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Monday, November 27, 2006

The Great Unknown

Song of the moment: Matt Redman - Dancing Generation

You mercy taught us how to dance
To celebrate with all we have
And we'll dance to thank You for mercy

Your glory taught us how to shout
To lift Your name in all the earth
And we'll shout to the praise of Your glory
Dancing Generation by Matt Redman

Slightly over a week into my new posting at 1AMB, Seletar Camp and we're all starting to get used to the simple/slacker lifestyle there. I try my best to make it as meaningful as possible by catching up on the things which I didn't have time to do before, like reading, watching old VCDs and maybe even a little fanfic writing if I ever feel up to it. The lack of PT there is really starting to get to me. Just a matter of time before I go back to being a zero-fighter. I guess I'll have to do some OTOT training.

Donated some of my life force (a.k.a Blood) after the CO parade at Ayer Rajah Camp last Friday. Wasn't a particularly pleasant experience for me. Felt a little bit on the weak and faint side after that. I doubt I'll be donating blood again. However, another half day off could be an influential factor when I make the decision in future...

Found out on Sunday that I'll be involved (together with Agnes, Jamie, Matthew and Sandar) in teaching the EBS/BCL classes for the Sec 1 and 2s next year. Admittedly, I am not a natural teacher of any sort neither am I the type who can control and discipline a class of any age but I'll take this as a learning experience, especially since I would want to continue serving in the Youth Ministry here in SKMC.

The same old feelings of doubt and apprehension are creeping up on me again. Am I overly concerned? Honestly, no. In a way, I guess I am a little worried about where all this will eventually lead to, being at my current age and all (Do I sound old?). Haha, maybe my biological clock has begun ticking...LOL! They say that I'll know when the time comes and I still do trust in that statement. It feels a lot easier now than before to put all this in God's hands and trust his timing. Till now, I still believe that she's the one. Any basis for this belief? None really, just a feeling I have in my heart about this. Still, God's divine plan for our lives will always be beyond our understanding. Maybe things will change, maybe not. Once again, only time will tell...

Saturday, November 18, 2006

Is this where I want to be?

Song of the moment: Dishwalla - Angels or Devils

The angels they burn inside for us
Are we ever
Are we ever gonna learn to fly
The devils they burn inside of us
Are we ever gonna come back down
Come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold
Angels or Devils by Dishwalla

I've finally graduated from School of Provost and am officially a military policeman of the Singapore Armed Forces. It's been a not-so-long and somewhat arduous path and I've finally reached the end of this journey and the start of another.
...Okay, maybe I sound too melodramatic. It doesn't feel as emotional when compared with POP-ing from BMT, in fact I don't really feel emotional at all. It feels more like a natural progression than anything else. A sort of maturity, perhaps? LOL...

I've been posted to AMB at Seletar Camp, where I am supposed to guard sensitive equipment and prevent if from falling into the wrong hands. Haha, sounds really cool, huh? Amazing, how I can make a boring and sedentary job in some ulu place sound so exciting. Apparently, it's located DEEP inside Seletar Camp (approx. 20 mins+ from the Seletar guard room) and its rather run down (I get the feeling that the lockers we're using comes from my father's generation of army equipment). Also, only one bus(103) actually stops outside Seletar Camp, the rest of the buses stop at Picadilly Circus and you'll have to walk like 2KM inside to reach the Seletar Camp's entrance. Well, at least Seletar Camp is reasonably near my house (10 mins car ride away). I guess this is the price that one has to pay for a so-called slacker posting...

BTW, forgot to mention this in my previous post. I have purchased a new handphone to replace my 6230, a Nokia 3250. Another purchase I have made is FM 2007 for the PC and Okami for the PS2. Planning to get FF XII soon. ^_^

1 month or so away from Christmas. And I actually feel quite relaxed about it. No nervousness or apprehension of any sort unlike the past two years. Maybe because it's still early, I haven't even thought about how I'll spend my Christmas holidays, what presents to buy, etc. I'll take things as they come, still got like a few more days to go before it ends anyway. So just endure the last few days of "torture", then maybe...we'll see how it goes.

Saturday, November 11, 2006

Without Fear or Favour

Song of the moment: Hillsong United Live - All I Need Is You

Left my fear by the side of the road
Hear You speak
Won't let go
Fall to my knees as I lift my hands to pray

Got every reason to be here again
Father's love that draws me in
And all my eyes wanna see is a glimpse of You
All I Need Is You by Hillsong United

Guess it's been quite sometime since I blogged. I've been busy with many things like movies, shopping, friends, PC and the like. Lots of stuff have happened since my last post like my P226 range, EX Moonlight Marshall and Military Law test among others so I'll probably just go through those which I felt was interesting or important.

The P226 range was somewhat of a joke really. The first range was cut halfway through due to an out of control fire at one of the many rifle ranges and I nearly screwed up my second one due to my crappy shooting. Got 16 out of 50 for the trial followed by 21 out of 50 for the actual test thus I had to go for a re-shoot. Nearly failed again (26 out of 50) had it not been for my above average shooting for my standing and sitting positions.

EX Moonlight Marshall was quite fun. It was kind of a mixed feeling of excitement and nervousness going back to Palau Tekong. The 2 day 3 night exercise basically involved Traffic control, security and PW operations with lots of concertina wire and sandbags. Even though I had very minimal sleep for the first 40 or so hours, it was a very enjoyable experience. I was a bit disappointed though, that I didn't get a chance to visit my old PS and Sect Comm in my old BMT company. Nontheless, I am glad that I enjoyed and learnt a lot from the experience.

I'll be graduating from SOP this coming Thursday. While I do feel happier than usual, it doesn't really reach the height of the feeling of passing out from Tekong. Guess I am already used to it. Got my somewhat ugly/smart/cool MP No.3 uniform which I'll be wearing during my GP. I'll probably be wearing it for the rest of my NS life since my posting will most likely be Gombak or Portsdown. Looks like I'll have to get used to wearing a No.3 instead of a No.4.

I'll really miss you guys come 16th November. Glad most of us survived MP Basic 03/2006 together. Good luck to you guys, wherever you're posted to!

Ming Feng said something to me after reading my blog, which is more of a reminder of what YX said to me when we met a couple of months ago. "Don't let _____ be the center of my life." Have I really lost focus on what's really important? I really hope not...

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