spirit. And suprisingly enough, I actually came forward during the altar call. If you all know me well enough, you'll probably know that I usually don't respond or come forward during the altar call. Not that I am shy or anything, it's just that you aren't really sure if it's really God speaking to you or just your own emotions. For me, everything just went on automatic last Saturday. I wasn't really focused during Pastor Lek's sermon but after that when the worship team started singing 'Consuming Fire', it really touched me and that's when I decided to step up during the altar call.
I honestly didn't really have the urge to pray about anything. When Weiliang asked me what I wanted him to pray about, I just said the first thing that came to my heart, that I felt that I wasn't doing enough in the sight of God and that I wanted God to change my life. It really helped me in the sense that it was the first time I openly admitted that I was struggling in my walk with God. I've always felt that my problems were relatively miniscule compared to other people in the Youth but I've come to accept the fact that no matter how big or small your problems are, you can always turn to God.

I really wanted to watch a movie on Sunday(or rather, I wanted to watch either V for Vendetta or Date Movie) so I purposely stayed back on Sunday to try and convince a few people that it was good to watch a movie on Sunday even though the prices they charge are ridiculously expensive on weekends. As you probably might have guessed, I ended up going somewhere else. In this case, I followed Jowell and Co. for an impromptu birthday celebration at Ajisen Ramen(yes, of all places...). After the eating(or for others, getting 'up close and personal' with their cake), Jowell and Co. went to play LAN while Angela, Jia Wei and myself ended up playing pool. For the trip home, I ended up 'escorting'(well, until Bishan anyway) Agnes home since Jowell had a curfew(You should have explained to your parents that you needed to escort her home...must be more 'nan zi han' next time, OK?).

Since I didn't manage to catch a movie on Sunday, I finally watched one on Wednesday. Jia Wei and I went to watch 'V for Vandetta' at GV Bishan(Thanks for coming all the way down here...). The show was one of the best I've watched for quite sometime. However, while I find the title character, 'V', was really well presented by Hugo Weaving(FYI: He's 'Agent Smith' from Matrix), it was a little irritating in the beginning to find him speaking rapidly in Victorian English to Natalie Portman's character, Evey. Overall, a 4/5 stars for the show.

Today came early to church to try and install some stuff into the computer. However, since I don't know the password which Tat Him set and I can't contact him since he's overseas, Bay will have to wait a little longer for 'Insanaquarium'. I also joined the Army Support Group today together with Andy, who's going in next week. During the 'sharing' period, I guess I got to know the 2 extremities of what BMT in Tekong would be like. While I am not particularly praying to get into a welfare company(well, maybe a little), I would want to be assigned to a place where I could grow stronger physically and spiritually. So, keep me in your prayers. Don't forget Andy, who's going into Tekong 8th of April.

"Disdaining fortune with his brandished steel / Which smoked with bloody execution..." Quoting 'V' whose quoting from 'Macbeth'. Not in the sense that I seek out my own way instead of God's, but in the sense that I'll be able to reject the 'easy' path and go for the 'right' path instead.
Of course, I still struggle with 'certain things'. Perhaps I am still trying to convince myself. That waiting is the right thing to do. Sometimes, I really don't know. It's just that at times, the fear of losing 'it' just never seems to fade. I still hope, I still pray that God will show me the right thing to do...

2006-03-17T23:32:00.000+08:00

All I can do is wait...for anything and everything

Song of the moment: HIllsong United - What The World Will Never Take

With all I'm hoping to be
And all that the world will bring
And all that fails to compare

You say You want all of me
I wouldn't have it any other way

I've got a Saviour and He's living in me
WHOA
I wanna know
I wanna know You today

And You're the best thing that has happened to me
And the world will never take
The world will never take You away
What The World Will Never Take by Hillsong United

Despite my 'ORD' from NYP, I have yet to really find the time to update my blog regularly. Thus, I once again (and probably for not the last time) apologize for my rather late entry. It is pleasing to note that people like Nat look forward to reading my entries. Thanks alot for your 'ardent' support of my blog. ^_^

Some of you might be wondering what exactly caused me to miss updating my blog. It was, in fact, a rather sudden last minute part time job that me and Samuel received, courtesy of Jerlin's workplace. It was basically data entry of business card information of people from rather out of the way countries (eg: Mauritania). It was, honestly, REALLY boring and the computer I was given lagged like no tomorrow but the pay was good, the working hours are alright and the people there are friendly. So, I can frankly say I don't really have much complaint about the environment at least. Tiff and Company (the one from Hakka) was working there also. Quite interesting to see them after sometime but didn't really talk to them much, save for the cursory 'Good morning' and 'Bye'. From what I've heard from Melvin, everything seems alright back at HKMC, so no worries there.
Sometimes I do think about what would have happened had I chose to stay at HKMC (Haven't I mentioned this before? I guess meeting them really made me reminicse about the old days...). Then I probably would never have met people like Jia Wei, Sebastian and Steven, most importantly, I wouldn't have met HER. Would I have met someone else? Maybe but coming to SKMC has really changed my life and I thank God for that.

Sally has put me in charge of our youth's Easter event called "Journey to the Cross" (13/4-15/4). It's basically a prayer station activity where we enable the youths to draw closer to God through prayer and experience a little of Jesus' journey to the cross. Planning so far has been rather smooth, with no hiccups save for the last station. Thankfully I am not working solo since I'll have the ACLs to help me out. Please keep me and the D'Anchor ACLs in your prayers as we plan the event.

So now the previous 1 + 2 has become 1 + 2 + 2 + 2 (Sounds nonsensical, doesn't it?). And honestly, 7 is already quite a lot of people. Whoever thinks that they know what I am talking about(or knows for that matter), please keep your mouth (and your keyboard happy fingers, just in case) shut and taped up.

Recently, I feel all that I have been doing is waiting. Waiting for a train to come, waiting for my results, waiting for my MINDEF 'love letter', waiting for the right moment to... I feel really sick of waiting. Sometimes (or rather most of the time), I just want to get it over with instead of waiting. To just not know about what you want to know feels really horrible. All I can do is pray that I become more patient and mature during this period of time before NS...

2006-03-02T16:21:00.000+08:00

Ain't got that feeling yet...

Song of the moment: L'Arc~en~Ciel - Link (Fullmetal Alchemist Movie OP)

oboeteiru kai?
osanai koro kara tsumasakidachi de todokanai tobira ga atta yo ne
jikan wo wasurete samayoitsukushita
meiro no michi ha itsumo soko ni ikiataru

muishiki ni kimi no egao wo sagasu no ha tomerarenai
nani hitotsu kawarazu ni ima mo boku ha kaketeyuku

tatoe haruka tooku hanarebanare ni natte mo tsunagariau omoi
itazura na unmei ga furikakarou to mo koware ya shinai

(Do you remember?
When you were young there were doors you couldn't reach even on tip-toe
Losing track of time, entirely lost and wandering
The path of the maze always ends up there.

I can't stop myself from subconsciously seeking out your smile
Even now, nothing's changed, I still run after you

No matter how very far apart we are this feeling connects us.
Even if a mischievious fate should befall us, it can't be destroyed.)
Link by L'Arc~en~Ciel

After 4 weeks of struggle, all my projects, common tests and exams are finally over. I am now an UNofficial graduate of Nanyang Polytechnic. Hopefully it will become 'official' in approximately two weeks time when my results come back. To be honest, I don't feel like I've graduated. It's really different from the end of my 'O' Levels when I went to buy my PlayStation 2 as a sort of celebratory present. I theorized that its probably due to the different kind of study environment and lack of external pressure. Nonetheless, this race I've finished, others...still go on.

Due to my missing the last 2 weeks of blogging, I actually haven't really blogged about Retro Night yet. In case some of you non-SKMCers are wondering, Retro Night was a sort of thanksgiving dinner/outreach event for the parents of the youths. The food was good too, although our cell was one of the few who actually made an effort to make something (no offence or anything but I think Spaghetti and home-made sauce is a lot harder to make than egg and tuna sandwiches). Since I probably can't recall the whole event, all I'll say that it was fun. Not VERY fun but more than just fun (^_^).

Let us fast forward to this week, when I did the last of my Polytechnic exams. Had no problems at all on the m-Commerce paper but I probably could have done better. Jimmy Ang really played us on the MCT exam though. Gave us quite alot of false leads and generally misled everyone who took the exam. I asked him about it later and he actually said that he couldn't give us 100% correct tips which to me was pure and utter crap. If Hammed and Szeto could give us the right tips, why couldn't he do the same? While I'll most likely pass this module, my overall grade for this probably won't be the best. Well, no use crying over spilled milk, right? Let's just hope the mess won't be too big to clean up...

~~~

I cannot understand how can guys be even more 'gossip-y' than girls! I am, of course, referring to a particular big junior of mine and his partner in crime. My private life is none of your @&%##% business. Look up the dictionary if you don't know what does the word 'private' mean. I am, I repeat, still happy with my status quo. Which means, I have no intention of doing anything yet. Thus, don't try to help it along in the wrong direction.

2006-02-10T22:11:00.000+08:00

Trudging on towards the finish line...

Song of the moment: Little By Little - Kanashimi wo Yasashisa ni (Naruto 3rd OP)

souda daiji na mono wa itsumo
katachi no nai mono dake
te ni iretemo nakushitemo
kizukanumama

sousa kanashimi wo yasashisa ni
jibun rashisa wo chikara ni
mayoinagarademo ii arukidashite
mou ikkai mou ikkai

(The most important thing is always
Without any shape
Even if you have it or lose it
You'll never know

Turning sadness into kindeness
Your uniqueness into strength
It's okay to get lost so begin walking
Once again, once again)
Kanashimi wo Yasashisa ni by Little By Little. This song is dedicated to someone whom I've never seen for a long time. Sometimes you'll feel lost and abandoned by the ones you trust the most, that you don't know the direction you should go in. But, it's okay to get lost once in awhile, as long as you keep walking on the path God has prepared for you...sweet dreams...

This week and the perhaps the next two will probably be one of the most chaotic preriods in my life. With all the projects to do, common tests and exams to study for. Admittedly I am a little lazy (as you can see that I am blogging now instead of rushing through my projects) and don't really work well under pressure. Nonetheless, I continue the struggle towards my diploma. Only 19 more days till the struggle ends. Will I make it through, I honestly don't know. Especially since I've only completed one out of my four projects with the deadlines all occuring within the next 2 weeks. I can only pray that God will pull me through this crucial period of my studies.

Finally took my NAPFA test today (I am very sure Mr Nai SB will be rejoicing right now, one less person to call after all...). As expected, I failed (not as spectacular as I might have hoped but...). This is the result of a lack of a PE module in NYP's curicculum. Well, in a way I passed 50% of it (pass 3, failed 3). It was my 2 'bogey' stations, Pull-Up and Standing Broad Jump and the 2.4KM Run, which failed me in the end. Well, since I still haven't got my MINDEF 'love' letter yet, I still got a chance to avoid the extra 3 months by retaking my NAPFA. But, whether I do it depends on a lot of other factors, especially since I got lots to do before I go to Tekong/HTA/Jalan Bahar...

As some of you might know from my MSN personal message, I've already applied for NTU. Of course, anyone would want to go to the University to further their studies, however, I acknowledge my results aren't exactly University material so I am mentally prepared that they'll reject my application. Anyways, I've filled up the Non-Academic achievements section and thus requires me to ask at least 1 (max. 3) person to fill up an appraisal form for me. I've already got a few people in mind to ask but if any of you are interested just give me a buzz or a tag. Some of you might wonder what courses did I choose for my 5 courses but since I still have the chance to change them, I'll leave it up to you people to do some guesswork. My mum also asked me to apply to NUS but I am still thinking/praying about it.

In 4 days time (or less, depending on when you're reading my entry) will be one of the most dreaded/happiest/sad/boring(?) day in any guy's life, Valentine's Day. Last year's Valentine wasn't exactly fantastic and to be honest, I did hope that I wouldn't be celebrating this year's Valentine's Day alone (or with another guy, AGAIN). Of course the best case scenario would be celebrating it with her but I am realistic. I don't (or at least I try not to...lol) live in my fantasies (NOT perverted, mind you) and I am perfectly clear on what's at stake here. Especially since I know that we're probably not ready for it yet at this point in our lives. Nonetheless, I certainly hope that one day, my feelings will be reciprocated (in a positive way of course). Whatever happens in future, I'll let God lead the way. And before I forget, I wish in advance (if I don't blog this coming Tuesday) to all my friends and family, past or present, a very happy Valentine's Day.

Before I end of, I actually did some checking and it actually happens to be my Blog's second anniversary of existence. So I wish my blog a happy 2nd Birthday...^_^

2006-02-01T21:31:00.000+08:00

On the final lap...oh, and Happy CNY to all!

Song of the moment: HOME MADE KAZOKU - Shounen Heart (Eureka 7 2nd OP)

Once again I've been neglecting me usually weekly updates. It's a really stressful time for me now, with all the project deadlines coming up and common tests just a week away. Well, come March, I'll have lots of time to spare for blogging, and maybe a little more than that?

Happy CNY to everyone! I hope everyone has had an enjoyable Chinese New Year as I have this year (Of course, it could have been more enjoyable...) and may all of you have an even more enjoyable new year. This CNY probably has been a lot more enjoyable and at the same time, stressful then all my previous CNYs. I had a really great time catching up with all my cousins, most of whom I only see 2-3 times a year at most.

I invited a bunch (well, a brilliant bunch at any rate, but still a bunch...) of people from church to come over to my house yesterday (If you want to know, the bunch consists of Jia Wei, Angela, Sebastian, Regina, Michelle, Daniel and Deborah) for fun, laughter and hong bao leeching (lol...just joking). Anyways after the usual formalities, the gaming, talking, eating and sleeping (in MY bed no less) started. Well, all of them LOVED the food (which my parents cooked, one day they'll pass their culinary secrets to me...) and Regina and Jia Wei were practically addicted to my PS2's Midnight Club 3 (Of course looking at them drive, you know they definitely aren't going to pass their driving tests anytime soon...^_^).
Later in the afternoon, all of us (save for Michelle, who had to go for more bai nian-ing) went over to Hougang Mall's K-Box for a Happy Hour singing session. Sang a couple of my favourites like Wang Lee Hom's Wei Yi and Jay Chou's Jie Kou while Angela and Regina went for Fish Leong's Ming Ming Hen Ai Ni and a couple of other Sammi Chang songs. Sebastian's Peng You by Emil Chau was slightly off-key while Deborah really liked her Westlife and Backstreet Boys songs. All in all, Jia Wei and Angela sang most of the songs and the slacker would probably have to go to Daniel, who didn't sing much becuase he had a cough (well, according to him anyway...hmm). Played Billiards after all the girls had left. I really sucked badly in Billiards (I only played it once before this after all...), really got to practice quite a bit to at least match Jia Wei's and Sebastian's standard. Overall, I thoroughly enjoyed my time yesterday thanks to you guys. Also learnt more about other my friends too (not what YOU might think...) so in a way, it was also an 'Educational' trip too.

To whomever it may concern: While I am sure you know this but I would like you to know that I am not alienating you or anything when I chose not to let you in on that particular piece of information. It's more of a result when I decided to do some 'damage control'. However, if you are still interested, I would suggest you analyse all sources, whether direct on in-direct and other little pieces of information you might have picked up and come to your own conclusions...after all, if he can do it, so can you.

Strange how time passes so fast. It seemed like it was only last week when I decided to go SKMC and yesterday when I first 'met' her. Of course in reality, about 10 months have already passed since 40 DOP in SKMC. While admittedly I haven't tied up all my loose ends, I haven't regretted my decision to switch to SKMC (Hmm...I might have already mentioned this a couple of months ago but nevermind...). Not only that, my desicion also allowed me to meet really wonderful people I would otherwise not know had I not chose come over.

On the final lap of my poly life, 1 week away from my common test, 2 weeks away from my final project submission dates and 4 weeks away from the last exam I probably ever will take in NYP. Admittedly, it might not have been my dream course, but I am glad I lasted all the way. Come March, I'll be able to move my thoughts to things like registering at SSDC, gaming and perhaps _____?

2006-01-22T21:35:00.000+08:00

Missing you...

Song of the moment: Dong Jing Yue Tuan(动静乐团) - Xiang Xin Wei Lai(相信未来)

等待你接受我的爱
等待我给你的未来
让我这样抱紧着你不放开

我要你接受我的爱
相信是上天的安排
让我可以手牵着你
永远不要分开

(Waiting for you to accept my love
Waiting for the future I can give you
Let me hold you and never let go

I want you to accept my love
Believing it's Heaven's plan
Let me hold your hand
Stay with me forever)
Xiang Xin Wei Lai by Dong Jin Yue Tuan
Another self-translation since I am too lazy to find online translations. Hope it's good enough...

A somewhat late entry this week due to other commitments...like gaming...lolz. Not exactly a very good reason, especially since I should be studying and doing my projects instead. Please pray that I'll be able to concentrate on my studies and projects instead of gaming and slacking. Anyways, the main reason I am writing this now is because I am waiting for the Man United vs. Liverpool match to start at 12MN (Of course, whether I'll watch the match depends entirely on how tired I am in the coming hour especially since I got school at 8:30 am tomorrow morning).

Submitted my proposal for my J2ME project last Thursday. Knowing what to do for my project is one thing, how I am going to do it of course is an entirely different matter, sigh. Anyways, what is J2ME, some of you might wonder. Basically, it's the JAVA architecture for mobile devices. You know those cute little JAVA games you play on your handphone? It's made using J2ME.
I've also got to make changes to my WML(It's Wireless Markup Language for the uninitiated) project since Jimmy Ang and Szeto made it clear that the projects for their modules must be of a different topic. I'll probably do some lame WML-based game or something.

Last Sunday(Yes, the last one, not today), the youth went for a hike starting from Bukit Timah Nature Reserve to somewhere in Upper Thomson. It was about an estimated 10KM and was probably the most intense exercise I've had for the past 3 months (With no PE in NYP, what do you expect?). Started from the back of the pack but somehow or rather, me and Daniel ended up at the front which was somewhat unexpected (One of the reasons being everyone were interested in looking at snakes and other wildlife than actually hiking).

Today's events have been rather impromptu. Technical difficulties led to the mission outreach DVD not being able to be shown thus we all ended up playing group games. It was rather fun I guess. Played Blokus in Bay for half the afternoon before Angela, Regina, Sebastian and Jia Wei decided to go to J8, which of course I went along with them, for the most obvious reasons of course (If you don't know why, you shouldn't be reading this blog ^_^). Seb, Regina and Angela all bought stuff in J8, so I am sure they left Bishan with a certain sense of satisfaction.

~~~

Too many people are starting to read my blog and are asking questions they shouldn't ask. I don't want that kind of situation when I don't even have the intention to ________ yet. Well, not until I graduate in March anyway. After all, when the boat reaches the dock, it will dock straight.

Admittedly, I've been kind of struggling with the issue for sometime already as shown in my previous entry. I am still happy with my status quo, no peer pressure or whatever (not directly anyway). I'll try to surrender to God on this and let him guide me through it. Of course I still struggle against it, but if God wills it, then let it be...

2006-01-11T19:16:00.000+08:00

(Hopefully) We'll meet on the same path one day...

Song of the moment: Snorkel - Nami Kaze Satellite (Naruto 7th OP)

Have been busy with lots of stuff last week...or rather, it was mostly preparation for last Sunday's bible quiz and schoolwork. However, now that I have another unexpected one week break (because I don't have any common tests...), I've been given another chance to rest, recuperate and start preparing for my exams and various projects and presentations. I am expecting to graduate by the first half of march if all goes well (And it should go well...no reason why it shouldn't after all, right?).

School last week was as per usual...as usual (no pun intended). However, I've got two presentations to prepare next week and four projects to complete by week 15 (which means submit by 17th February 2006). Suddenly, these dates don't seem so far away anymore and with my exams coming up around week 16 or 17(?), I realise that its only about 2 months away till the time I leave school and perhaps, start preparing for entry into THE ISLAND (or maybe TRACOM, who knows?). Still, its at least 4-5 months away from the earliest possible date that I could go into THE ISLAND, so I guess I'll probably worry about it after I graduate.

Sunday's bible quiz was alright but it didn't really go as plan (when did stuff like these go as planned anyway). I really screwed up my MC-ing during the Bible Quiz. It was a somewhat embarassing moment but thankfully Sandar covered up for me in time (I'll make it up to you one day, I promise!). Also, as expected, the Bible Quiz over-ran the time frame and the desicion was made to cut out my portion of the game. Of course, I am not that 'small gas' to be bothered by this (The fact that I stayed up till 3.30am to finish the slides notwithstanding...I want my sleep back ;-P). So, if any of you are wondering, don't worry about it.

After the bible quiz, Zhiliang, Angela, Jia Wei, Michelle, Sebastian, Regina and myself, went to the Mind Cafe (after TOO MUCH deliberation. In fact, Mind Cafe was my idea... ^_^). Played games like Guesstures, Apple to Apple and Pit. Rather fun and all, shouting ourselves hoarse and with Sebastian's antics. Definitely didn't regret the desicion to stay in Church after the Quiz.

~~~

I've been thinking about how to angst about this part for sometime now. We'll, not really angst per se but rather complaining? Who cares what it's called anyway? In my previous post, I've stated that I am happy with the status quo. That is still true, I am very happy with the status quo. However, recently I've been worried about whether I would miss my chance or not and also whether everything I've been doing from that moment till now has been the right thing to do. About the latter, I guess there isn't really much point about worrying, since what's done has been done. Nobody's perfect and you do learn something new from every failure. The former, I guess it's really up to God's will. I KNOW for a fact that he's brought me here definitely has been part of his plan. I didn't expect it to happen so fast but somewhere deep down in my heart, I REALLY want it to work, irregardless of God's plan for my life. Maybe it's not really a good thing to say out loud, but its how I really feel about it.

Also, regarding the same matter of course, I've been found out by someone. Thankfully, this someone is a HE and HE understands the people and the system in place. Not only that, he's also fighting the system. I won't elaborate too much lest someone who supports the system happens to read my blog. This in turn brings up another related subject, the SYSTEM. While I understand the need for the system, I don't really support the system. If it happens, it happens. I don't understand the need to destroy what already has been built. What it needs to do is to make people understand the POSSIBLE consequences of it. Encourage prevention rather than cure. If it still happens, at least you know that they understand the possible consequences and are prepared for it.
Regarding the matter, I am neutral about it. In the end, it really is a matter of whether both parties are mature enough.

~~~

While we look in different directions, our destination is (hopefully) the same. I hope that one day, when we're both ready, you'll look at me the same way I look at you. One day, I hope to meet you on the same path. If God allows it, maybe we'll walk hand in hand to our destination...

2005-12-28T22:55:00.000+08:00

Patience to take it slow...

Song of the moment: Gackt - Metamorphoze (Mobile Suit Z Gundam: A New Translation Movie Theme)

yureru kodou ga boku wo shibaritsukeru
kimi no kakera ga fukai yami ni ochita
nigeru koto sae yurusarenai sekai de
kimi no koto dake ha mamoritakatta no ni

ima mo...ima demo dareka no yasashii kotoba yori
kimi no, kimi dake no kuchibiru ni sotto furetai

(The wavering vibrations tied me down
As the fragments of you fell into the deep darkness
In a world where not even running is allowed
I only wanted to protect you

And now...Even now, more than anyone else's kind words
I want to softly touch your lips, only yours)
Metamorphoze by Gackt

Sorry for missing last week's update. I've been busy...again. Mainly with my Unified Messaging System project which I, despite all the odds, actually managed to complete it. Was also out doing Christmas shopping on Thursday and Friday, which really left me little time to do anything else. Such is the life of a 3rd year MIT student in NYP.

Anyways, starting with the Christmas Eve celebrations in SKMC. Started with the dinner in church and carolling around Sengkang. The adult cell we were attached to didn't inform us that they were leaving and left us waiting in Church until Reverend Lek came and asked us what we were doing in church. Despite the initial hiccup, the carolling went rather well and I thankfully didn't lose my voice.
Then came TimeOut with the rest of the youth at Fort Canning Park. It was rather tiring (no sleep at all from Christmas Eve to Christmas Day) and maybe a little chaotic, but it was fun nonetheless. Started out with the Countdown and randomly spraying people with...erm...spray stuff. Then the usual games, impromptu skit, sharing by Jia Zhi and the discussion session where I was discussion leader assigned to Ming Kiat and Zhiliang. Ming Kiat was...Ming Kiat while Zhiliang, being the first time for me actually talking to him, seemed very cynical of things. If NS really makes people cynical, then I'll really dread it. I am hoping and praying that I'll be able to grow in character and at the same time, 'stay myself' during NS.
Finally the Christmas Day celebrations back in church. As I mentioned earlier, I didn't get any sleep at all but I somehow survived, the Confirmation, Christmas Service etc. Ah yes, I was confirmed and received into membership on Christmas at SKMC (This you'll know if you read my last post). It was rather...fun, in a way. There was an incident which as Daniel calls it, made us 'the center of attention'. Of course those who attended the Christmas service (which included Yap Xiong and I would like to thank him for coming. I really appreciated his presence there...Sorry for not having time to show you around the place and to intro you to some people) would know and since Daniel didn't elaborate on it in his blog, neither will I. Went to Daniel's house later for a Christmas lunch with Seb, Wan Zhen, Sheryl, Joe and Ming Kiat. Initially, I was wondering why I should go, especially since I REALLY wanted to catch up on my sleep but it was worth it. Exchanging sleep for Oat Prawns(I think...) is worth it. (PS to Daniel Tay: Please talk to you-know-who about you-know-what during you-know-when (lol)...I am very sure you would not allow yourself and the rest of our cell to be subject to such atrocities on such a day)

This week happens to be holiday week for us NYP students. This allows us to catch up on some much needed rest and recreation, a little bit of homework and start planning for our to-be-submitted-on-Week 14 projects. I really thank God for this break, which just nicely, came at the end of a very eventful week. Played a little of Radiata Stories. I had no idea the game was this addictive (actually I only play the game in the afternoons). I've also started planning for this coming January's Bible Quiz-thingy. I've got the flow more or less done (subject to approval, of course) but still got the trivia questions to come up with. Pray for me, yeah?

Although somethings didn't go as planned and for others there simply wasn't even an opportunity, I am happy with the status-quo. I think God is telling me to be patient about it. We've still got a long way to go after all. Let's pray for the patience to take it slow...for now anyway.

2005-12-14T10:33:00.000+08:00

I want to see it again...

Song of the moment: ORANGE RANGE - *~Asterisk~ (BLEACH 1st OP theme)

miageta yozora no hoshitachi no hikari
inishie no omoi negai ga jidai wo koe
iroaseru KOTO naku todoku
KIRARI hitomi ni utsuru dareka no sakebi

kaze ni omoi wo tsuki ni negai wo
chikara aru kagiri ikiteikunda kyou mo
bokura no omoi mo itsuka dareka no mune ni
hikari tsuzukeyou ano hoshi no you ni

(Rays of light from the stars in the night sky above
send a plea from across the ages
with colours that haven't faded
It's somebody's cry, reflected in those sparkling eyes

A wish carried on the wind, a request from the moon
to live as fully as possible, day by day
So that our wishes, too, will be in someone's heart someday,
let's shine on like that star)
*~Asterisk~ by ORANGE RANGE

I hope...I want to see it again. Its moments like these which makes it worth the while...

Sorry about the no-show for the past two weeks. I was busy with my pre-HK and post-HK preparations. As most of you might know, I came back from a short holiday in Hong Kong last week and bought lots of stuff ^_^. I finally acquired my Mk.II Gundam MG ver. 2.0 and a pair of Levi's N3BP in HK among other things. Probably the only thing you can do in HK nowadays is shopping which I obviously did a lot of. Throughout the 7 days my family was there, we did like 50% shopping, 45% eating and 5% sight-seeing. Enjoyed myself there and may or may not post up the holiday photos, depending on time constraints.

Saturday was KJE(Korean-Japanese Express) in SKMC, though the only thing Korean there was Ken blasting BoA songs over the speakers. We all learnt how to make sushi there, but it being our first attempt, we obviously didn't do very well. Samuel and Michelle's group, who were right behind mine, made some 'Ai Xin' rice ball which probably was the reason they actually won first prize. Michelle did the slides for FFW later (I was a little worried since I didn't recieve this week's FFW email). FFW ended early too, which was a good thing as it enabled me to watch Liverpool's 2-nil win against Middlesbrough in its entirety (Yes, Morientes rocks!).
Last Sunday was Daniel Tay's birthday and I would like to wish him a very Happy 16th Birthday. Hope you throughly enjoyed yourself on Sunday.

This week will be one of the busiest week's for me, with 3 reports and a project due the week after this. The reports shouldn't be much of a problem, it's the UMS project which worries me. Sadly, I'll probably end up using SJ's source code to do most of the project. I'll try my best to inject some originality into the project though. Later I'll be making my way down to school for a NTU talk, not only to find out how to apply but also in a way to guage my prospect of actually making it into NTU's Computer Engineering/Science and Communication Studies Degree courses, especially since my results aren't exactly flying colours. Kris and Kiat will be coming with me, so I won't be going 'solo'.

10 days to TimeOut and 11 days to Christmas/Baptism and Membership ceremony. Really looking forward to it and the excitement is kind of slowly building up inside of me. I guess I am not only excited about TimeOut and Christmas, but also because I believe Christmas is a time of change, a time for miracles perhaps. Last Christmas, my life was changed, sort of. I learnt lessons, some tougher than others but I did learn from my mistakes(I hope I did anyway...). I believe some things might change this year. For better or for worse, I don't know and probably won't know till Dec 24th/25th. Though I still pray and hope for my wish to be granted, I put everything into God's hands...Hopefully what I want is also what God wants for me.

2005-11-23T23:46:00.000+08:00

Sizing up the Goblet...

Song of the moment: Izawa Asami - Fly Away (Eureka 7 2nd ED theme)

First on the agenda, I have finally watched Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire. Sadly, only with Wallz as company into Jubilee Screen 1. Nonetheless, watching Harry Potter will always be an enjoyable experience, whether alone or with friends (having friends who are HP fans with you will certainly enhance the experience though). Goblet of Fire finally introduces characters like Cho Chang (played by the rather cute Katie Leung) more in depth and signals the start of the war between the light and the dark with Voldemort's 'resurrection'.
I had rather high hopes for the show. However, by the end of the show, I left the theatre feeling very disappointed. Admittedly, due to the length of the book, it was expected that certain scenes had to be sacrificed in order that the movie not be too long/draggy. The cutting of the Quidditch World Cup final I expected as it did little to advance the plot however, certain scenes which I felt were crucial to character development were deleted and certain inaccuracies throughout the film really ruined the experience. For example, one of the more obvious 'inaccuracies' (and that's putting it nicely) will be that Neville, instead of Dobby gives Harry the Gillyweed for the second task. Another one will be the Yule Ball, where the 'Weird Sisters' became the 'Weird Brothers' in the film (instead of 3 gals, we get 3 guys instead). For the 'deleted' scenes, other than the Quidditch, the scene where Ginny tells Harry that she's going with Neville to the Yule Ball is missing, as is the scene where Hagrid reveals his half-giant status to Madame Maxime.

Best Scene in the movie: In my opinion, definitely has to be 'Blood of the enemy, forcibly taken...' though Voldemort's and Harry's duel, Yule Ball and the first task all came close.
Conclusion: Could have been a very good movie, but suffered from severe editing and feels rushed. Rating: 3/5

Went to eat lunch at Carl's Jr with Dad and Bro. Pretty good and the burgers were freaking gigantic. Tastes better than BK and more expensive too. Definitely not a restaurant I'll visit regularly. ^_^
Managed to get off 'slider' duty this coming Saturday but will still be coming early to meet Sandar to discuss Sunday's prelims. Those who come can look forward to playing a game called Scene It (at least that's what I call it, based off a real movie quiz game). Want to know how to play, find out this Sunday!

One more baptism class to go. Kind of looking forward to my baptism this Christmas. Especially since I'll be doing it with Sebastian, Daniel, Jia Wei, Angela and Wan Zhen. Still got my testimonial to write too. I was supposed to do it today but got side tracked everywhere I go. I'll try to finish it this weekend.

Lastly, I'll be leaving for HK next week so pass me your shopping lists and cash or forever hold your peace. ^_^

2005-11-16T12:36:00.000+08:00

Watching and waiting...

Song of the moment: Chrno Crusade OP Theme - Tsubasa Wa Pleasure Line

There are times when we long for something more than what we have now. What we fail to realize is that it may be more than what we require for now. For some, the longing, the waiting is longer than others...but the prize at the end is always worth it. I wish, I hope, I watch, I wait and I trust God, whatever the result...

Into the second week of school! The somewhat boring lectures, tutorials and lab sessions are back in full swing. Despite kind of falling asleep during one of yesterday's classes, all went well. I'll be doing the Infocomm project with Nat and Mobile Commerce with Ryan. Kiat and Wallz will probably stick to each other like glue for the rest of the semester when it comes to gaming and projects, which is as expected. Not much homework yet other then the usual tutorials, so no pressure for now.

Started playing this nice MMORPG called SilkRoad Online together with Kris and Ryan. Rather nice game, though somewhat reminiscent of other MMORPGs like Lineage 2 and Knights Online. Currently Level 14 so no job class yet. My character's name is Athrun86 in Xian Server. Be sure to add me as a friend if you're playing. Inadvertently, this game is causing me to neglect my KOTOR/FF VII/FM. Well, as long as it doesn't affect my studies...

Keith asked me to go for a Building Team(its basically the planning committee for D'Anchor) meeting yesterday. They wanted me to observe the meeting as they're mentoring me to take over in a couple of years(?). Sandar was supposed to be there to but due to some error in communication, Sandar never did get the notice to attend the meeting. Nonetheless, it was interesting to see the planning process behind SS and FFW. Also found out during the meeting that Moses and myself will be in charge of one of the SS events for the 1st Sunday of January next year, as will be Keith and Sandar for the 2nd Sunday. Hopefully, it won't clash with any of my school stuff. Also, if anyone has ideas for preliminaries, please inform either Sandar or myself as we will be in charge for the 26th of this month. ^_^

Goblet of Fire starts tomorrow! Anyone wants to watch it with me? Priority is on a first-come-first-served basis. Just leave a message on my tagboard if you're interested!

2005-11-09T10:30:00.000+08:00

Back to school...for the last time(semester)!

Song of the moment: Hillsongs - One Day

More than I could hope or dream of
You have poured Your favour on me
One day in the house of God is
Better than a thousand days in the world

So blessed, I can't contain it...
So much, I've got to give it away,
Your love taught me to live now...
You are more than enough for me.
One Day by Hillsongs

Yes, its back to school for us Poly students! While we start the process of mugging once again, its just about to be the start of the holidays for everyone else(Pri/Sec/JC). Although thats kind of semi-depressing, its rather refreshing to be back in school once again. Especially for a Year 3 student like me, since it SHOULD be the final semester that I'll be studying in NYP (Of course, I have NO intention to repeat!). Of course, provided my results are good enough, I would want to go to the University to further my studies though using my current GPA, it would take a miracle for me to get in. Thus, I am hoping to use this final semester to try and drag up my GPA from a 2.5 to maybe a 2.8 or 3 if possible (though I think it may not be possible). So, three cheers for mugging!

After last week's movie outing with Melvin and KK, I kind of developed an allergic reaction of some sort, causing rashes and redness throughout my body. Felt utterly terrible during that time. My parents eventually concinced me to go to Mount Alvernia's outpatient for treatment. Got the medication and the reaction is about cleared from my system. Even though this is the second time that its happened, I still have absolutely no idea what I am allergic to. Though there's a distinct possibility that its VS shampoo (the shampoo is EVIL, pure EVIL!!! LOL), the doctor said it might be the seafood I ate before that. Further detective work is required for this case...anyone with any information should call me...hehe.

I guess its ineveitable to eventually talk about my first 2 days back in school. I've so far at least gone through the lecture part for all of my modules save Infocomm Systems Implmentation. Mobile Commerce and Mobile Computing seems interesting enough (though the usual introductory lecture was as boring as any other) and there's more JAVA (one of my somewhat stronger subjects) in JAVA Enterprise Development and Mobile Application Development. Strangely though, it seems as if the 4-5 mini projects that I'll be doing for the different modules all seem to have the same ides (which is basically creating a wireless application/system and sell it to your customers, must involve Client-Database communication). The only difference being the different technologies you'll be using in each module (eg: for mobile commerce (xHTML/ASP), Infocomm (ASP/Cold Fusion/XML). I am not really a database kind of person so it all sounds the same to me (^_^). Sigh, if anyone has any past year project samples to give, I am more than willing to accept them.

Yesterday, on the way to Baptism class in church, I felt God's power at work, kind of anyway. I boarded the 372 bus in the interchange and a couple of stops later, came Angela and Ken, followed by Sebastian and Daniel and finally Jia Wei, Jerline, Jessica and Amy over the next couple of stops. To most it may just be a kind of coincidence but I feel that God is just bringing us together in a rather weird way I guess. Also met the other cell leaders, including Sandar and Keith in church later.

Before I end of, I would like to announce that I have completed building my 1/100 scale Destiny! This being a gift from my good friend Melvin (in Australia right now...) and KK (in some Army camp? LOL), I would like to thank him for it. So here's a nice little link for you guys to see the pic.

2005-11-03T20:51:00.000+08:00

Clarity of the heart...

Song of the moment: Full House(浪漫满屋) OST - Why

I think my heart is clear, I think...no, I know that I...if God wills it, then it'll happen. I don't want to make the same mistakes again.

Greetings once again, from the land of Anthony Chia Wenhao! ^_^ I apologise for missing last week's update due to pressing commitments to Church and various other activities which I am involved in these past couple of days (some of which I will mention later in this entry). The last week of holidays have finally descended upon me and while I sadly have not achieved all the things in my 'Stuff to achieve' list (which you'll also see later in this entry), it certainly has been an enjoyable period, thanks to the presence of certain PC games, the PS2, my friends and family and most importantly, God's protection this holidays.

On the 24th of October, I went to my NS medical check up and got a PES B back. It was kind of expected so I wasn't surprised in anyway. At least it proves that I am a normal person. :D Wallz got PES C9, which basically means he doesn't need to take IPPT due to his low BMI and only has to go for a 7 week BMT. Jon, being as he is, gets a PES E. Kris, SJ and SF all got a PES A or B (can't remember exactly...). We all also got nice souvenirs from the nice people at CMPB, two very nice NS handbooks and a piece of paper showing our PES status. Sigh...in a couple of months I'll be switching Cell groups...sniff, sniff...lol.

Yesterday, Samuel, Zhi Xiang, Angela and myself were leading a bunch of hyper-active Secondary Ones from Sang Kang Sec around Singapore on a Amazing Race/MRT Rally sort of thing. Had quite a bit of fun with them even though we got 3rd place out of four teams. I was a little tired after the whole thing was over. Somewhat remeniscent of the last time I went to help out at the SKSS orientation as I have mentioned earlier. Maybe there's something to be learnt here?

Watched the DOOM movie with Melvin and KK this afternoon. Really hadn't seen KK ever since I went over to SKMC. Strange how time passes, to think that about a year ago, KK was still worrying over his 'A's. Had a rather enjoyable time with them, especially since we won't see each other for awhile.

Now let's look at what I have achieved throughout this holiday!

Anthony's List of stuff to achieve during the holidays (in no particular order)

1) Complete PokÃ©mon Leaf Green
2) Complete Final Fantasy 1
3) Build Gundam models - Destiny Gundam and Strike Rouge MG ver. (or at least complete Destiny, if not both) (Well, it is 90% complete anyways)
4) Purchase 1/100 Blaze Zaku Phantom (Rey Za Burrel Custom) Model from Sunshine Plaza/anywhere which sells cheap ORIGINAL models
~~4) Play Final Fantasy VII and complete it before I graduate from NYP~~
5) Play Star Ocean: Till the End of Time and complete it before I graduate from NYP
~~6) Play Star Wars: Knights of the Old Republic and complete it before I graduate from NYP~~
7) Start going for daily jogs/exercise to prepare for NS
8) Watch a lot of VCDs/DVDs during holidays (maybe tomorrow? LOL)
9) Register at SSDC (Singapore Safety Driving Center) and hopefully get my Class 3/3A(?) license before I go into NS

Haha, looks like I haven't really achieved much. Regarding KOTOR and FF VII, it still remains to be seen whether I'll complete it before I graduate from NYP. Sadly, Star Ocean is still gathering dust in a dark corner of my PS2 games collection. Neither jogging nor learning driving (unless you count Midnight Club 3...) has featured at all during this holiday period. Looks like I need someone to push me along the way should I want to acquire a decent level of fitness or 'Driving no jutsu'.

As long as we have Christ in our vessel, we can Smile at the storm!

2005-10-21T13:40:00.000+08:00

Halfway through...

Song of the moment: Saeki Mio & Shiraishi Ryoko - Daiji Da.I.Ji (Mahoraba ~Heartful Days~ OP)

Its more or less halfway through what might be my last school holiday and what have I achieved? Not much really...it's been the usual slack slack slack kind of holidays. Or rather, to be more specific, its been KOTOR/FF VII (Looks like I am starting to neglect my PS2...), anime, Destiny Gundam, manga, eating and sleeping. However, things might get a little busy from next weeks onwards, thanks to my involvement in various church activities.

First up, there's the Bay PC setup. Since the anti-virus and Office software hasn't arrived yet, I haven't been able to do anything with the PCs. But with the various software's arrival next week, Sally has asked me to come over next Tuesday to help Tat Him 'upgrade' the Church's PCs. This I shouldn't have any major problem with.

Number 2, there's this Amazing Race-like thing coming up which Oikos is organizing for one of the secondary 1 classes in SKSS (Sengkang Secondary) and Angela, Samuel, Zhi Xiang and myself will be involved in leading the groups. Also, thanks to the weird coincidence of me being the oldest among the volunteers, they conveniently appointed me the leader, requiring me to report straight to Jackie (one of the Oikos people) for the event. This is rather reminiscent of the last time I was at SKSS for their Secondary 1 orientation before I went into NYP. Somehow, I am sure leading a bunch of Secondary 1's around Singapore shouldn't be as bad as I am dreading it to be...but the fears do remain.

Lastly, the youth will be going to Aloha Changi next Friday and Saturday. It will be a overnight thing with the usual BBQ, games etc. I've signed up for it, though I haven't paid the fee yet (:-P). I still don't really feel 'enthu' about it yet though...especially since I still don't really know who will be going on that day. Hopefully, I'll enjoy myself somehow or rather.

Regarding my list of stuff to achieve this holidays, there hasn't been much progress. No daily jogs yet, but I have been going out quite a bit. For example, going all the way to Causeway Point to watch GOAL with Kris, KT, Jon and SJ. (Note: Pretty nice movie for Football fans, though a bit cliche...) Haven't purchased Blaze Zaku Phantom or played Star Ocean yet but I am playing FF VII and KOTOR and I am halfway through Destiny Gundam so I suppose that's some consolation.

See you guys next week for my next post...if I don't forget...

2005-10-13T00:04:00.000+08:00

Time for change...

Song of the moment: Hitomi Shimatani - Angelus (Inuyasha 6th OP)

Once again, it's time for my weekly update. It's been a rather uneventful week which basically consists of me playing the PC/PS2, building my Destiny Gundam 1/100 model, reading manga, eating and sleeping. In short, it's a little BORING but nonetheless un-stressful and for this, I am thankful to God for giving me this period of rest.

My dad is starting to bug me about going to SSDC to register for driving class. Not that it's much of a bother or anything (though admittedly, I am feeling a little bit lazy) but it's just that I don't feel the need to get a driving license or at least start taking my theory tests at this point of time. The only good thing about getting a license now would be that I'll be the one driving on weekends to fetch the family around to church, etc. I don't have a girlfriend YET to bring out on dates neither am I working at this point of time. Perhaps it does sound a little self-centered in a way but seriously, how regularly am I going to drive my dad's 1.8 liter Toyota Corolla Altis? (Of course, I wouldn't mind the opportunity to drove Gary's BMW...)

I've also started going to the SKMC Baptism Class with a view of getting baptised this Christmas and officially be a member of SKMC. Maybe I am at this moment not yet ready to get baptised but I feel that it's something I need to do. To show that I am willing to take the step for Christ, for God's will to be worked through my life. Not only that, of course. There's also the spiritual side of things, a way of cleansing, repentance and regeneration. I find it, in a way, pleasantly surprising, the way God works. Everything started last March(?) when there was an opportunity for me to go to HKMC's baptism class. I am really assured in the way it comes sort of full circle, for me to be baptised in SKMC. Just as a side note, it's good to know that I won't be the only 'young' person there as there's Sebastian, Angela, Wan Zhen and Daniel to accompany me on this 'journey'. I thank God for that.

My CG was given the news last week that Sandar may not be our ACL any more as Sally plans to re-shuffle our current Cell Group arrangement. How Sally plans to re-shuffle the CGs I don't know but if it really turns out that Sandar will leave our CG, be assured that we will all miss you Sandar. Despite half the Cell's tears of joy at the news of your possible departure, know that we will all miss you...especially me (;-P).

A short anime update for all you anime fans out there. The subbed version of Mai Otome is out. Being a sort of sequel to Mai HiME (Basically the only things which have been brought over from Mai HiME are some of the characters, everything else, including the storyline is completely different), I was really looking forward to it. Especially my favorite character, Natsuki. Blood+, the prequel(?) to 2000's Blood - The Last Vampire has taken over GSD's timeslot. Honestly, I am not really looking forward to this anime, even though people say that it's a lot better than GSD. I guess vampire animes don't really suit my taste.

PS: Haha, sorry I forgot about your Birthday...anyways, Happy Belated Birthday to Jia Wei!!

2005-10-06T22:49:00.000+08:00

Never will I leave you, never will I forsake you...

Song of the moment: See-Saw - Kimi Wa Boku Ni Niteru (Gundam SEED Destiny 4th ED)

nani mo shiranai hou ga shiawase to iu kedo
boku wa kitto manzokushinai hazu dakara
utsuro ni yokotowaru yoru demo
boku ga eranda ima wo ikitai sore dake

kimi no hayasa wa boki ni niteiru
hadome no ki ga nakunaru sora ga kowakunatte
boku wa itsumade ganbareba ii no
futari nara owaraseru koto ga dekiru

(To know nothing may be happiness
But I know I surely won't be satisfied with that
Even though the night may stretch out infinitely
I only wish to live the path I've chosen

Your speed resembles mine
Losing the will to stop, I become fearful of the sky
When can I stop working hard?
If it were the two of us, we can end it)
Kimi Wa Boku Ni Niteru by See-Saw

^_^ The holidays have finally started for me!! (Loud cheers and confetti in background) My attachment at NCS Pte. Ltd has finally ended on a somewhat okay note (My supervisor gave my attachment group one box of Ferrero Rocher's each, although there might be a reason to that...) and I've received my pay from the company (My Cell Group stares at me with puppy dog eyes and tails wagging, begging me to treat them to Sakae Sushi for cell out). Hopefully, should I ever return there, I'll be the person who owns the building, lol.

Thus, my post-attachment/pre-study semester program begins. Throughout the last semester, I've been mentally compiling a list of things to do during this 5 week period. So, to satisfy the curiosity of the masses (namely anyone who's reading this), I shall post the current (as of 10:30PM, Singapore Time on the 6th of October) list of things which I wish to achieve during this holidays.

Anthony's List of stuff to achieve during the holidays (in no particular order)

1) Complete PokÃ©mon Leaf Green
2) Complete Final Fantasy 1
3) Build Gundam models - Destiny Gundam and Strike Rouge MG ver. (or at least complete Destiny, if not both)
4) Purchase 1/100 Blaze Zaku Phantom (Rey Za Burrel Custom) Model from Sunshine Plaza/anywhere which sells cheap ORIGINAL models
4) Play Final Fantasy VII and complete it before I graduate from NYP
5) Play Star Ocean: Till the End of Time and complete it before I graduate from NYP
6) Start going for daily jogs/exercise to prepare for NS
7) Watch a lot of VCDs/DVDs during holidays
8) Register at SSDC (Singapore Safety Driving Center) and hopefully get my Class 3/3A(?) license before I go into NS

This list might continually change throughout this holiday period depending on various circumstances so do keep a lookout for any changes. At the end of the holiday (if I remember), I'll once again review the list and see what I have achieved throughout the holidays. How nice, its been so long since I did something like this...

Anyways, I've started building Destiny. Completed the head and the chest. All that's left is the torso, the two arms and legs and whatever weaponry which belongs to Destiny, which is actually quite a bit. I'll post updates of my progress in building this model and any problems which I feel that you guys can help me with in this blog. Also went to play badminton with a couple of my classmates (SJ, Jon, Kris, Jodi, Winnie, Feli, Ryan and SF) in school (Or rather it was actually 8 people - 1 since Feli didn't play). Started out alright (my serve is still horrible though) but the fact that strenuous physical activity is not a part of my life really showed halfway through (Another reason for list item no. 6). My left arm feels a bit funny now due to the above strenuous activity. Hopefully it won't be too sore tomorrow morning.

Just about an hour ago, I finished watching the last episode of Gundam SEED Destiny. The ending was somewhat predictable though I was hoping that one of the major female characters (other than the villan and his subordinates) to join the list of deceased people in the show (Clue: Definitely NOT Cagalli). Nonetheless, the action scenes didn't let me down except that a lot of the Gundams (Basically big big robots with cooler weapons and designs than the 'cannon fodder'. Just FYI) were destroyed/incapacitated in this last episode (actually, I should have expected this considering the last episode of SEED also had a lot of destroyed Gundams). Now waiting for the next series in the Gundam universe...maybe a 'Gundam SEED: Shinn's Counterattack' ? Who knows...

There's no point in writing what won't be read or saying what will fall on deaf ears...just give up what was never meant to be...

2005-09-28T21:43:00.000+08:00

What memories are made of...

Song of the moment: Do As Infinity - Shinjitsu No Uta (Inuyasha 5th ED)

akaku nijimu taiyou wa subete o
terashite kita ima mo mukashi mo
kono yuuyami ni egaiteru souzou wa
hatashite kono te ni oenai mono na no ka?

motto ima ijou ni hadaka ni natte
ikite yuku jutsu oshiete yo
honno sukoshi dake watashi o yogoshite
sou yatte hitori kizutsuitari
mawari o nakushita to shite mo
shinjitsu no uta wa kono mune ni nagare

(The crimson-stained sun
has illuminated everything; now and the past
is what i have imagined within this twilight
more than my own hands can accomplish?

Please teach me how to live
a little more vulnerably than i do now
won't you taint me just a little?
that way, even if i get hurt
and lose everything around me
this song of truth will flow through my heart)
Shinjitsu No Uta by DAI

Gee, I've been listening to quite a lot of 'emo' songs recently. Maybe I am starting to reminisce about the 'good old days' or something...

Anyways, the 'grand finale' is approaching. This is my final week of attachment in NCS Pte Ltd. Strangely, this seems to be one of our busiest weeks throughout my IA group's entire stay in this company. I guess in a way I can understand that they want us to finish what we are currently doing so that they can find new ~~ways to torture~~ jobs for the next batch of IA Students...good luck to them, whoever you are...

I will also be doing one final run down to Cantonment tomorrow to deliver training materials. Coincidentally, I'll be having Cell on that day because quite a few people will be busy on Friday so its been moved up to Thursday. Maybe it's God's way of making things convenient for me? ^_^ Also, Sandar will be leading cell tomorrow for Sally to observe. In a way, its partially my fault for putting her in that situation as it was I who beat her in SPS (Scissors, Paper, Stone) for the right to choose who would lead cell for this week. If it wasn't her(as ACL), it would have been me(as...???). Anyways, the next time this happens, it would be me so I guess it's fair. Besides, I lack the experience...(Prepares to leech EXP points by observing...[Lol, I've been playing too many RPGs...])

Cell was as usual, with Sebastian's voice being the dominant voice in the room of course. On Saturday, Lena did the sermon and gave out lots of candy and crackers to those who answered questions/volunteered their ideas, much to the joy of Sidney, who didn't eat much(actually, I think he didn't eat anything...) for dinner. On Sunday, SS was combined with, as Samuel has 'affectionately' named them, 'The Rejects' (basically, Sebastian/Yew Seng/Jia Wei's class). Thus, SS last week was more...boisterous than usual. Then, after I got home, got to watch FF7: Advent Children's DVD rip on the PC. It was a really nice show, though having not completed FF7, still don't really understand certain aspects of the show. So, one of my targets for next month's holiday, to complete Final Fantasy VII!. Note: Tifa finally looks more proportionate in the movie...oh, and Yuffie's rather cute too...

What memories are made of...a combination of time, everyone's feelings...and a little part of our heart, perhaps? Only when we disassociate these memories from our hearts, then can we truly forget...

PS: Happy Belated Birthday to Sandar and JY!!!

2005-09-21T21:18:00.000+08:00

The look in your eyes...

Song of the moment: Rick Price - Heaven Knows

She's always on my mind
From the time I wake up 'til I close my eyes
She's everywhere I go
She's all I know

And though she's so far away
It just keeps gettin' stronger everyday
And even now she's gone
I'm still holding on
So tell me where do I start
'Cause it's breaking my heart
Don't wanna let her go
Heaven Knows by Rick Price

Got this song from MJ quite awhile ago. Considering he gave it to me, that's not considered stealing right? ^_^
Anyways, I am down to my second last week of attachment and soon, we NYP students, will be free from the bondage that is NCS....LOL. Honestly, working at NCS isn't really that bad, considering it has a pretty nice environment, cool air-conditioning (sometimes, too COLD) and that we attachment students have a nice little room to ourselves. It's just that our work is horribly monotonous and we have a certain supervisor who keeps throwing us stuff to do. Even if they were to offer me double the pay to continue our work through the holidays, I would probably turn down the offer (No, not even three times...for four times ($500 x 4 = $2000), as Takuya Kimura says in Pride, 'Maybe...'). However, I probably will be going down to Cantonment again on Friday, so if YX or anyone else wants to meet up, you are more than welcome to.

Friday's cell was as per usual, though Mom was in church because of Dr. Neil Anderson's seminar about Discipleship. I also found out that I wasn't the only Anime/Final Fantasy guy in church. Apparently Jia Wei and Yue Seng both had already watched the DVD rip of the Advent Children movie and Jia Wei was also a fan of Gundam Wing. Looks like the Anime King finally has some disciples, LOL. FFW on Saturday went without a hitch, with my powerpoint skills nearing perfection. Reverend Chua was preaching for FFw though. So it was interesting to hear an FFW sermon in Chinese for once (Though I got C6 for my 'O's, I understood the message throughout. Shows how my listening skills have improved since those days in ACSBR). Then on Sunday, our SS class was merged for that day with Sally's class because she wasn't free(?). Rather nice to have the other half of my cell in SS again.

Currently, I am downloading FFVII: Advent Children (2CD Ver.) onto my computer(now at 24.7%). I am probably ome of the few 'Anime' guys/gals from my school who hasn't watched it yet. I guess I am a very picky person when it comes to the video quality of the anime/movie/show that I am downloading. Of course, my 'picky-ness' will depend on what show and for what reason am I watching it. Stuff like these are worth downloading the 2CD version for its quality and then buying the DVD when it releases. (Ironically, I've never finished playing FF7...)

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Since it's a little short, I'll 'bulk' it up by blogging down a list of anime and their respective fansubbers, which I am ACTIVELY following...just for the fun of it.

1) Naruto - Dattebayo Fansubs
Naruto is showing really crappy fillers now, and their still going to show another filler arc from the next episode onwards. How the mighty have fallen...Kakashi gaiden please come ASAP...

2) Gundam SEED Destiny - SEED Fansubs
GSD is nearing its end (Ep 48 of 50 was released last Saturday, though SEED Fansubs have yet to release it...). Probably won't see much of Cagalli(Sobs...) as she's decided to focus on running ORB for now. There's still much Gundam fighting to look forward to (I predict a Destiny vs. Justice and Freedon & Akatsuki vs. Legend finale) and also quite a few more twists, perhaps? Hopefully the ending won't be over-dramatic and predictable.

3) Eureka 7 - Nanashi Fansubs
I am wondering why none of you buggers are watching this. This anime (produced by Sunrise/Bandai, owners of Gundam) is really brilliant stuff. Engaging storyline, lots of twists and turns, brilliant Mecha action scenes...what more can you ask for?

4) Speed Grapher - Shinsen Fansubs
One of the more violent animes this season. At least they don't overkill it like they do in Ichi the Killer(which was really disgusting, stopped watching after the first CD...). Action scenes are pretty good and the storyline is developing well. Watch it if you have the time...

5) Full Metal Panic! The Second Raid - Anime Kingdom and AnimeOne Fansubs
Patiently waiting for the above subbers to release episode 5 when the rest have already released episode 8. My patience is running out though... If you like FMP! anime and novels, you'll definitely like this. Go for it!

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The look in your eyes...I don't know what to think about it. Hope...a chance, maybe? Or am I just thinking too much...I'll let God decides if he wants to give me this chance or not.

2005-09-14T21:58:00.000+08:00

The one perspective, the right perspective...

Song of the moment: Lifehouse - We'll Never Know

Failure is the only way to learn till you've come undone
The rest we'll never find out what they might have been

And we're not gonna live forever
Can you tell me is it now or never
I'm not gonna make up your mind
I don't wanna live without you and I don't wanna live a lie
We'll never know till we try
Yeah we'll never know till we try
We'll Never Know by Lifehouse

Last Saturday's FFW had Pastor Lek as speaker and his sermon about learning and growing from our disappointments really hit the spot for me (and probably for a lot of my friends too, we're they there on that day). It got me thinking about everything that has happened to me and those around me in the past 12 months. There will be times when we will be disappointed in God when things don't turn out the way we want them. The only way that we can truly move on from these hurts is when we look at things from God's perspective and realize that when we feel hurt, God feels hurt too. We always have to remember to trust in God's plans to give us a hope and a future. Even though we always think we know better, we have to remember that his plans are to prosper and not to harm us. When it seems so hard to live...we must have faith...
(As a side note, the powerpoint slide for worship went smoothly save for a slight delay when they started singing 'Give us Clean Hands'... ^_^)

Industrial Attachment is starting to get really busy now. My supervisor wants our group to start on the CBT(Computer Based Training) program for the project. While we won't be doing the actual programming of the project, we'll still be doing the storyboards for it. Then, there's still photocopying, binding and the cutting of training materials and data sheets to be done and the HTML pages for Alex. I CAN'T wait for 30th September (End of IA)....

There wasn't any cell last Friday because it was a sort of briefing session for Sunday's prayer walk. Everything went alright, though Sandar was a little late. Sunday's prayer walk had a slight complication when it came to the pairings because quite a few people didn't come. My pairing switched from Yue Seng to Agnes then to Sandar then to Pauline before strangely ending up once again with Yue Seng when it came to the actual flyer distribution/prayer walk. God's plan, perhaps? Anyways, things went well throughout the prayer walk/flyer distribution, though the weather was a little(well actually it wasn't just 'a little', it was rather warm) on the warm side (seeing that it was around 12 noon when we reached our assigned blocks, it was kind of expected...).

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FIVE QUEER HABITS

Now, you all might think, "What 'FIVE QUEER HABITS'?" or "Gasp...do you mean you are QUEER(gay)?". Honestly, this is due to my good friend Natalie selecting for this rather interesting 'survey' of sorts. Since I am too lazy to write my own instructions, I'll just 'borrow' them from Nat's blog.
Nat: (ps: Just in case any of you don't understand, this is what you should do(in order). 1. Explain in your entry why you are doing this. 2. Blog down your 5 queer habits. 3. Choose your 5 victims and then tag your victims with "You Have Been Picked!" in their blogs.)
This got me thinking, do I have any queer habits to speak of? Honestly, I've always thought everything I did was normal (There will of course be people who dispute this statement...). Nonetheless, I shall entertain my 'fans' and write down whatever comes to my hopefully intellectually superior mind (LoL)...

1) I am absolutely not photogenic.
Well, is this considered a habit? I don't think Nat's 'I have sixth sense' is considered a habit so I'll just put this down. Anyways, I notice that I look ugly in like 80% of the photos which I am in. Somehow cameras just can't project my good side...(of course, I have a good side! Bleah!) Maybe I just think too much because....

2) I am a bit of a paranoid person.
No, Nat, I am not copying your 'Sixth sense'. Just mentioning the truth. This is probably due to an embarrassing event which happened to me a couple of years ago which, of course, I WILL NOT MENTION. I am very self-conscious about how I project myself in public and this leads to....

3) I will never leave the house until I consider my hair to be perfectly styled.
I just feel that the hair is the most important thing when it comes to projecting yourself in public, even ahead of what clothes I wear outside. Most likely due to this hairstyle which I keep...and that I am usually too lazy to bother to go and cut it. (PS: No hair is a BIG NO NO! So don't bother asking me to shave it or keep it short)

4) I always look out for good formatting.
Just as Nat always looks out for other people's spelling and tenses, I look out for paragraphing. I absolutely CANNOT bear to read a block of words, no matter how well written it is, if it's not paragraphed properly. So please, paragraph your text with precision and accuracy...

5) I am a indecisive/picky person.
Everytime, before I buy anything worth above $40, I would have at least done a bit of research on the thing which I am about to purchase. Still, due to variety of choices available and aggressive marketing techniques, I still find myself unsure of my purchasing decisions. Since I am a somewhat impatient person when it comes to certain things, I tend to just buy it just to get it over with. This sometimes leads to me regretting what I just bought when I finally get home and take a closer look at the product.

There, done! 5 (Queer/Not so queer/normal/those are not habits!) habits. Hope you guys are happy now...BLEAH!

Now the five people I've gladly chosen to continue this somewhat irrelevant and boring activity are (You know, I suddenly realized how so many of my blog friends have no #%$*% tag board)...
1) Cari Ann
2) Hue Min
3) Jia Wei
4) Kenneth the Kow
5) Ming Jing

Soon, you people will receive a highly irrelevant message on your tag boards informing you that you are chosen for this highly irrelevant activity...

2005-09-08T21:16:00.000+08:00

To live with Pride...that is my Way

Song of the moment: Queen - I Was Born to Love You (Pride TV Drama OP)

I was born to love you
With every single beat of my heart
Yes, I was born to take care of you
Every single day of my life

You are the one for me
I am the man for you
You were made for me
You're my ecstasy
If I was given every opportunity
I'd kill for your love
I Was Born to Love You by Queen

Haven't been in much of a blogging mood in recent weeks. Most probably due to my being bogged down with work and the monotony of office life. However, due to my ever-growing fanbase (At least I think it is growing...if the fanbase really does exist...), I shall try my best to satisfy my fans' growing hunger for my blog updates. (^_^)

As some might already know from my 'Song of the moment', I've started watching a J-Drama called Pride. It stars Takuya Kimura-san as the captain of a Japanese ice hockey team, the Blue Scorpions, who treats ice hockey seriously but treats romance like a game. The first episode seems rather interesting so I'll continue watching for now. Admittedly, the reason I started watching in the first place was because of my respect for Takuya Kimura as an accomplished singer/actor. So far, Kimura-san has not let me down...

Attachment has been the usual. Mass photocopying and binding, then Alex wants me to redo a couple of the HTML pages I edited for him. Just have to ren for 3 weeks ++ before my break comes and I can finally begin building Destiny...

Last Friday was SKMC's anniversary dinner held in the church itself. Quite a few VIPs were there, like the various representatives from the schools in Sengkang, their local MP and a few of the CAC leaders were also in attendance (Samuel Liew's dad being one of them). I was sitting with Jia Zhi, Zhao Yong, Ken and a bunch of other people whom I didn't know really well(;-P). The food there was alright, especially since they had my favorite dish, Fried Prawns with Oats or whatever you call it since I can't remember the name. Highlight of the evening was probably the final performance by the kids from the children church and the youths. My mom was the choreographer for the dance(^_^) and was a little worried when a couple of them went out of sync for awhile but I thought it was good. My brother, Andy and a couple of the youths from my CG, like Sandar, Einstein and Sebastian were also involved (Good job, people!). Took a couple of pictures during the performance, might let you see them if you beg me enough for it(just message me lah...). A warning though, my photographing skills aren't exactly professional.
Then there was no FFW last Saturday, so I took a break by slacking at home, even though I was supposed to go to QCMC for aWe...(Sorry...).

Met Jon and Kris after church to go to Comex at Suntec. I was really hoping the price of Sony's Memory Sticks will drop but the cheapest I could find was $68 (if I remember correctly) for 512MB by a third-party maker. So, I left with just 100 Fullmark CD-Rs and a USB Bluetooth adapter. (Total Damage: $42)
Jon bought a Zen Micro for himself on Saturday only to find out that the price dropped by $40 on Sunday. Nonetheless, he bought another one for his mom as she wanted one(Total Damage: $700++) while Kris bought himself a nice new I-Trigue 3400 from Creative and 50 CD-Rs. (Total Damage: $140+-)
Obviously, I ended up being the person who suffered the least damage, probably due to the fact that I am more guarded when it comes to spending money on somewhat frivolous stuff which I don't really need. (Don't worry, when it comes to my GF, should I ever get one, I'll spend considerably more...LOL)

Finished Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince. A really good book in my opinion, but still falls a little short of the standard set by Prisoner of Azkaban. As expected, Harry breaks up with Ginny in an effort to make sure no one else he cares about will get killed again. Now, all that's left is the penultimate book in the series...(Harry/Ginny shippers, don't give up...Rowling will do the right thing...)

To end it off, let me just say that, chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi (When the boat reaches the dock, it'll dock straight)...God will guide us...
To live with Pride...that is my Way

2005-09-01T22:27:00.000+08:00

Normality, somewhere between a fantasy and a nightmare...

Song of the moment: Mikuni Shimokawa - Minamikaze(Full Metal Panic: TSR OP theme)

Once again, normality has settled into my life...in the end, it's just a job to earn a little more pocket money and get a bit more experience of working life. Although it was rather relaxed for the first couple of days, today was photocopying and binding all the way during work. At least it isn't as boring anymore...but I still miss leveling up my characters in FF1...

My church has started a 'combined CG' kind of thing on certain week to facilitate in the preparation for my church's DOC (Days of Outreach and Celebration), where as it says, we do outreach to the community in various ways. Last week's combined cell was training for us youths on how to reach out to non-Christians, done by people from Youth For Christ. Rather interesting, rope tricks and hand gestures with a biblical message in them.
Really screwed up last Saturday for the powerpoint slides. Still haven't really got used to the flow of the music team but I managed to get some kind of continuity when showing the slides, thankfully. Dinner there was good though, fish cake porridge with hot dogs and toast(sounds more like breakfast, doesn't it?). I am still nowhere near done with setting up the computers in Bay for public use. I haven't found the time to go down and start setting it up proper.

Met up with SJ and Jon after Church to do some birthday shopping for two of my classmates(Happy Birthday, KT and Winnie!). Once again, more of my hard earned(or rather, not-so-hard earned) cash goes to buying presents. I also found out SJ's little secret...all I have to say is, "Be a man...do the right thing!!". LOL...just cheer up, you'll find the ONE eventually.
(Anyways, just to give my two classmates a clue, your present are from Perlini's...also Russell Peters is supposedly coming to Singapore on the 12th of October, anyone got info? Let's all buy the tickets together! Otherwise, Somebody gonna get a hurt real bad... )

Now, I have read up till Chapter 30 (a.k.a the final chapter) of HBP, 'The White Tomb'. Dumbledore's killer, while not unexpected, still came as somewhat of a surprise to me. Also, the Half-Blood Price has also been revealed to us. His true was more of a surprise to me as throughout the book, none of the 'clues' ever pointed to him. I expect Chapter 30 to have Harry closing himself emotionally to prepare himself for his showdown against Lord Voldemort. Guess we all must have faith in Rowling to continue to give us readers fanservice and yet stay true to her vision for Harry Potter. You might wonder, is there any fanservice at all in Harry Potter? Some people may not think so, but I feel that the Remus/Tonks relationship was more fanservice than Rowling's plot. Just a personal opinion so don't flame me too much...

There are times, we feel that we have the right to choose how we want to run our lives and it is so hard to stick to God's plans for us. In the end, FAITH makes all the difference...FAITH in what we cannot see or feel, FAITH in what we cannot understand...

2005-08-24T23:01:00.000+08:00

Thank You, God...for giving me all I wanted

Song of the moment: Hillsongs - One Way

I lay my life down at your feet
You're the only one I need
I turn to you and you are always there

In troubled times its you I seek
I put you first thats all I need
I humble all I am, All to you

One way
Jesus
You're the only one that I could live for
One Way
Jesus
You're the only one that I could live for
One Way by Hillsongs

Feel a lot better compared to last week. This is, of course, due to many reasons. One of the major reasons being that last Monday, the 22nd of August, was my Birthday! Thank you to all who took the time to wish me a happy birthday and more thanks to those who bought/gave me gifts. (^_^) Also, to all those who never wished me a Happy Birthday, I forgive you...LOL.

Attachment is still horribly monotonous, whether I am busy or not. It's still either HTML editing/endless photocopying of training manuals or just stoning/surfing the net/playing games in the office. At least its not that bad when I am playing GBA games in the emulator I just downloaded or trying to reach level 9 of Bejeweled 2...LOL. Thankfully, our supervisors have not really been in the office for the past few days as they're still training our Men-in-Blue how to use the software. So, our group, (or at least Farhan and I, as it seems that Jacob, Selina and Sharon seem strangely hardworking...), has been taking it slow for the past couple of days. 5 and a 1/2 more weeks of monotony to go before the holidays...Gambaruyo!!

Cell was kind of missing a couple of people last Friday. Only Sebastian, Jia Wei, Sandar, Regina and I were there for Cell (Keith, our cell leader, was also there of course). Then, last Saturday, was my first time doing the slides for worship during FFW and although it started well, I kind of screwed up towards the end as I mis-typed one of the slides for the song, 'Father of Creation'...sorry people (T_T). I will try my best to improve this coming Saturday! FFW was fun nonetheless. Especially with Sebastian up to his usual antics. I also found out that something like 3/4 of the Youth know about what is now dubbed the 'Stranger' incident (Look back at my blog's July 12th entry to have a very short summary of the incident). Sandar was like, of course, begging everyone(including me, the 'Stranger') who knew about it not to say a single word to those who didn't. I wasn't surprised events like this spread like the Haze, especially with people like Keith and Sebastian in my CG. Don't worry Sandar, I didn't tell anyone about it...except Jowell, who might tell...

I went back to HKMC last Sunday to supposedly settle some stuff. As it turns out, the only stuff there is for me to settle is to collect my birthday gifts from both Melvin and Auntie Lay Kim. I thought that someone there will like start a long discussion about how I was doing in SKMC. Apparently, I was quite wrong...not that it was a wasted trip or anything, of course.

Now, an update about HBP. I am now up to chapter 26, The Cave, where Dumbledore takes Harry along with him to destroy one of Voldemort's Hocruxes (for a more in depth explanation, just read the book... :-P). Also, as it turns out, I was right about chapter 22 being a crucial part in Character/Relationship development as it triggers a chain of events where Ginny breaks up with Dean and eventually starts dating Harry in chapter 25. Hooray for all H/G shippers!! Muggles should start reading it too...(in Yoda-like accent) a brilliant piece of literature, Harry Potter is...

I really appreciate everyone who took the time and effort to wish me a Happy Birthday. Many more thanks to those who gave me gifts, be it material items or not so material ones...
Don't say you don't deserve it. I've never regretted getting to know you. You are a great person in every way and you deserve more than I could ever give. I sincerely hope that you'll also find your own happiness. Once again, may God bless you in all your endeavors, both present and future.

Thank you for everything...

2005-08-17T23:15:00.000+08:00

When hopes and dreams disappoint...

Song of the moment: 王力宏 (Wang Lee Hom) - 爱错 (Ai Cuo)

翻开回忆角落完美的生活
以为幸福都可以掌握
仔细回味当初那个故事背后
Oh 原来是我犯下从没承认的错

我从来没想过我会这样做
从来没爱过所以爱错
我从哪里起飞从哪里降落
多少不能原谅的错却不能重来过

(Remembering the past, a perfect life
When I thought happiness was in my grasp
Carefully recollecting our story's end
Oh it was me who made a mistake I never admitted

I never thought that I would do that
Never having loved before, I loved you wrongly
No matter where I take off or where I land
This unforgivable mistake with no second chance)
Ai Cuo by Wang Lee Hom
I couldn't find a translation for this so I did it myself...Hope its accurate enough for those Wang Lee Hom fanatics...I actually bothered to put the lyrics was because this song really touched on how I've felt...

This isn't really the best of days for me...felt kind of gloomy the past few days...for reasons I won't reveal here. Well, at least not directly... Those who know me well enough should be able to guess (Keyword: SHOULD). If you can't guess, then maybe you don't know me well enough...LOL, just kidding. As most of you might know I am kind of a 'emo'(emotional) person so just bear with me as you read through this sometimes horribly angsty, sometimes excruciatingly joyful blog...

As per normal, I'll start off with an assessment of my current week of Industrial Attachment, which happens to be week 5. Last few days, we have been doing work given to us by Alex. It's basically HTML editing on a mass scale, thankfully shared among the group. It's still pretty easy, updating the screenshots with newer ones from the current version and playing around with various tags like mouse-over etc... However, we'll all be resuming our work as 'Paper Technologists' (Read previous entry for explanation) soon as our dear Men-in-Blue require 230++ copies of training materials and its up to us to save the day...sigh.
Something I forgot to mention last week is that I might have a chance to visit PCC (Stop thinking too much, you perverts...) otherwise known as Police Cantonment Complex where my good friend YX (is not/might/may/probably is/probably isn't - To YX, please choose the correct option) hanging out at! So if it happens that my boss requests us to go there to help with the CBT, then (look forward to/cringe at the thought of) hanging out with me!

Cell was as usual last Friday. Everyone came with the exception of Ming Kiat (I think...). I helped ta pao(takeaway) for me and my mom but was a little late thanks to Sengkang's (and Bus 86...) amazingly efficient bus route system. Nonetheless, she managed to have a decent, if not somewhat hurried meal. I also handed in an article about D'Anchor which I owe Sally (Oh, I sympathize with writers who work without any reward except persecution, LOL. But still because of this...). She also sat in for observation during my CG but that clearly didn't stop Sebastian from adding some life into CG.
I've also been assigned to do the Powerpoint slides for the next FFW (all are invited, every Saturday, 7PM in SKMC Room 3-1!!). All thanks to Deborah, who is 'retiring' due to 'O' levels and Jamie, who took this opportunity to indirectly recruit me into the Communication team(Basically, from what I've been told, the Publicity and IT people). This basically means I have to arrive early with the Music team to go through the slides etc... Thus, my weekend is reduced to Saturday mornings and Sunday late afternoon/evening. The things we sacrifice to serve God...I'll gladly give (just give me some R&R time, OK God? ^_^).

I am now up to Chapter 22 of HBP, 'After the Burial'. Harry, in order to get a crucial memory about Voldemort from Professor Slughorn, drinks a little of his precious bottle of Felix Felicis and decides to take 'fate' into his own hands...
Probably(haven't finished the chapter yet...) a crucial part in Character/Relationship development in HBP. Really REALLY looking forward to how it(Oh...you know...IT...) turns out.

I still haven't gave Melvin an answer about going back to HKMC this Sunday. I honestly thought I knew my answer at the beginning of this week but as the week went on, I started having second thoughts. One of the reasons(not the main one) I left HKMC was honestly because I was tired of waiting, waiting for an opportunity to prove myself. To be given an opportunity I thought I deserved. Now, I probably know that this opportunity will never be given to me. I fear that, if I go back I'll just keep hoping, waiting for the opportunity to come once again, all because I keep looking back.
I am disappointed in myself...
I've read MJ's blog recently and what he has said is right. Instead of looking back, hoping and dreaming about something which will never come, we should look back and learn from our mistakes. Learn from it and at the same time, look forward to the next person God will want you to meet... People(incld. myself) constantly blame God when things don't go according to plan, but have they ever thought that their plan is not God's plan? God has allowed our plan to fail so that his might succeed. No matter how disappointed we are of our failures, remember "'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'" (Jeremiah 29:11, NIV)

When hopes and dreams serve no purpose but to disappoint
When fantasies and desires hold no ground in life
What then, can one do to live again?

2005-08-11T21:15:00.000+08:00

Oddly contented but yet...not really

Song of the moment: T.M Revolution - Vestige (Gundam SEED Destiny Strike Freedom Image Song)

As my heading says, today I feel oddly contented, even though I know nothing has really happened to make me feel this way. Thus, I feel somewhat perplexed by my light-heartedness. Although of course, it could be because...

So anyway, putting aside my now not-so-perplexing feelings of contentment, I would like to wish Cari Ann Seet a very happy 17th Birthday. I sincerely hope that you like the present I got you. Initially, I had no idea what I should buy for your birthday but when I saw that gift, I thought it'll be perfect (Of course, whether it's really perfect, only you truly know...). I hope that your future birthdays will be even better than this one.
Also, 9th of August was also Singapore's birthday a.k.a National Day. So, I wish Singapore a happy 40th birthday.

I am now into my fourth week of attachment. It's still been mainly photocopying and binding for me and Farhan (our job, as Farhan affectionately calls it, is 'Paper Technologists'). Not that I am complaining of course...though I am hoping that they'll stop asking us to do it at the last minute. It s kind of weird, having 2-3 days of nothing to do and suddenly having to do a rush photocopying job the next day. However, I did do some HTML editing on Monday (or rather, Jacob asked me to help him with it...). Whether, we'll do 'real' work, I guess I'll find out sooner or later.

Last Friday's cell...well, there wasn't any cell last Friday. So went home early for a bit of R&R (Anime, gaming, anime, gaming...). I know a couple of my cell members went for Festival of Praise however I didn't go. Mainly because I was a little lazy (:-P) and the earliest I'll reach there without taking a taxi would be 1800Hrs. Can you imagine what the crowd would be like, especially with Delirious and Hillsongs there. Anyways, tomorrow's CG will probably be in church again. So I'll probably make my way down straight from work or home, depending on the time and circumstances.

Last Saturday happened to be the first session for FastForward a.k.a FFW, which is D'Anchor's Saturday worship and prayer session held in Church. Though not many people came for FFW (my whole CG was there though, with the exception of Sandar and Regina), it was still pretty fun. The worship and prayer was really helpful and eye-opening in a sense. Reverend Lek was our speaker for that session too. After the sermon, there was cake and sparkling fruit juice which everyone tried to pass off as Champagne to eat and drink.
It's held every Saturday in SKMC, so everyone and anyone (provided you 'think' you're a youth...LOL) whether you're Christian or not, is invited to come and join in the fun. ^_^

Keith came to talk to me after Sunday school about my service in church. Actually it was more like him informing me about what my future responsibilities in D'Anchor. I was to be groomed to be a future CG leader (this I already know, since my mom had given me the heads up on this and Keith told me about this last month) and (drum roll, please...) a future Youth Sunday school teacher together with Sandar. My mom did tell me about this sometime ago but I didn't really take it seriously. After all, I will be going into NS about a year from now so I thought, how will I have the time to teach the youths? Well, apparently Sally and Keith thinks otherwise, so me and Sandar will be Keith's Tu Di(Disciples). I'll also be taking over the Sunday pre-SS activities (since worship is now on Saturdays as stated above) for every fourth Sunday of the 2nd month (25th September being our first). Looks like I've got lots to look forward to, huh?
I also got a rather unexpected early birthday present from my Mom. Considering my interests in the past couple of months, you should know if it's not a game, it's a Gundam model kit. Indeed, not only is my early birthday present a Gundam model kit, its also my VERY FIRST MG(Master Grade) kit. For those of you who might not know, MG is the 2nd highest 'Grade' you can get for a Gundam model kit (the highest being PG(Perfect Grade), usually the biggest(1/60 scale), the most detailed, difficult to build and it costs a bomb (a PG Strike Gundam costs $200++)). It's a MG Strike Rouge (those of you who watch either of the Gundam SEED series should know). I'll probably start working on it earliest after my attachment.

As I've mentioned near the beginning of my post, 9th of August is National Day in Singapore. So, to revel in the usually non-existent patriotic frevor (only happens on National Day or when our country's sports team/person reaches the latter stages of an international tournament), my family and I decided to make our way down to Yishun to join in the Celebration@Heartlands activities there. We got so-called VIP tickets (basically we had seats and the usual NDP 'goodies' backpack) which required us to wear white and be part of a Singapore 'flag' together with other people. When we were finally ushered into the seating area (after much confusion), we saw a couple of people from Church (got our tickets from church, so...), including Reverend Lek and family. Throughout the viewing of the National Day Parade on the 'giant LED screens' (that's what they call it anyway...), there were synchronized activities with the Padang (the usual Kallang/Singapore/Mexican wave (depending on where you're from), tambourine banging etc...) and also various live entertainment (Yoyo-ers from some group, song singing from teenage idols and a laughter therapist to name a few). I didn't really catch on to the patriotic fervor which other people (especially the people from the 'red' half) reveled in. Still, I somewhat enjoyed my time there and took quite a few pictures (which I may or may not post on imageshack). Probably the only disappointment I had was my failure to take any pictures of HK pop group Twins since I left early...ARGH!

I've read till the end of Chapter 18, 'Birthday Surprises', where Ron gets poisoned after drinking some Mead given by Professor Slughorn. Half-Blood Prince at this point is really starting to pick up some pace now in terms of plot development. Looking forward to more of HBP soon...

As a sort of side note, I'll be going to Hong Kong from December 1st to the 6th. So, you might or might not want to start asking me to help you buy the horribly cheap stuff there. Depending on what you are asking me to help you buy, I also might or might not agree to your request. In the end, might or might not, just ask, okay (^_^)?

Oddly contented but yet...not really...I am at ease,its good to see you smile again...

2005-08-04T17:00:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, it's just the thought that counts...

Song of the moment: Lifehouse - Blind

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like is was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
Blind by Lifehouse

A somewhat late entry this week. For reasons I find somewhat embarassing so I won't mention it here...

Third week of attachment. I really am beginning to notice that they have a habit of asking us to photocopy stuff at the last minute. Hopefully with Yuen Shiong, our supervisor, now having Farhan (One of my fellow NYP interns) mobile number, things will run more smoothly. Anyways, Alex has assigned us to do error checking for the Online Help of the Case Management System, whis is rather unfortunately, very draggy and tedious. Let's hope that we'll get this over with soon enough.

Friday's cell-out was kind of fun. I was a little early when I reached there and found out that our cell-out was held together with Jessica's CG (well, I think it's her cell anyway...), so a couple of people like Issac and Samuel (who happens to be my junior in MIT) were there. Since Jessica and Keith weren't there yet, we were all kind of running around, having fun and enjoying the atmosphere. Sebastian, Einstein and Jia Wei (To be honest, I have no idea who really started it...) had this real mature idea of locking a couple of the girls out of the room and for some inexplicable idea, I guess most of the other guys joined in the fun. It was Sandar and Regina who were the main victims (Well, its not that I didn't want to help you Sandar...).
After Keith and Jessica arrived and when things had settled down (after more 'Mature' behaviour from Sandar and Sebastian), we all started watching Inuyasha: Feelings that trancend time DVD (of course, it was my DVD... ^_^). Really glad to see that everyone enjoyed themselves. Besides, I've got to build my reputation as SKMC's Anime-king...LOL! So if anyone needs anime, you all know who to look for...
Keith might be bringing us to Festival of Praise tomorrow instead of having cell in church. I don't really have any preference so we'll see how that goes...

Sunday was rather enjoyable. It was 'Connection Sunday' a.k.a Telematch in SKMC so basically the entire English Congregation, including the kids and us Youths were split into several teams. Half of my cell ended up in the 'White' group, which was essentially one of the adult's (can't remember who...bleah) CG. Of course, as it turns out, all the guys in my cell with the exception of Keith (who was in Tiff's Mom's (Siew Keng) group by the way) didn't turn up. So that left me with Sandar and Regina in Team 'White'. Talked a little to Regina during the games (it was more about the games rather than ourselves). She seems a pretty nice gal... ^_^
Anyways, after a very exciting Tug-of-War (which we got trashed by Auntie Siew Keng's team in the Finals), an absolutely horrendous caterpillar race (barely got past the 3rd person, which was me...) and an alright Water Race, our team finished second in the standings. Our prize? Two pizzas from Canadian 2 for 1. The pizza tasted okay, though not as warm as I would have liked.

I am now at Chapter 13 of Half-Blood Prince, 'The Secret Riddle', where they expand more on the history of Lord Voldemort and how he became the Dark Lord that he is now. A really good chapter for this book because you rarely see good character development for the main villain. Also, Harry is starting to see Ginny in a different light which is brilliant news for a H/G shipper like me and many others out there.

Melvin wants me to go back to HKMC on the 21st of August, which happens to be the day before my birthday. I got a sneaking suspicion that the patriach of the other Chia family is behind this. Perhaps, a birthday lunch treat? Well, I don't want to get my hopes up high or anything. Besides, I am also expecting a birthday treat from my parents so I'll think about it first.

I think I already know what to buy for her birthday or at least have a decent idea of what to get. Could be getting it either today, tomorrow or at worse, Saturday. I am pretty sure that YOU don't read my blog but I know for a fact that at least one of your good friends do, so if people like SH or Mel (who already knows...) are reading this, please don't tell HER that I am getting something for her birthday. Let it be a surprise, huh?

I've decided to let you go...go where God wills you to go...and be happy. Sometimes, it's just the thought that counts...

2005-07-27T22:15:00.000+08:00

Moving on...but I keep looking back...

Song of the moment: Lifehouse - Sick Cycle Carousel

I never thought I'd end up here
I never thought I'd be standing where I am
I guess I kind of thought it would be easier than this
I guess I was wrong
Now one more time

I tried to climb your steps
I tried to chase you down
I tried to see how low I could get down to the ground
I tried to earn my way
I tried to change this mind
You better believe I tried to beat this
Sick Cycle Carousel by Lifehouse

Into my second week of attachment, and sadly, its still more copying and binding. One of the group supervisor's, Alex, keeps telling us that he has something for us to do but since he's still busy with the training, he hasn't assigned us anything yet. Still, I am starting to get used to life at NCS so it ain't that bad.

Last friday's CG was at SKMC. The trip just seemed incredibly long and tiring, due to the fact that I was having a bout of flu at that time. Then, met my mom for dinner at Compass Point. The 'ban mian' there was pretty good though the noodles lacked elasticity. Made the trip to church on taxi with mom, since her CG was also near church. Jia Wei was the only one from my cell who was already there so we and a couple of the other youths there made small talk while waiting for people to come. One thing I definitely gained from this session of cell is that I FINALLY have most of the CG members' handphone numbers, which to me is a great achievement (LOL! I really have a strange way of looking at things, huh?). This friday's cell will be a cell-out, which basically means CG outing to those uninitiated. No definite plan as to what we'll be doing yet but Keith seemed interested in my 'watch a movie in church' idea so let's see how that goes.

I am finally at Chapter 8 of the Half-Blood Prince. Horace Slughorn has just been announced as Potion's Master and Snape has finally got what he always wanted, the post as Defence Against the Dark Arts professor. This essentially means more tough times for the threesome. Of course, due to some freak accident, I accidentally found out about this and a whole lot of other spoilers (including the most anticipated one, which major character dies in this book?) before hand thanks to a stupid article in the previous issue of TIME magazine. Damm it! Well, what's done can't be undone, unless I've got a Time-turner or something. Just have to remember, it's not the result which is exciting, it's always the process.

I feel so tired and weary of it all. I am moving on...but I keep looking back, hoping for something that probably won't happen. Everytime I look back, all I see is you doing the same, thinking of him. I am sick of this, feeling this way all the time. Let me move on... If one day you ever decide to forget about him and move on, just know that I'll always be there for you, no matter what.

PS: 11 days and counting down...need ideas, fast!

2005-07-20T22:42:00.000+08:00

It begins...

Song of the moment: Aerosmith - Cryin'

'Cause what you got inside
Ain't where your love should stay
Yeah, our love, sweet love, ain't love
'Till you give your heart away

I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin to forget you
Love is sweet misery
I was cryin' just to get you
Now I'm dyin' just to let you
Do what you do what you do down to me, baby, baby, baby
Cryin by Aerosmith

At last, my Final Year Project has been completed, SEALED and DELIVERED! Thus, having completed my FYP, its time for us project students to start on our IAP (Industrial Attachment Programme) a.k.a Internship a.k.a cheap labour. I've been assigned to National Computer Systems Private Limited, just a very long stone's throw away from NYP. I'll elaborate on my experience for the first 3 days a little later.

Friday's CG was, as usual, normal SKMC CG. With all the wedgie-ing and lame jokes, I absolutely wasn't fazed by it. Except maybe for a little while, when someone switched off the living room lights and brought out a birthday cake for Keith. I did remember Keith or someone else mentioning the event the previous cell but it somehow slipped my mind. Apparently, it was arranged my Sandar, who, not surprisingly, never did inform me of anything because she doesn't have my HP number, not that anyone in the CG other than Keith has my number anyway. Gee, don't I sound so absolutely anti-social? I was, of course, prepared for this. I did think about hanging out with the youths and all but it just feels weird, hanging out with people who seem to know me better than I know them even though we've met each other just a couple months back.
Admittedly, I am not the kind to approach people or trigger a conversation. If you've known me for less than 1-2 months, you'll find me a horrible conversationalist, since I don't talk much. I know its probably one of the aspects of my behavior I should change but I do try. My initial estimate of myself needing about 3 months to adjust to SKMC life is about to go down the drain. I thought it'll be the same as when I got into NYP but I failed to take into account that I only meet them at least twice a week, once at CG and the other in Church on Sunday unlike school, where I meet my classmates nearly everyday. I am NOT totally anti-social, I've got this blog for the general public to gawk at and I do talk to the younger youths like Joel and Lester, though because sometimes they hang out at my house with my brother, who is their Junior, and are graduates of my mom's Children Ministry. Then, some of the HKMC people might ask, 'If it's tough adjusting, why did you move in the first place?'. I moved back to HKMC when my family first left Hakka. Ever since then, I've always felt a sort of 'Spiritual' distance from my family. It was in my best interest for me to move to SKMC. We all need a little time adjusting, maybe for me, its just a little longer than others.

Last Saturday was the ACJS Nomad carnival, which my brother was involved in. It was rather interesting, with all the horribly over-priced food, activities and all. My brother also played a part in his class play (Thankfully non-speaking...LOL). I've got a couple pictures from that performance. If anyone is remotely interested, I might post them up. I also spotted my old Primary Six form teacher, Madam Tan, who unfortunately, didn't spot me. Anything gained from the carnival? Sadly, none. However, I did see a couple of cute girls, whom I am confident are at least 15 or 16. Maybe, as Jon always says, future investment? Honestly though, I don't believe in 'future investments'. For me, its always alright to start out as friends but I'll never befriend a girl just for the sake of obtaining a potential future girlfriend.

Anyway, more importantly, it was also 16th July 2005. As all non-muggles know, 16th July 2005 = Release date for Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince!! Me, being the clever one (although there are those who dispute that statement), decided to order the book from SingPost. Why brave the crowd at the bookstores and have a 1 over 100000 chance of winning some personally autographed copies of the book (of course, if you were to give one to me, I definitely wouldn't mind) when you can sit down and relax, have a coffee (or go to a school carnival, in my case) and have it personally delivered to your house on that very morning? Sometimes, you kids have to think properly about your choices, you know...
Read first 2 chapters already, looks great. I'll elaborate more in the coming weeks as I read further.

Finally, back to the main topic, Attachment. First 3 days so far is alright. Mainly just settling down and getting an idea of the project that we'll be working on (It's something for the Singapore Police Force and I can't mention it due to some confidentiality agreement I've signed with the company and the Singapore Government). We also made full use of their recreational facilities there, which includes an arcade room, 2 pool tables (I am saved!!!), a couple of carrom tables, 2 ping pong tables and an in-house gym (^_^). For the past two days, it was mostly printing and binding of training materials for the project which has dominated our workload for the past two days. However, according to one of our group head's, we can look forward to some programming, SQL and JSP soon. Wish me luck people!

You've always deserved more than he could ever give...probably more than I could ever give to, if I ever had a chance. Move on...and maybe you'll find someone who could give you the answers you are looking for.

2005-07-12T21:30:00.000+08:00

You are Everything

Song of the moment: Lifehouse - Everything

You are the strength that keeps me walking
You are the hope that keeps me trusting
You are the life to my soul
You are my purpose
You're everything

And how can I stand here with you
and not be moved by you
Would you tell me how could it be
any better than this yeah

You calm the storms and you give me rest
You hold me in your hands you won't let me fall
You still my heart and you take my breath away
Would you take me in
Take me deeper now
Everything by Lifehouse

Final Year Project is finally COMPLETE!! At least for the Powerpoint presentation slides and the actual program anyway. There's of course still that minor problem called the report...
Anyway, the project took me quite some time to figure out how to do the grading function but my preseverance has finally paid off. Thanks to everyone who helped and tried to help. I appreciate that you all took the time to look through my project. Also, I am very happy to have a project partner like MJ. Even though neither of us had a good impression of the other initially, we became friends, slacked and still managed to finish the project. Don't worry, we'll see each other again one day....LOL!

Had my first cell group in quite sometime at Keith's house. Honestly, I've been slacking in my relationship with God due to my project. Since my project is now nearing completion, I guess I should start making up for it, huh? The CG consists of Einstein, Sebastian, Andy, Jia Wei (? haha, not sure of your name, sorry.), Sandar, who happens to be Steven's sister(according to my Mom), Ming Kiat (ACS kia like myself...) and Daniel (I think? Wasn't present. Possibly the guy who's in ACS's Integrated Program?). Had a slight misunderstanding with Sandar initially though (I am 176-178cm tall...you call that short?? And do I really look old??), when she thought I was some weirdo when she first saw me outside Keith's house. Cell was enjoyable, in some ways more than others. Sebastian, Einstein, Ming Kiat and Jia Wei were trying to wedgie each other after cell and caused quite a bit of chaos. Managed to hitch a ride from Dad, who was fetching Mum from her cell and Pei Yu-jie to see Keith.

Then Sunday was also CAC Youth Sunday. After sermon (by Reverend Lek as usual...), the youth were supposed to go to East Coast for some semi-competitive bowling and lunch ordered from Kenny Rogers (drool...). However, I declined their offer, saying that I still had my project to do (I only finished the program yesterday...). Of course, that wasn't really the main reason. It was really because I CANNOT play bowling for nuts. I know that it was more for fun but I just couldn't bear to humiliate myself in front of ALL the SKMC youth in a bowling game. Don't worry, I'll join you all for future activities...as long as its NOT bowling.

I will find out where I am attached to tomorrow. Hopefully somewhere near my place and has an in-house gym (^_^). I am rather partial to NCS since it seems quite a alright place. But they apparently still owe SJ some cash for work he did for them after the 'O's...well, as long as its not in some ulu place with crap pay, where they make you work like slaves...

Recently, I've been feeling a measure of lost. I really miss HKMC. And perhaps, I kinda miss YOU too. Honestly, I still don't know if what I am doing is correct. I am just following the road which God is guiding me. He has a plan for us all and he definitely has one for you. Trust in him and live happy...

2005-07-07T22:20:00.000+08:00

PS: Just to clear things up...

I've had people asking me about my reasons for leaving HKMC so I guess its better to clear things up before you people start wildly speculating.
First off, it has ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to do with any person or group in church. It didn't leave because I was on bad terms with someone, neither is it because of a relationship problem. I was and never will be that shallow to leave just because of any one person or group in Church. Although I may have said or done things which might have left a bad taste in certain people's mouths, but I sincerely hope that you'll forgive me for it.
No member of my family or SKMC forced me to move there. Except perhaps the occasional nagging from my mom (^_^).
Honestly, the main reason I left was probably because of family. On a personal level, I felt that it wasn't good for me to be worshipping in a different church from my family, especially in the long term.
In a sense, there are also more opportunities for me to serve in SKMC compared to HKMC due to the way things are run there. I know that different churches have different ways of doing things and so I am not criticizing either church in anyway at all.
Finally, I guess I needed a fresh start. I felt that I was starting to stagnate a little in HKMC and needed a change of environment. Many things have happened to me in and outside of church and perhaps, it was better for me to leave to further my spiritual and mental growth.

PS to CA: This is a story I heard from a long time ago. I can't really remember it word for word so I'll try my best to type it out.
One day, a father brought his young son to the city for a holiday. It was the boy's first time in the city and he was fascinated by the sounds, lights, the tall buildings and the people. However, it was soon late in the night and it was time for them to leave. As his father drove away from the city, the boy kept looking back at the fascinating city he just left, wondering when was he going to once again be amazed by the sights and sounds. When finally the city was out of sight, the boy turned back, sat down and complained to his father, "Now that the city is gone, all I will see is an endless stretch of road before we reach home..."
His father replied, "Had you just faced the front instead of looking back at the city, you would have seen a beautiful sunrise..."
Never look back at what is already lost and miss the beautiful sunrise in front of you. Live for yourself and never give up on your dreams.

2005-07-06T22:30:00.000+08:00

When you breathe, I want to be the air for you...

Song of the moment: Bon Jovi - I'll Be There For You

Now I'm praying to God you'll give me one more chance, girl

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you

I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you
I'll Be There For You by Bon Jovi

Just when I closed the door, when I thought I could move on, I heard your cries from behind the door...is it too late to go back?

Quite a bit happened this week, so to make it a little easier on my mental capacity, I'll go in chronological order.
Starting from Friday, MJ and myself switched to a new lab in Block R from my original one in Block S. It was rather annoying, considering it's already the 'eleventh hour' for the project (currently, its my second to last week (Week 11) for my project). Also, I've got no internet connection there, so it's really boring. Moving however, is not without its advantages. There isn't any staff posted to my lab, which literally means free reign for us, at least until the lab supervisor comes for his daily check up of the labs. So usually, you'll see at least one person in the lab playing MP3s from the computer at low 'blast' and I'll report late as usual and continue slacking when I get there. Of course, I don't slack all the time. I am now doing the last (and sadly, most important) function of my drawing program, the grading system. I already got a sample out but it obviously didn't work so I'll continue to work on it, hopefully finishing it by tomorrow. Then, I'll be able to concentrate on my powerpoint presentation and report. Help in anyway would of course, be much appreciated.

Went to SKMC with my family last Sunday. First person I talked to there, was coincidentally, Keith, who was my group leader for 40 DOP and I would be joining his Cell and SS class from here on. The usual people would be there, like Sebastian and Andy (if I am right...), not so sure about the rest though. Guess I'll find out this Friday, huh? I'll also be trained to be one of their future Cell group leaders. I already knew about this since my mom gave me a heads up the previous week, telling me about what to expect when I go there. As I think I've already told Blond, I'll also be doing computer maintenance for D'Anchor Bay (their youth cafe...also open to public) when their public access computers come. One of the Bay people, Steven, apparently knows that I'll be helping them with the PCs (probably from Sally or my Mom) and was enthusiastically talking to me about it a few week ago. Ever since I went there, I've always been under the impression that they know me better than I know them, which really isn't surprising, considering my Mom's position in SKMC. Well, C'est La Vie!

Melvin also came to my house on Sunday night and stayed over last night just to do the video for the YEP trip to Thailand about 2 months back. Helped him a little, until I decided to hit the sack a little after 1am. Didn't manage to see the complete version (He left a copy on the comp, so I'll view it later...) as we were both kind of rushing out, me to school, him back home. At least we both managed to hitch a ride on my Dad's car.

I also had another celebrity not-so-close-up moment when FORMER Man United and current Real Madrid player, David Beckham came over to NYP to present an award for Outstanding Volunteer to a NYAA coordinator from Singapore Polytechnic. I can somehow still hear the incessant 'Marry me, BECKHAM!!' screams in my head if I try hard enough. I got pictures of Mr. Beckham, if you don't mind staring at the brilliant white dot on my handphone's tiny little screen (apologies, since I forgot to bring my digi cam). If you Beckham obsessed fans really want the picture, just give me a message and I'll send them over.

How can I smile when I know you're crying? How can I sleep when I know you're hurting inside? All because of HIM...
Even when I am not there, even if you don't look at me that way...When you breathe, I want to be the air for you...I'll be the water when you get thirsty...when you get drunk, I'll be the wine...I'll be there for you, remember that. Wherever or whenever you need me, I'll come.

2005-06-28T23:48:00.000+08:00

Thanks for the Memories...for the times I'll never forget...

Song of the moment: Engelbert Humperdinck - Last Waltz

But the love we had was goin' strong
Through the good and bad we'd get along
And then the flame of love died in your eye
My heart was broke in two when you said goodbye

I had the last waltz with you
Two lonely people together
I fell in love with you
The last waltz should last forever

It's all over now
Nothing left to say
Just my tears and the orchestra playing
Last Waltz by Engelbert Humperdinck

That should have been said has been said. From next week onwards, I'll be going to SKMC permanently. My mom is without a doubt, delighted at my decision to finally join them there. Others, like Blond for example, feels rather disappointed that I'll be moving over there. Then there are those, like Sin Eng, whom I feel expected it to happen sooner or later, so he wasn't as surprised or disappointed as Blond was.
Perhaps, one thing I should have done was to tell Shu Hui, Cari-ann, Joanne and Daniel (my 'clique' in HKMC) of my decision. Guess I couldn't develop the nerve to tell them...should anyone of you be reading this, Shu Hui the most likely suspect, I am very sorry for not telling you in person. I really hope you'll respect my decision in this matter and not pursue it any further. I know that I left the Church on bad and uneasy(?) terms with certain people. Hopefully, without my somewhat constant presence in HKMC, you'll all feel better (especially someone who's rather hypocritical there, how can you hate another fellow Christian and still go to church?).
Please do note, that while my mom's rather constant nagging about this matter was a factor, me going to SKMC was a totally personal decision. It is of my own free will and the reasons for it I have already explained to Blond and Sin Eng, which they have accepted gracefully. For the rest of you guys, I guess you'll find out sooner or later.

Added in a display user drawing function into the program. So that leaves velocity/time graph and grading of drawing. The two toughest parts of the entire project. Anyone knowledgeable in JAVA, please help.

Last Wednesday, I went to work as an usher at Engelbert Humperdinck's one night only concert at Singapore Expo. Sure the work was tough (Can you imagine what it feels like standing for about an hour++ ripping tabs of several thousand tickets and trying to direct the customers to the ushers in the hall at the same time?) but it was worth every minute of it. The atmosphere at the concert was amazing and the songs he sung, well, let's just say he definitely puts the capital 'C' in the word 'Classic'. Engelbert Humperdinck is really a singer in a class of his own and his songs were really moving. Besides, getting paid $20 and watching the concert for free is a definite plus point.

Had the TNT ('The Nanyang Times' for those of you who don't know...) orientation on Saturday. Mardina forgot to take the keys for the room (sigh...) and with her being in the NDP sign language classes, it was up to the sub-editor (or rather Vice-President) of TNT, namely myself of course, to take charge of things.
We had to settle with our orientation being out in the open 'court' on level 3 of the SDC (Student Development Center, where all the CCA rooms are...). Started slow (or rather, it was slow all the way through), but it was alright, thanks to the games which Hue Min organized. Then we finally took over the room being used by Community Service Club (CSC) for the sign language classes which I mentioned earlier after some haggling by SAO (Student Affairs Officer) Janette, who was incidentally in charge of both CSC and TNT (at least there are some advantages(?) to having the same SAO for two clubs). Mardina then took over proceedings by introducing the club and our various activities (mainly interviewing people, writing articles, photo-taking at school events etc...).
While we were having lunch break, the Sakuran Japanese Cultural Club who were also having their orientation, performed the dance for Love Revolution by Morning Musume for some disabled kids who were also having some event in the area (busy place it was that day, the SDC...). Me being a semi-rabid fan of Morning Musume, resisted the urge to shout out asking where was Maki Goto or Natsumi Abe. I thought their dance was pretty good, considering I was standing at the back looking at them from an angle where all I could see was a couple of backsides and their side profile (just being honest...).
Anyway, back to the topic, after a couple more games, assigning articles to a few of the newbies and some weird events (like me chasing out a stray cockroach from the room...), the orientation came to an end. I felt that some of the new members were kind of bored out by the end of the orientation but at least they got to know us and a few of the other newbies. The survival of the club will depend on this new generation...
Sadly, no chio xiao mei mei's(lol). Other than maybe...

Then I had a 'gay' outing today. Went out with part of the 'gang', namely SJ, Jon and myself, to watch 'A Lot Like Love'. SJ was complaining about how horribly 'gay' it was for three guys to go watch a romantic movie (well, it WAS kinda weird to have no female company...) and was saying how he would disassociate himself from us should he be spotted by any of his outside friends.
I did have one 'gay' outing before with Terrence when we went to watch 'Wo xiang jia ge you qian ren' (Marry a rich man) a couple of years back (it was a kinda 'urgh' experience for both of us and a little funny for me too...we were sitting at the 'inside' of the side seats when 2 girls, one rather chio, the other horizontally challenged, came to our row. The chio girl decide to move into the row first, meaning that she'll be sitting next to Terrence. I was like 'Darn it! I should have let Terrence go in first' while Terrence was grinning happily to me. Then suddenly, for some reason, she decided to change seats with her horizontally challenged friend. In the end, I was the one trying to control my laughter while Terrence was cursing his luck.).
Really, why is it alright for three girls to watch a romantic movie together while it's weird to have three guys in the same position? In the end, it's all about the impression that we would like to give other people. The macho-macho image perhaps, or maybe the Sensitive New Age Guy (SNAG) image? It's tough for us guys...
The movie was pretty good. It was rather romantic and funny while not being over cliche in its use of romantic settings. However, I was rather annoyed by their going through the years kind of thing, which although necessary, kind of interrupted the flow of the movie a bit. Overall, a 4 out of 5 stars from me.

To Hakka and all my Sunday School teachers, thank you for bringing me up in a christ-like manner. To 'our clique', may our friendship continue to stay strong. To CA, thank you for just being there. I was really glad to get to know someone like you. May we continue to be friends always.
Thanks for the Memories, HKMC, for the times I'll never forget...

2005-06-20T22:00:00.000+08:00

Just a matter of Speaking...

Song of the moment: Flow - GO!!! (Naruto 4th OP)

How absolutely wonderful! Someone I know has asked me one of life's MOST IMPORTANT question. Now, all of you might be wondering, just what in the world is that QUESTION?? Ta-da! It's actually, "What's your (insert random expletive) Problem??" Now, of course there are a bunch of other questions asked of me in that particular post which of course, I may or may not answer later in my entry. However, I won't put those other questions here due to various reasons.

So Melodie, since you are wondering just What is my problem?, I'll gladly answer them for you.
1) I find it a problem that we can't have a decent, civilized conversation. Why? Well, I don't see why we can't talk to each other. It's not as if I am going to eat you up or anything, right?

2) I find it a problem when you insult a good friend of mine. You can call me anything you want, Loser, Trash, Stalker, Pervert or whatever...but don't you ever DARE drag Melvin into this. Throughout that entire episode, he's been an absolute gentleman. To my knowledge, I cannot see anything that he's done to you within the past 6 months which would make you call him disgusting.

3) I also find it a problem when you assume things about me. How well do you know me, really? In your own words, "watching me means you now approve?". Approve WHAT? Just to let you know, I never really did approve him wooing you if that's what you're talking about. It's just that as a friend, I'll try to support him in whatever he does, giving him advice etc... Till now, I never really gave my support to him on this. In fact just last Sunday, I actually told him it was a good thing that you two didn't hook up together...

4) Finally, I can't believe you're still hung up on that episode. It's been nearly a year already, please do move on and grow up... Melvin has gotten over you already, so even if you can't be friends with him, I'll appreciate it if you'll stop bad-mouthing him.

Still, I guess I should apologize to you about your old blog and everything. I am very sorry about making you feel uneasy and I promise that it'll never happen again. I also really appreciate it that you made it absolutely clear that we are NOT FRIENDS. Don't worry, I won't bother you needlessly again in future.

~~~~~

Back to less angry stuff, then. Added a timer system to my program and now, I am also able to record the timing when each point was drawn. Still have absolutely no idea how to do the Graph function. Anyone who can help in some way, no matter how small, please do. It will be very much appreciated.

Found out last Friday that I got selected (along with 9 others, including KT) for an interview by the National Computer Services HUB for my attachment. Interview is this Friday on he 24th of June at 0945Hrs in their office in AMK. Do wish me luck and pray that the pay will be decent.

Met up with YX and Joseph (last time I saw him would probably be when we collected the 'O' Level cert) on Saturday. YX's still in Police. According to him, while the living conditions there aren't on par with those at Tekong and the food is really Malay (eg: Laksa for breakfast, Nasi Briyani for Lunch or something like that....), the PT there is a lot less stressful than Tekong and he gets promoted straight to Corporal upon POP, unlike the Privates from Tekong. He's hoping not to end up in some lousy posting like the Airport Police. Coast Guard does seem pretty interesting though, can look forward to confrontations with the Malaysians...LOL. Wish him the best of luck when he POPs this coming July...
Joseph, being an Indonesian citizen, doesn't need to go for NS and he's now spending his time doing some Computing(?) course and he's got a driving license. Apparently he's driving his family's(?) BMW 3 series and does seem pretty annoyed with the Traffic Police here ("They fine me for killing the grass..."). He's leaving for the States this August 8th for further studies, RIGHT before National Day. Speaking of National Day, the Police Force will be doing the Guard of Honor this year and luckily for YX, he's not a Inspector-in-training, which means he doesn't need to be marching during the parade. He'll probably be on duty though, for Security and other stuff which happen during National Day.

After Church on Sunday, went to pre-order THE BOOK at SingPost. I definitely prefer free delivery straight to your doorstep rather than a 95% chance of winning in a lucky draw or some scratch and win card. There are some people who feel that THE BOOK is not good, that it manipulates kids into thinking that they have special powers. Please do not worry. I am NOT a kid neither am I easily manipulated (well, not by a book anyway...). As my mom says, as long as you know what you're reading and is able to differentiate fact from fiction, it's okay (well, something to that effect anyway). Certainly, the fact that I am Christian helps too. Staying close to God is essential, especially at our age.

Missed the chance to tell certain people about my decision. I'll try and find an opportunity this week, before this coming Sunday of course.

Sometimes, it's just a matter of Speaking...

2005-06-14T22:07:00.000+08:00

Coming round the Bend

Song of the moment: Lifehouse - Better Luck Next Time

Don't close your eyes, you need to see it all
It's no surprise that they break you down
Least they won't give you up

Stop tell me where you going
Maybe the one you love isn't there
You're going under
But you're over it all so you don't care about all that I had to see
I'd watch and wait until you'd come around, around...
Better Luck Next Time by Lifehouse

Just came back from KK Hospital. My brother apparently has some kind of stomach pains and the doctor suspects it might be appendicitis so they're keeping him under observation for the next 48 hours (Though of course, it might just be a case of muscle cramps or something like that...). Prayers will be much appreciated.

Didn't get to watch Hitchhiker's on Wednesday nor Mr and Mrs. Smith on Sunday. Twice in a row has Jon's movie outing plans be scuppered. Especially since I was really looking forward to watching both movies. I am sure I'll watch them somehow, legally or illegally.

Went to HKMC cell for the second time last Friday. Most of the people were there (incld. CA, Mel, and Jason), with the exception of Abby and Daniel. It was alright, nothing really went wrong, but there wasn't anything to shout about either. It was nice to hear that the rest of the class are still bringing new people to Church. However, I find it rather disturbing that the committee members in our Cell actually said that they feel they've achieved nothing (other than the Kelong trip...) throughout the year (Indeed, "I find this lack of faith disturbing" Guess what movie it comes from?). It really makes you think, if the people in power feel that they can't really do anything, what can we commoners achieve. Just two, three years ago, I felt that the Youth in Hakka were still quite active. Sadly, how the Mighty have fallen.

As you might have read in my previous post, I didn't go to HKMC for the past two weeks because I am helping out in one of the games for the SKMC Youth camp. I was playing the part of one of the suspects in their "Find the Murderer" game. It was really fun manipulating the people with your answers (I just answered based on the list of sample questions they gave me, everything else not on the list I just made it up for fun... ^_^). Kind of had fun...it would have been better had I not ended up in the wrong place initially (Sally's bro sent me to Rivervale Mall instead of Plaza) and the weather not been quite stifling (It didn't really help matters when it so happened that the suspects clothing were a black tee with cap).

Note: My brother has acquired a somewhat old but (according to Ming Yao, anyway...) brilliant game called Star Wars: Knights Of The Old Republic for his 11th Birthday. Any tips for a newbie? Since my bro is in hospital, I'll be the first one to play it. ^_^

Received an Email this morning from my mentor about the Bill Gates talk at Suntec next month. Apparently, we IT and engineering students are invited too. An actual legitimate reason to not go to school and we'll get to see one of the richest people in the world too. Anyone wants to come with me???

Final Year Project: Anyone know how to retrieve integers from a data file and use them as XY coordinates to from a drawing?? Help much appreciated!

I really would like to think that I've already made my decision. However, there are always things holding me back, making me second guess that decision. Hopefully the path I've chosen is the right one for me...